“I.. that’s why”
“ … “
"I thought you were someone I knew.. Sorry"
" no "
Whoosh,
It was cold. It wasn't the same look he had back then. Even if it had been the same look, I couldn't hold on to it and say anything. I'd already left him once.
For me to ask him to return to that time is purely my greed. And it's a very wicked greed. It's a feeling I shouldn't have.
Eventually, I returned to the sickroom with a water bottle.
“What happened to you?”
“Huh? Why?”
“No, I suddenly felt unwell...”
“.. No. It’s okay.”
I was just a little surprised. No, I was a little flustered. I'd never seen that look in his eyes before. They were always sparkling, dreamy.
He had eyes that seemed like they could take me to Neverland at any moment. That was the kind of person he was.
What on earth happened after that day?
at that time,
Swish,
“ ..!! ”
“Do you have a fever?”
“Oh..no, that’s not it”
“But why have you been looking so unhappy since earlier?”
“I guess it’s because you act so tired..!”
" hmm.. "
But why was Beomgyu here? Was his pain still not healed? The many questions in my head made my already complicated mind even more complicated.
And so night came.
“Ah~ I ate well”
“You really are good at harassing people.”
“But you also ate something delicious together for the first time in a while.”
“..what recognition”
“Don’t you want to eat something like a snack?”
"Um... why are you suddenly volunteering to run an errand?"
"Oh, hurry up! I'm going to eat, I'm going to say it."
"Then of course I have to eat it!"
Actually, the errand for snacks was just an excuse. I just hoped we'd meet again, even if by chance, like fate.
I just wanted to see that face one more time, even if it meant passing by.
So I went down to the convenience store at the hospital below and walked as slowly and as long as I could.
So that he can recognize me and not miss me when he passes by
I finally finished paying at the convenience store and left, but I didn't see it. Disappointed, I pressed the elevator button, and the doors opened immediately.
Knock knock,
Swish,
“ ..!! ”
“ … ”
As if by chance, as if by fate, we met again.
“ … ”
“..Aren’t you going to ride?”
" yes..? "
“Aren’t you going to ride it?”
"No..no! Take it"
I was so shocked that I was dumbfounded for a moment and sat in the elevator for a long time, my heart pounding like crazy.
“Excuse me.. Which floor are you going to?”
“..9th floor”
" ah.. "
There were about five floors left until the ninth. I quickly organized what I wanted to say. It was impossible to organize all that I had to say at once, but I did my best to organize it again and again.
“Excuse me.. Do you remember me?”
" .. well "
As expected, it was cold. Whether he had forgotten me, or had chosen to forget, his gaze and tone of voice prickled my heart.
".. May I ask why you came to the hospital?"
"..because my mother is sick"
" ah.. "
Luckily, he wasn't sick.
at that time,
Ding,
As we were talking, we arrived at the 9th floor and I was so flustered that I forgot everything I had been trying to organize.
The door opened like that and Beomgyu walked forward.
In the end, I just grabbed his arm.
widely,
” ..!! “
“I missed you..!”
“ … ”
“You and your world”
” … “
“Without missing a single day for 5 years”
” … “
“I swore I would leave you then, but I eventually found you again and came into your world.”
“ … ”
“It’s okay if you don’t really remember me. I…”
“ … ”
“I’m so happy that you’ve appeared before me again, it feels like a dream.”
” … “
"I'm sorry for holding you back"
” … “
"But I wanted to say this..."
” … “
"I like you and I like your world. Still."
“ … ”
After saying that, Beomgyu got off the elevator without saying anything, and as soon as the door closed, I just sat down.
It wasn't a sad feeling, but it wasn't purely happy either. It was a feeling that somehow brought tears to my eyes.
Finally, I came here again. In that dreamlike place.
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“ … “
"Who said that? Who made you cry?"
” … “
Hug,
“Whoever said that, if you’re sad, cry”
“ … ”
“How can crying be so foolish?”
" what? "
“You’re cute, don’t get upset”