Silences flowed. Park Jimin sat before me, staring at me quietly. It seemed as if he still had many unresolved questions.
...may I ask you something?
of course.
Why did you run away? Well, I don't know anything about your abilities or anything like that.
..I just got tired of it.
What about senior guides? We're doomed to die without them.
Jimin, what if I die and can protect that guide?
..........
That's why I left it behind. They're government agents, so they're definitely going to come after me, and I know I'll get caught.
Even though I knew that...
Just because that person, my guide, wanted freedom. I'll follow him wherever he goes.
Jimin saw Yeon-su like that and thought, what a great love this was. For a moment, he thought of someone who looked like her, but he quickly forgot about it.
Then your guide is.
..yes?
You're right.
....I'm in a similar situation.
...what?
Just. I'm holding on with medication. I hated it so much I left. It was a long time ago. I guess the medication works well for me.
.........
I don't remember very well.
You must have been in pain.
It was a long time ago. I don't even remember.
It's not that I don't remember, it's that I had no choice but to forget.
........How do you know?
Sentinel Management Guidelines, Article 12, Paragraph 2.
When the guide of an engraved Sentinel dies, the Sentinel's memories are erased to prevent the Sentinel from going berserk.
There's no way you wouldn't know. You're in charge of the Busan branch.
.....
You know your guide is probably dead.
I know, but I don't want to know. I don't even remember if I liked the guide.
That's just how it is. People have a hard time accepting death.
.......Senior.
I was a Sentinel from the former Seoul branch special forces... I want to stop killing people now. It's so ridiculous that I hate seeing my guide die, yet I'm killing others.
We're Sentinels. It's right to kill them, and I believe it's our duty as government Sentinels to protect the citizens...
That's amazing.
yes?
Protecting people, that's what it means. The purpose of life is altruistic. That must mean you're a good person.
Jimin bowed his head. "I'm a good person," he muttered for a moment before offering a faint smile.
No way.
Anyway, you can stay here for now. I'm on Namjoon's side anyway. I don't plan on reporting you, and I rarely come into this house.
thank you.
I don't like the government either. If I said this to the government, I'd be dragged away and executed.
Of course I can't say.
I believe that Sentinels exist for the citizens, not for the government.
That's a good idea. It would be nice if there were more people like this.
I guess so... Then I'll go back now. I got a call.
Be careful. Don't get attacked by the ogres.
Even though I may look weak, I am the strongest in the Busan branch.
Yeah, I see. But you still have to be careful.
thank you
Jimin nodded, carefully closed the door, and walked down the hallway. I lay still on the sofa, staring blankly at the gray, unlit ceiling.
Now you're gone, Yoongi. There's no one to hold us close to each other in the cold autumn breeze, to feel our warmth.
I wonder if I'm being too selfish. But I hope you know that this was the best I could do.
I fell asleep again. That day, I kept waking up in the middle of the night. It was because I had a nightmare. I dreamed of my guide dying.
I left like this because of my selfish choice to keep him from dying.
Sorry
at last
I miss you again.
What's Min Yoongi doing? I hope he stays home quietly so he doesn't get caught. Well, since Namjoon said he'd help, there shouldn't be much danger.
ah,
A world without you
What should I live to protect from tomorrow?
The downside is that I can't protect you right away when I'm not around.
I thought I should help Jimin.
I agree with his opinion, so I decided to live a little hypocritically as an entity that acts for the people, not the government.
We, in the same situation, will each live our own lives.
My sun.
I turned my back on the sun and set off to where the sun sets the earliest.
I cut my hair short and dyed it black. Even I felt awkward about my hair, so I fiddled with my bangs, which were slightly obscuring my eyes.
It was a look that would clearly make a passerby think of him as a boy.
Since becoming a Sentinel, my hair has turned silver. I hated that color, thinking it made me look older. However, Min Yoongi and my teammates often complimented me on my hair color, saying it was pretty. Min Yoongi, in particular, said he liked the slightly purple hue.
Namjoon's idea was to dye his hair so that no one would recognize him, as it was a noticeable hair.
I should be grateful. There are so many people who help me.
I put on the bulky clothes I'd packed in my trunk just in case and headed out. It felt refreshing to be out as a civilian, not a government sentinel.
A leisurely time to shop for groceries and watch TV to fill the empty fridge.
But on the other hand, I'm afraid that Min Yoongi will be one of those dying outside the news, so I put on my combat uniform again.
I put on my combat uniform and go outside with the gun I brought.
The radio crackled. It was the one Jimin and I had shared for emergencies. We'd promised to call it if we needed help while we were here.
Area 126-7. Ogre intrusion, please send reinforcements.
Sentinel.
My existence is only to protect you.
But suddenly, I don't even want to imagine you among the many citizens lying on the brink of death.
So I ended up going out to the battlefield again.
I won't die
don't worry.
He opens the door again, his black hair fluttering.
