*Continued from the previous episode*
Eventually, I ended up crying outside for a long time. I went into the bathroom to wash my face, but all I saw was a carp.
After washing my eyes with cold water, I returned to the hospital room.
Knock knock,
"Ah, why are you so late.. What is it?"
“Hurry up and get the snacks...”
I quickly turned my head. Knowing that it wouldn't be good to be caught by Kang Tae-hyun, I desperately tried to hide my swollen eyes.
however,
Swish,
"I didn't know this"
".. Mr. Lee"
It wasn't enough for the guy who had tried all kinds of sports.
“Why are you crying? What’s going on?”
“ … “
"Who said that? Who made you cry?"
” … “
I couldn't say anything. It was my fault, but it felt like they were blaming him.
at that time,
Hug,
“ ..!! ”
“Whoever said that, if you’re sad, cry”
“ … ”
“How can crying be so foolish?”
" what? "
“You’re cute, don’t get upset”
It was just a small shower, but it swept me and my whole heart away at once.
The promises I made, and my feelings
I hoped it would be a quick shower, one that would pass without a trace, without anyone knowing when it came.
A week passed, and I went to that hospital every single day without fail. Of course, caring for Kang Tae-hyun wasn't my primary purpose.
Since his mother had to be hospitalized for quite some time, Beomgyu was able to see her for a whole week.
But I didn't initiate a single conversation all week. I just watched from afar.
Because all my actions will seem contradictory to that person now.
Today, as usual, I went down to the convenience store under the pretense of running an errand and, just like before, I slowly and for a long time chose snacks.
As slow as possible for a long time so that the person can see me
“.. Aren’t you coming down today?”
Even though he didn't pretend to know me, he didn't avoid me. When I spoke to him first, he just answered yes or no, just like the first time.
In the end, I ended up doing something I shouldn't have done.
Today, I got off on the 9th floor instead of the 12th, and walked around the 9th floor looking for the three letters ‘Choi Beom-gyu.’
“Miss..where are you?”
“What are you looking for?”
“Huh? Oh.. it’s nothing.”
at that time,
Swish,
I saw the back of a familiar head getting on the elevator and I quickly ran towards the next elevator.
I got off the elevator without thinking and looked for the back of his head. Where else could he go if he didn't go to the first or ninth floor?
No matter how much I looked, it didn't seem to be in the hospital, so I went out to the garden outside the hospital.
“Where on earth did you go..?”
At that moment, a crying sound was heard from somewhere.
" no way.. "
So I went to the bench at the very end of the garden, and sure enough, there was the person I was looking for.
Even now, I don't know how I heard that small sound. But it felt as if the cry was seeking me. It seemed as if it was desperately seeking someone else, even if it wasn't me.
“ … “
” … “
" I.. "
” … “
“Why are you crying?”
” … “
“No.. I saw you coming here.. I was so happy.. “
” … “
" .. It wasn't that loud. So "
” … “
“Cry more, the sadder you are”
“ … ”
I know I shouldn't say this, but
“Can I hug you?”
That's what I want to say.
“ … “
"No.. if that's too much of a burden, I'll just go.. "
" .. please "
" yes..? "
"Just like before.. just"
” … “
“Can you please make me happy?”
“ … ”
At those words, I just quietly and slowly approached him and hugged him, so as not to startle him, so that I could slowly fly back there.
When he hugged me, he burst into tears he had been holding back, and he cried so loudly that my shoulders were soaked.
Just like back then
After a while, he stopped crying and an awkward silence fell between me and him.
“ … ”
“ … ”
In the end, I spoke first.
“You said you didn’t know me”
” … “
"Just kidding. Just kidding."
” … “
"..even if it was me, I hated myself."
” … “
“Because I broke my promise.”
“ … ”
“So, hate me as much as you want, that’s okay.”
” … “
"But... I"
” … “
"I hope you don't have to face any more storms."
“ … ”
“I want your world to always be clear and dreamlike. Even now.”
“ … ”
“..because I broke my promise once back then”
” … “
“Can you forgive me just this once?”
“ … ”
“The answer to this is... I’ll say hello first next time.”
“ … ”
“Smiling, first, and then...”
” … “
"Just like back then."
I hope your Neverland is always clear and bright. I hope you, who will be there, are always happy.
I hope that the sadness you are experiencing now and the sadness I experienced will all just be a passing shower.
I hope it's just a passing shower, without a trace, without anyone knowing when it passed.
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" yes..? "
"That's the answer"
” … “
“My answer to that question yesterday.”
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Thanks to you all!! I will continue to work even harder in the future 🫶🫶