"Female students! Call the principal!"
“Me?”
" yes~ "
The director called me in for some reason. I heard he doesn't usually call student applicants like me...?
dripping,
"Yes, please come in."
Knock knock,
"Oh, you're a female student."
" hello "
“Come here and sit down first.”
The subtle scent of black tea filled the director's office. The director's soft voice, matching the scent, melted away my tension.
“Are you doing well with Beomgyu?”
" yes yes "
"I don't know how to tell this story to the female student."
“ ..? “
“I received a call from Beomgyu’s parents asking for his discharge.”
” ..!! “
"I don't know the exact reason, but as the director, I have no reason to refuse that request."
“So… is it already decided?”
“Beomgyu’s parents will probably be here this afternoon to complete the discharge procedures.”
“ … ”
“I’m sorry. I came here first to help Beomgyu when he was sick...”
“..Does Beomgyu, or rather, Beomgyu oppa, know about this?”
“If you know... you know what to do”
“ … ”
It felt like my fault. I felt like I was losing myself in a fantasy with that person and making his pain even worse.
As a result, the person got sick again, and it was all my fault.
“I had to say goodbye to Beomgyu one last time, so I called you.”
” … “
“I really have no words. I’m sorry.”
With those words, I left the director's office and returned to room 301. Actually, I couldn't go back, so I sat in the lobby.
I couldn't go back. When I saw that face, that smile, I wanted to be with you... I didn't want to say my final goodbyes.
I couldn't go back because I thought he would hold me back more and tell me not to go.
After calming down in the lobby, I returned to room 313.
Knock knock,
"Are you here? What did the director say?"
" .. that is "
" huh? "
“That’s right.. you know”
“ … ”
Gulp,
“Why are you crying.. huh?”
"I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.. "
In the end, I burst into tears and Beomgyu didn't know what to do and just patted my back.
It broke my heart to see this person suffer the same pain again. I felt so bad that it was because of me, and the fact that I had to break up with him in the end was what tormented me the most.
I finally found my Peter Pan, but the fact that I have to leave my Neverland keeps scratching at my heart.
So I continued to cry until I finally stopped, and Beomgyu continued to pat my back warmly until I stopped.
“What the hell did you hear? Huh?”
“Really… I didn’t want to say this.”
“ … ”
“I didn’t want to tell you this even if I died...”
“ … ”
“Let’s stop now.”
“ … ”
at that time,
Knock knock,
"It's you? The one who's driving our son crazy."
“ ..!! ”
“Why are you here again?”
I was taken aback by the tragedy that came sooner than I expected, and it seemed like I wouldn't be able to say my final goodbyes.
“You bewitched my son and that’s how he became like this, do you know that?”
” … “
"Why are you here again?"
"Oh... I'm really speechless"
” … “
It seemed right. No, I wasn't possessed by this person. I was possessed by this person. I was so possessed that I forgot my true self.
“If only you weren’t here..!!”
“Stop it.”
“What? You..!!”
widely,
” ..!! “
“Please stop.”
It was the first time I saw your wounds directly.
You were trembling again, a scar larger than I'd expected, and I couldn't do anything. Perhaps my actions now might hurt you again.
“Huh.. Are you saying you’re going to protect that girl right now? What the heck?”
“I can tolerate being hit, but I can’t tolerate being hit by him.”
“ … ”
“I’m really possessed, I’m possessed.”
” … “
No matter how much I think about it, the only thing I can do right now is to return you to how you were and bring you back to reality.
“You’re going to be discharged from the hospital anyway.”
“What is that..?”
“He already knows, right?”
"..is it true, heroine?"
I looked into your eyes. Holding back the tears that threatened to spill out, I stiffly raised my head and looked into your eyes. Sadly, your eyes still shone. They were the kind of eyes that seemed ready to take me back there at any moment.
" .. Yeah. I knew it"
"Then, the story I heard earlier this afternoon..."
"Yeah, this is the story"
“ … ”
“So.. I was going to say goodbye for the last time.”
“ … ”
“You came earlier than I thought.”
“ … ”
At that moment,
Hug,
“ ..!! ”
“I don’t want to go. I want to stay here.”
“..Beomgyu”
“I want to keep talking to you, ride a bike with you, and go for a walk with you.”
” … “
“You said you liked me and that you would stay with me forever.”
“..Beomgyu oppa”
“Don’t call me that.. please.”
“I’m sorry, oppa.”
“Why me… I’m not your brother, am I?”
“ .. I also had really fantastic days while I was with my brother.”
” … “
"But... neither you nor I can live only in fantasy."
” … “
I ended up telling you that.
“You’re an adult.”
“ … “
“I’m sorry I couldn’t stay by your side.”
“..don’t do this. please.”
After saying that, I left Beomgyu's arms, packed my bags, and left room 313. As soon as I left the hospital, I collapsed.
I sat there and cried. Once my tears started flowing, they wouldn't stop, and that's how I left.
My Neverland, my Peter Pan
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" excuse me..! "
widely,
" yes? "
I met you again, my Peter Pan.
It was five years after that day.