The first place I went was Aewol-ri, Jeju Island. True to the school trip's purpose, I wandered around various places. I visited historical sites and places of high geographical value.
For me, who was new to everything and new to me, they felt very interesting, and I also liked the scent of Jeju flowing out from them.
For the first time in my life, I felt rested. It was a strange, unfamiliar feeling, but it felt more comfortable and better than ever.
“Hey lady, you’re over there.”
“ ..? ”
“Dolhareubang haha”
puck,
“Ah..!! Why did you hit me..!”
"Who's going to mess with that? This is real."
"See..."
at that time,
"What~ Are the female lead and Beomgyu in a good mood?"
" yes? "
” … “
"Teacher~ Beomgyu follows Yeoju around"
"Eh, really?! Our popular guy Choi Beomgyu?"
It really makes my head spin, wondering when that kind of talk started going around among the kids. It's not wrong, but I just always got tired of that kind of attention.
Above all, it was really uncomfortable to hear the voice calling me "Yeoju" so affectionately. When I was being bullied, you ignored me and just stood by.
When I was with that kid, it was like magic, he didn't bother me or ignore me.
To me, their voices, no, everything about them, can only feel disgusting.
“..I’m going”
“Huh? Let’s go together~!”
What's so great about that kid? He always follows me around with that big smile. Oh, he said it's because he likes me.
It's a story that even a passing dog would laugh at.
A popular male protagonist who loves a bullied female protagonist? What a cliché.
I avoided the child and sat alone on the bench, feeling the sea breeze, and the awkward feeling disappeared all at once.
The feeling that I felt like I was going to vomit at any moment was quickly relieved.
at that time,
Swish,
“Oh..! The car..ㅇ”
“Why? Didn’t you come here to cool your head?”
“You really...”
“You like chocolate, right? Drink it quickly.”
“ … ”
The kid sat next to me with a chocolate drink in one hand, not knowing when he'd found me again.
“I thought I lived thanks to this..”
“Thank you for saving my life, Mr. Beverage.”
“ … ”
“How is it? It’s a first-time feeling of relaxation.”
" .. Okay, much better than I expected "
" thank god. "
“But how is it that you always find me no matter how hard I try to hide?”
“Don’t you know? Just...”
“ ..? ”
“No matter where I am or who I am with, I always see you.”
“ … “
It was really weird. I don't know if weird is the right word, but it was just really weird. How can you just pinpoint someone?
“Stalking isn’t your hobby, is it?”
“Huh..what do you think I am?”
“If not, how could you find me so easily?”
“People are naturally good at finding people they want to be with.”
“ … ”
“I told you, I like being with you.”
“ … “
I wonder if it's because I came over to play and my mind was blown for a moment, but why does that sound so sincere? No, even if it is, why do I feel so good after hearing that?
I tried hard not to say anything to hide my feelings.
“Even when I say this, you never believe me. That really upsets me.”
" .. what "
"Of course, that doesn't mean I'm going to give up."
” … “
"Because you're the only one who saved me"
How grateful is this child that I saved him? In fact, he is the one saving me from the darkness right now.
at that time,
“Beomgyu, the teacher is calling you.”
"Okay. I'll be there soon."
The girl who was the vice president called the kid over. Actually, I heard she'd liked him before. Well, those two are much better together than I am.
Above all, I thought that girl was really pretty and innocent. She was exactly the type of girl a guy would like, but I heard that she dumped her last year.
But you like me? I really don't understand this in many ways.
"No, he told me to come now"
" ..? okay? "
"Go quickly, you're the class president."
"Chi.. sending it is also very easy"
"..don't talk nonsense"
“I’ll be back soon, so don’t hide and stay here.”
"..I'll think about it"
So the child went to the teacher, and I was left alone again. As I sat there blankly staring out at the sea, I felt something slowly disappearing.
It felt like the things that had been weighing heavily on my mind were slowly disappearing, one by one.
After a while,
“What? You said you’d be back soon, but you’re not here yet?”
It seemed like the child would come later than I thought, and I was so bored that I ended up closing my eyes and counting sheep.
at that time,
"Really? This is so amazing~"
"Let's go see it together when you have time."
"Oh, that's true ••"
"So how about a movie?"
"Movies? Good!"
" .. her "
I saw the boy walking with the vice-captain from afar. He was talking, his lips twitching in a way that made me want to listen. Watching him, I felt a strange anger.
At that time, I didn't even know that feeling was 'jealousy', and I just thought it was strange that I was getting angry.
“Have you been waiting long?”
" .. no "
“What, why are you so sullen again?”
"What am I..."
"Oh, right. I heard that from the vice-president earlier..."
"I'm not curious. I won't listen."
"Really? I thought you'd really like it."
“ … “
"No, you like animals. Rabbits and bears."
” ..? “
“I heard that the zoo we’re going to later is having a special bear show.”
" really..?! "
"What the... You said it like I'm not interested at all?"
".. Well, weren't you going to go see it with the vice-captain anyway?"
“Oh~ No way...”
“ ..? ”
“Is our heroine jealous right now~? Haha”
puck,
“Ah..!! Why again..!”
“I told you not to mess with me..”
“Sir.. I even made an additional promise to watch a movie with you?! “
" what? "
"He asked me to go see it with him, but I wanted to see it with you, so I declined and decided to go see the movie separately later!"
” ..?! “
"Tch.. My heart doesn't even try to know and is completely selfish..!"
” … “
“You know I don’t have much time on weekends...”
“Then you can just watch it with him..?”
“Oh really! It’s not him I want to see together, it’s you?! “
” ..!! “
It was a truly strange feeling. It was something I'd never felt before, but I didn't dislike it. It was like walking on clouds, my body floating into the sky.
I just thought it was a feeling you get when you come to a new place. It's because I'm so new that I get these feelings often.
I absolutely thought that this feeling was not what I thought it was.