High school bodyguard
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As I ran past the school and toward the taxi stand, countless thoughts raced through my mind. The thought that if not this time, I might never see Jeon Jungkook again terrified me. I walked out onto the street, reached out to a passing taxi, and hopped in. This time, I felt like I needed you to breathe.
“Please get me to OO Boys’ High School as quickly as possible.”
After telling the driver to get to the boys' high school that Yoonseol had told me about as quickly as possible, I leaned back against the seat. The last note from Jeon Jungkook in my hand was further crumpled by my hands. Jeon Jungkook, you'll be there, right…? Are you doing well? The questions I wanted to ask Jeon Jungkook were welling up in my mind, but I closed my eyes tightly.After about 30 minutes of nonstop driving, the taxi arrived in front of OO Boys' High School much sooner than I expected. In a rush, I took out a few ten-thousand-won bills from my wallet and gave them my change, then jumped out of the taxi.
As soon as I got out of the taxi, I ran through the small passageway next to the school gate and into Namgo High School. I hadn't slept or eaten, and had been crying and screaming for days, so my vision was constantly blurry as I ran. Still, I shook my head once and kept running.Jeon Jungkook… Jeon Jungkook… !The wide-open playground of the boys' high school was now touching my feet.
It was still class time, so there wasn't a single person in the playground. I looked up at the windows, but there seemed to be no sign of anyone. A moment later, the bell signaling recess rang throughout the school. The bell quickly became noisy, and I saw a few boys peering out the windows. I searched intently to see if Jeon Jungkook was among them, but his face was nowhere to be seen.
“…Isn’t this the right place?”
My gaze, once lifted by a sense of emptiness, shifted to my feet. This was where I'd come with my last hope... I couldn't just rummage around other people's schools looking for Jeon Jungkook, so I felt like I had no choice but to give up. Tears welled up in my eyes as I thought about it.
“I really can’t do without you… I still need you, so why won’t you show up…”
I felt my legs give out. Feeling helpless, I collapsed to the ground, feeling helpless as I searched for Jeon Jungkook. Just then, a group of boys from the boys' high school came out, kept a distance from me, and began whispering.
“Wow, she’s really a girl…”
“Isn’t this a school uniform I’ve never seen in my neighborhood?”
“He’s been staring at our school window for a while now. Who is he looking for?”
The news that there was a girl at the boys' high school must have been a hot topic among the boys. In this crowded place, they were afraid of me, so they didn't approach me more than a certain distance. I stood up, grabbed a nearby boy, and asked him.Hey, I have a question…
“Is there a Jeon Jeongguk in the third year here?”
“Ah, there is one, but it’s not a third year, it’s a first year.”
“A first year student…? Are you sure you’re the kid who transferred recently?”
“Yeah, he transferred not long after he started school, and then transferred back again not long ago.”
My eyes widened. Jeon Jungkook clearly said he was nineteen, the same age as me, but he's a freshman in high school...? I frowned in confusion, and the boy I was talking to tapped the boy next to me and whispered something. The boy next to me then quickly ran into the school.
"Are you really a freshman...? The Jeon Jungkook I know is definitely..."
“I just went to call you, so you can see for yourself. There you are. Jeon Jungkook!”
The boy who'd run away earlier seemed to have gone to call Jeon Jungkook, and the boy pointed toward the classroom, telling me to look for him. Just then, someone else emerged from behind the boy who'd run away, and I instantly recognized him. It was strange not to recognize him, the only person my heart could ever truly respond to.
“Why bother calling, Kim Yeo-ju… How did you get here…”
It was Jeon Jungkook. Jeon Jungkook, who had cried for days and searched for days, was now standing before me. Jeon Jungkook, his eyes wide as rabbits, seemed completely unaware that I would come here. He was the Jeon Jungkook I had longed for, but resentment overcame me, and my fists trembled. I didn't want to cry in front of Jeon Jungkook, but tears welled up in my eyes without warning and fell, and I bit my lip.
"Jeon Jungkook, you know you're a total piece of trash if you make a girl cry, right? And a pretty girl like this. Take care of it and come back."
The boy was very perceptive. As soon as he sensed the unusual atmosphere between Jeon Jungkook and me, he chuckled, patted Jeon Jungkook on the shoulder a couple of times, and led all the other kids who had poured onto the playground into the school. Thanks to this, we were left alone at the end of the playground.
“…How did you know?”
“That’s all you have to say to me.”
“……”
“You… thought I’d be okay with just this one note? No, I was destined to end this relationship with you with just this scrap of paper…?”
For days, I only looked for you, only wanted to see you, and I felt like I could live if I had you, so if we met again, I wanted to tell you that I missed you, that I liked you, and that you should stay by my side once more. But contrary to my thoughts, my anger kept welling up and digging into Jeon Jungkook's heart. I threw the crumpled note I had been holding tightly in my hand at Jeon Jungkook. The crumpled note, balled up, hit Jeon Jungkook near the chest and fell to the dirt.
I wasn't angry at Jeon Jungkook for yelling at him. I was just a little upset. And I was also anxious. What if he didn't like me enough to just leave without saying a word? What if Jeon Jungkook didn't like me? These thoughts made me uneasy. I wanted confirmation. I wanted to hear Jeon Jungkook's clear answer to my question.
“Tell me, was I not so precious to you that you could leave me in an instant?”
I cried out, my emotions gushing through me, until I finally exhaled with a heavy, gasping breath. Jeon Jungkook remained silent. His silence only made me feel more miserable, and I felt utterly devastated, as if all my worries had become reality.That's why it feels so real... It feels like all the worries I had were real, Jeon Jungkook...
"Do you know how many days I cried after you disappeared? How many times I called your number when it didn't exist? How many nights I stayed up in a room where I couldn't even feel your warmth, asking if you knew me... What was stuck in my throat, I couldn't eat, I went to school to see if anyone had heard of you, and collapsed in the hallway. And in all that, I came all the way here, with the sole hope that you might be there..."
“……”
“And yet you don’t even answer me… What are you doing to make me so miserable…”
Shaking, fists clenched, tears streaming down my face, I spoke with force, pouring every word, every sentence. Honestly, I'd said it deliberately, hoping Jeon Jungkook would feel a little guilty. I'd been hurt this much, so I wanted you to feel a little pain, too. Despite all this, Jeon Jungkook just stared at me with sad eyes, so I turned away from him, resenting his words. It was a last resort, akin to the one I'd used when I'd been thrust into him.
“…I’ll never see you again. This time, I’m abandoning you.”
I turned away from Jeon Jungkook and took heavy steps. Step by step, I slowly moved away from you. Realizing that Jeon Jungkook, who no longer held me, was truly the end, tears streamed down my cheeks, but a hollow smile tugged at the corners of my lips. As I slowly moved away from Jeon Jungkook, my vision blurred, and with a thud, my body hit the rough earth.
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