I don't know if it's morning or night, I just wake up formally.
As always, I went to the dirty mirror.
I was no longer the same. My hair was too messy to be described as cute, and I had dark circles under my eyes that were so intriguing I couldn't even imagine how far they went.
His appearance was not suitable for being called human.
He was afraid that if he lifted the covers from that creaky bed, he would see my body.
I wanted to die more than anyone else, but I also wished more than anyone else to escape this hell. I desperately wanted it.
I could have forgotten the past and gone back to my old life. It was an extremely selfish thing to do because it was too hard and painful.
Covered in dust, he was barely visible. He was living on the top floor of a large, spacious house. He was in a narrow, sunlight-free attic. He was full of thoughts.
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(past)
A dirty personality inherited from bad parents.
The violence that was constantly inflicted on me as a child
It was very fatal for him in his childhood white.
By the time we escape from that hell,
No, around the time I was abandoned by my parents
I was 17 years old
Anger that he was abandoned, not that he abandoned himself
I died once then.
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but
By chance I meet my angel.
The angel gave me
It taught me everything about this world and saved my life.
My friends and I played like normal kids our age.
I was so happy that I felt anxious.
It must have been strange. It was so peaceful that I felt it.
The first bread I made this morning was perfect.
There was only one empty spot in the parking lot.
No one forgot or was late for an appointment.
Didn't they say that people don't know when or where they will die?
My angel
Dead.
My devil. My enemy. He was sentenced to death by his parents.
I cried for several days.
Without any action or characteristic
just...
I just cried.
It's so sad that even the person who sees it feels sad
I cried a lot
After that
I never cry.
You who came to me were a light and a ray of hope
He left me.
You saved me and then at the moment I most longed for you threw me back into the abyss. That's so typical of you.
I felt deep in my bones that I was nothing without you.
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The reason I stayed still even though I knew you were using me was because I loved you.
I lost everything that day.
