[⚠️Warning Caution⚠️]
This content is written as an homage to Suga's second mixtape album, "Dear my friend" and several characters.
It will contain scenes of profanity and drug addiction.
(Those who are uncomfortable, please cut off your hands in advance)
There are 10 episodes in total.
Transferred from a collection of short stories.
*All stories come from the author's head.
Unauthorized distribution and reproduction are prohibited.
©️ Earthquake in My Head (2022)
Dear my friend 1
The next time I met Min Yoongi was at my workplace when we were in our late 40s.
BTS, who had been together for a long time without disbanding, was carrying out various activities in Korea, such as free lectures and charity performances, as part of the social contribution projects run by each member, starting with their 25th anniversary album.
If I had the chance to wash away all my past mistakes I made to him... or if I had never done those things in the first place... as he said in his song... would we still be friends??
I couldn't forgive him for what I did to him, even though I shouldn't have done it as a human being... I couldn't forgive myself even when I thought about it.
Since coming to my senses in my early 30s, I've lived diligently, with a heart of repentance. I've learned various things, worked hard, and saved money. Later, I saved up for tuition and living expenses to major in social welfare and further my studies in addiction counseling and psychotherapy. Now, I work as a team leader at a center for drug addicts like me in rural Gyeongsang Province, and I continue to live quietly, with a heart of repentance. It's hard to say for certain that Min Yoongi's influence on my work is completely absent. After all, his actions have certainly served as a valuable example for me...
It was an ordinary morning when I went to work at the center.
“Wow... Team Leader!!! It's the Team Leader~~!!"
Sam, the new baby at the center, came over the partition to find me with a bright expression on his face, as if he was up to something.
“What... is going on...?Mr. Lee Soo..?
I think it would be better if I spoke more calmly...?
I'm getting older and my hearing isn't that good.
“At this rate, my eardrums are going to fall off...”
I lowered my voice quietly and raised one eyebrow.
The counseling center's baby, Risoo, has a lively personality and, influenced by her parents, loves old K-pop. Surprisingly, even now, over 20 years after her debut, she still listens to music from the 2010s to the 2020s, often playing their music during quiet mornings. She finds the over-the-top concepts and complex music videos fascinating and fun to delve into.
When she brought out BTS's music, I couldn't help but freeze. He was my only friend who I spent my teens and early twenties with... (But... I wonder if I'm still his friend in his memories...) The lyrics of the music he made in the early days were filled with hatred, resentment, and longing for me, so the music she played in the counseling room weighed on my heart.
But what should I do... I have no choice...
Everything is my karma...
I almost brought him down as he was climbing towards the top, but later, his music, which I truly listened to, saved me from the bottom of life. His sincere words, his music... brought me back to life.
but....
Every time I listen to music, the memories of my past are so ugly and regrettable that I can't just enjoy listening to the music I play out of habit like she does.
Every time I listened to music, I felt a strong sense of turmoil and pain in my heart, as I still stood at the crossroads of repentance, as if I still had to restrain myself and put myself to sleep. The mistakes of my youth weighed down on me as if a huge rock were crushing me.