I mean, it’s not even comparable, but that’s stressing me out too... As I overthink things, I sometimes feel like giving up on everything. Whenever that happened, I used to hold on by thinking about being an idol and the things I wanted to do, but now I feel like I’ve hit a wall. Even when I try to think about other things, I just keep ending up thinking only about life...It’s not that I think it’s a bad thing, but I get so exhausted spending the day struggling and trying to stay strong... But seeing myself in such a tattered state, I feel even more pathetic in reality...
You feel like everyone else is doing so well, but you feel like you're the only one being compared? Actually, everyone else is probably anxious and worried too. You just don't realize it, Cheomryeong. Everyone has their own pain and worries. So please don't think that way too much. And how do you know someone isn't a worthy opponent? Comparison is based on finding commonalities, so does that mean someone isn't a worthy opponent simply because they have nothing in common? Then, in the end, isn't that just contrast, not comparison? Since comparison is about finding something you have in common, wouldn't someone at the same level be the true person to compare yourself to? (I'm not really sure what I'm saying either ^^;;... My Korean teacher said it this way though...)
When you say you feel a wall, do you mean a wall regarding idols? Like the idol I like doesn't like me back... or just doesn't know I exist?
Is it poetry?... I've had that feeling too. But BTS said...
Did you say you didn't want me to feel like we've grown distant? That you're always thinking of me... That really resonated with me. Even if BTS doesn't know my name, they know me as ARMY... I'm sure the idol you like feels the same way, Cheomryeong :)
It is natural to keep thinking about life :)
I also hate life, so I keep trying not to think about it.
I found it unavoidable... It's inevitable to think about it and just have to deal with it, isn't it? You're not the only one, so it's okay to confide in someone you can rely on :)
I'm sorry for coming late.