Lucid dream.
It means being aware that you are dreaming while you are dreaming.
Last night I experienced a lucid dream, something I thought only happened in comics and movies.
Now everyone is tired.
Manager Kim, who parachuted in and monopolized the love of the manager and deputy manager,
I, Manager Jeon, have become much busier taking care of his work.
With a father who lost all his money to gambling and became insane and violent.
My mother, who said she would get a divorce and start a new life, ended up getting cancer and being hospitalized after becoming addicted to alcohol and cigarettes.
I could only lament my situation, which seemed believable even if it was a drama.
But last night I had a dream
That's also happylucid dreamingsecond.
I left work early for the first time in a while.
At the manager's suggestion to have a company dinner to celebrate the end of this project,
I said with a pale face that it wasn't possible today.
Manager Kim gave Manager Jeon some sweet words to rest.
"after.."
I came home early for the first time in a long time
I just wanted to rest.
"Ah... I have to wash..."
I felt uneasy today because I was running around here and there
Lying on the sofa, gravity just felt so great.
"Ugh... I want to sleep like this.."
"..Just stay for 10 minutes...and then wash up.."
Just close your eyes like that
I fell asleep.
"uh..?"
When I woke up, I saw something I had never seen before
But it feels familiar and comfortable
I was in the field
It made me feel good
I felt a strange sense of comfort and stability.
"..Is this a dream..?"
Whether it was a dream or not, that place and that situation were so good
I decided to just enjoy it
"...!"
Toreuk
"Huh?"
Tears flowed without me knowing it
I felt it soon
Where is this place
When I was young,
So when mom and dad lived together
I was afraid every day, I was afraid of everything
With parents who fight all the time
I was just afraid of my little brother's body temperature as he trembled in my arms.
Every time that happened, I whispered to my younger brother.
"This is a wide, green field."
"Jungkook and his sister came to play!!"
It was something I said every day in bed, unable to hear the noise from the living room.
"Jungkook, we are happy people."
"I can laugh like this with my older sister!"
My heart was crying, but my words were laughing.
"Sister... your eyes look sad..."
Jeongguk's soft voice almost brought tears to my eyes
He said with an even bigger smile.
"No? Jungkook looks prettier when he smiles too."
Only then did a bright smile appear on Jungkook's face.
Tears welled up on my face as that memory came to mind.
Enough to make it fall down with a thud if you hit it lightly.
Jungkook met a good person and went to live in America.
Enough to forget that memory
Then, from somewhere, a familiar, soft voice came to me.
"Are you happy, sister?"
-Whew
"..Jungkook"
"Sister.. hehe"
I thought.
This is a dream, I am dreaming.
Before I knew it, tears were welling up in my eyes.
Jeongguk came over and hugged her.
Just pat me on the back
Just like I did for him when I was little
After crying for a while, I felt like a weight had been lifted from my heart.
I should have treated Jungkook better when he was younger.
This thought occurred to me.
As if reading my thoughts, Jeongguk said
"When you were little, Mom and Dad fought a lot."
"I lived happily back then thanks to my older sister."
"Were you happy because you had a sister?"
"That's why I really like you, sister."
"...If I didn't have a sister..."
Only Jeongguk's hazy expression remained in my eyes and my mind became hazy.
"...Okay...I love you"
I couldn't hear the middle part, but I could feel it
Jungkook...is it okay...
I woke up to my phone ringing.
-father-
"...ha"
I felt myself return to reality with the three letters "Father" appearing on my phone screen.
"hello"
"..Hey, I put 1000 in your account."
"I'm sorry for making my daughter suffer by doing things like gambling."
"..."
"..Thank you, daughter, I love you"
..I couldn't say anything
I just felt that the world hadn't completely abandoned me.
-The end-
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