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©️ Earthquake in My Head (2023)
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After returning from the US, I was a bit confused for a while. I had been chasing Taejoo too much, but was it really that burdensome...?
After Taeju's business trip to the US, I naturally took on the responsibility of raising him. After our separation ended, I went back to picking him up at kindergarten, but these days, I'm back to picking him up. I knew how dedicated he was to his design work, so I wanted to help him out... but after stepping back, things like housework and the kids were more on my mind. My solo album was still due, and I still had work left on a song I was working on with Suga, but it wasn't to the point where I couldn't pick him up.
What can I do? I just have to do it!
Still, Taeju would sometimes ask me to go to the factory with him, and when he had a meeting late at night, he would ask me to put the kids to bed.
Tae-joo still looked cool when he occasionally showed me the work he'd done or confirmed the final draft at the factory, and I was satisfied that this kind of woman was mine. So, chasing her around like a puppy... Actually, that's right, I overdid it a bit. I admit it! It was his first business trip to the US, so he must have felt burdened because I followed him.. But I made my own schedule..! I'm a man with that kind of ability.. haha
Looking back, since we were both so busy that we only saw each other occasionally when we were dating, we never really showed each other much about our lives. We could empathize with each other's loneliness and struggles at work, but we didn't know the full story.
The periods of indifference caused by busyness made me passive. Seeing Taeju struggle with anxiety after having children and not being able to return to his main job, I couldn't say anything or offer any help. I almost let it go, thinking, "Maybe things will get better with time." But now, having gotten to know Taeju anew, I feel like I've gained a little insight into his world.
Taeju seemed to find it annoying that I was chasing him around, but it was the best thing for me... I was a little disappointed because it seemed like Taeju was trying to draw the line.
By the way, Tae-ju's work, while arduous, seems quite enjoyable. It's especially nice to see the vibrant expression on Tae-ju's face, which I've seen before. Getting married, having children, and living together seems to be more than just a matter of physically coexisting. You also have to be able to support each other's dreams...
I love Taeju's work as a designer. He's so proud of the way he coordinates and refines various drafts, and when those drafts are finally realized, it's so wonderful to see him. Someday, I hope to collaborate with him on a design again, like when we first met!
Meanwhile, as I took a step back from Taeju, it seemed he was finally approaching me. Lately, Taeju has become really interested in my work. He's started asking me about the album concept, the songs, and all sorts of other things.
"Jungkook, do you know you're really cool on stage?
Are you going to do a music show this time...?
After having children, I wasn't particularly interested in my work... Rather than saying I wasn't interested, I was too busy raising my children to pay attention.
"I'm going to do it, though.
I don't think I'll be focusing on performances like I did on my first solo album.."
"No, why..? Do you have something else in mind?"
"It's not like that, but I guess I've matured this much...
I want to show you something like this~"
"really?"
"Yeah, I'm a father now, and I'm older...
I used to be really immature and naive,
What should I say now...
I want to show you that I've grown this much..?"
And I think I've matured a lot this time thanks to working with you... haha
I want to put my thoughts about my relationship with my loved one into a song.
"So I'm going to make a serious song~
Of course, I should include a song that focuses on performance.. haha
For our ARMYs..:)
That song shouldn't be shown on music shows, it should only be shown at concerts..!"
"Yo... the fans will really like it.."
"You shouldn't call me a fan, you should call me an ARMY~"
"Okay ARMYs~ Your love ARMYsㅎㅎㅎㅎ"
Taeju still feels awkward being called "Ami." He's so precious to me... Now, I need to show him my world... I need to slowly bring him into it...
Tae-ju, perhaps embarrassed, gave me a gentle hug. Even though we've spent so much time together, stuck together, there's still so much we need to get to know and become accustomed to. Is that why we can live together for so long without getting bored?
By the way...
Doesn't our Taejoo get jealous of his ARMYs...?
I get jealous just by seeing Taejoo having a meeting with a male employee...
"Aren't you jealous...?
"What I like about ARMYs..."
"Well... would I be jealous...?
"Your love comes before mine, Ami..."
"Taejoo, when you talk like this, you sound like an adult...
"I would have been jealous"
Honestly, I'm jealous...!!
I want to have every part of you in my hands...
Why do I keep wanting more even though you're all mine...?
Maybe I was unconsciously anxious that you might fly away when you said you would work outside.
Did Taejoo read my mind?
He said with a smile.
"Because you're jealous of that kind of thing
I met a woman who only knows you like me,
I'm fine, I have the Jeon Jungkook that everyone coveted~"
"Oh... is that so...? "
Oh my... Itaewon is quite the person...? I feel like I've been caught, so I feel empty...
As I was sitting still, Taeju came over and kissed me on the cheek.
I hope you don't know how possessive I am...
"Well, since you all had the day you wanted to, let's indulge ourselves today~"
I quickly hugged Taeju and headed to the bed.
I won't let you sleep easily tonight.. haha