vanity,
Emptiness,
The emotions that come together are emptiness, etc.
Literally
‘Worst’
It was itself.
Even when I lived in a house worse than a dirty and smelly warehouse,
Even when my parents had an accident shortly after I was born and I was left alone,
Even when I was beaten to death by loan sharks
This was the first time I felt this much disgust.
I wondered who he was to ruin my life like this.
Before I knew it, he
was saving my life,
Before I knew it, I had monopolized a part of his life.
no,
Just a small part.
It was taking up my whole life.
All I have in my insignificant life is
With my one body
Annoyingly tenacious life,
and
He was there.
_________
To be honest, at first I was in denial about the situation.
It hurt so much
I remember being so happy
It's so cruel to be judged as a dream overnight.
“I guess this old man is playing around again. Hey, old man, I’m lonely. I’m bored. Come quickly.”
I pretended to be calm and muttered while hugging the pillow next to me.
In fact, my hand on the pillow was trembling.
The next thing I did was deny my feelings.
"Even if this was all a dream, what does that have to do with me? That person, no, you're a god. You're not my uncle, you're just a god. Yeah, that's it. You and I, we were never meant to be. What are you talking about? I never cared about you in the first place. You just came, didn't you?"
To be honest, what would change if I denied it?
The dirty emptiness could not be filled.
In fact, my life was already twisted as much as it could be, whether he was there or not.
It was over when I died.
But that gave me a reason to live.
He didn't ruin my life,
It saved me.
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"I hate you, I really hate you. How can you do this after giving me everything I deserve? This is just too much."
The flowing tears showed no sign of stopping.
The white pillow changed color as transparent tears fell on it.
What is that man doing that makes me cry?
Come quickly.
You said you would protect me.
“The person who said he would protect me is actually hurting me. It’s annoying.”
The pure white hospital room was shaking quite a bit, to the point of madness.
And not long after, the lady came in.
"Lady, now that you're awake, I think it's best to go home. Even if I were to pay the hospital bills, you've been here for months, so you'll probably have to pay a lot. So, I'm sorry, but I need you to go home as quickly as possible."
“I’m okay now. I can go home now.”
Even though I miss him so much I'm going crazy, reality is reality.
Because I'll have to adapt to a world without him.
“It’s only been three months, why did you make me feel so attached to you, sir?”
The gossip spread through the air, not knowing where it would go.
“I miss you. So much so that I don’t even care about wasting time on such foolish emotions.”
Extremely.
• • •
Long time no see!
I haven't been able to serialize it yet because I didn't have time.
Starting today, I'll try again with one serial per day!!
Today I'm planning to do two installments!
Thank you for waiting❤️🥰