'So let's succeed.'
'I just had no intention of letting go of the hand I was already holding.'
by Kim Dan-yu
ep.03
***
"Effort... I've been trying so hard. I've been betrayed."
"Who knows? If you try again, you might get it. If you don't try, it'll all be the same anyway."
Hearing those words, I felt a chill, as if I'd been hit in the back of the head. Then I fell into thought. Could I ever create a utopia? What if I were betrayed by effort again? And I pondered it for a long time.
"...If we don't put in the effort, it'll just stay the same. Let's create a utopia, even if it's just a small thing."
"That's how it should have been... I wasted time. Let's go."
That doesn't mean I'm open to effort. I'm just trying it out, grasping at straws.
***
As we walked without saying a word, we came across a warehouse.
"Ah, this is our hideout."
"Are you going to live here from now on?"
"Yeah, you can live with Yubin, and Yoongi, Beomgyu, and I can live in that room."
I'm trying to approach this with a new mindset, using this experience as an opportunity. But while I still feel a great deal of anxiety, I look at my peers waiting for me and tell myself that I can do it, that I can overcome it no matter what.
The day passed uneventfully, and Yeo-ju went to bed. However, perhaps because it was her first time here, Yoon Yeo-ju had trouble falling asleep, and even when she did, she woke up quickly. As a result, she woke up the earliest in the morning, and while she was pondering what to do after quitting her part-time job, Yu-bin woke up.
"Oh, when did you wake up?"
"Around six o'clock?"
"You weren't having an uncomfortable time sleeping, were you...?"
"Yeah, no, maybe it's because we changed beds."
"What the hell is going on this morning... ah"
The three of them seemed to have been awakened by our chatter. But what did it matter? Yubin and I were talking, not even paying attention to whether the three of them showed up or not.
"I can't see you there."
"I can't see you, get out."
"Yoon Yeo-ju, you're a worse person than I thought...?"
"Damn it, get over there"
"Why are you yelling at me again?"
In that state, Beomgyu pushes Seungkwan away and leaves the hideout to do his own work.
"...?"
"I'm going out for a bit."
"Yeah, don't get hurt."
What kind of kid am I? Don't worry about all that. Anyway, I quit my part-time job, but I'm leaving the hideout to find another one.
***
It had been too long since she had walked. She was getting hungry, and she only had enough money to buy a triangle kimbap at the convenience store. So she headed to the convenience store.
The government was grumbling, asking why, and was about to pay after deciding what to buy. When the part-timer heard this, he asked if I would ever consider working there.
"Yes...? Part-time job?"
"Yes, I heard you were talking about money earlier..."
"Ah... Okay, I'll come out starting tomorrow."
Has the sound of the door clinking open ever felt this good? Even that sounds beautiful, and I hum a tune as I return to my hideout.