14
“Why do I have to see you? I don’t think we’re that kind of relationship.”
"Are you going to keep being so hard on me?"
“I really meant what I said at the graduation ceremony..”
"But? The bullying I received, the hurt I received, it doesn't go away."
"I've been traumatized for months because of you."
“But you’re going to transfer and make people suffer again, right?”
I just cried. I hated myself for being traumatized and worried about being bullied again, for being entangled in the past and worrying about the future. I hated worrying about trivial things that might never happen, and I hated feeling pathetic in that moment.
"I'll go first. I can't stay here. I'll go first."
I'd always been strong, so I didn't want to show my weakness to my close friends. So I ran home without looking back. After arriving home, I holed up in my room and spent the next few days in a daze, feeling like I'd lost my mind. No matter how many notifications my phone would buzz, I'd just glance at it and then turn away, returning to my dazed state. Right now, I didn't want to talk to anyone.
After being in a daze for a few days, I lost track of time without even realizing it. So, I thought I was better now, so I got up from the floor, but suddenly the doorbell rang. I just stared at the front door where the doorbell was ringing and didn't open it. When I couldn't open it, I banged on the door with my hand, and someone who was banging on the door shouted.
"Lee Chae-won!! Aren't you going to come out right now? How long are you going to keep doing this!"
“Is it right to stay home like this for a few days just because I looked a little weak?!
"So what if you show a little weakness? It won't change the fact that you're strong..."
"Please come out.. All the kids are worried about you..!"
➕The portion is short.. I wrote it in a hurry so it became a little smaller..
Since school will start soon and I'm busy studying, I didn't have much time to write, so I wrote this in a hurry. I'll write more later!
have a good day!