How to use Crazy You
Episode 52
The next day I opened my eyes but my body wouldn't move.
My whole body was hot. Even the slightest brush against the blanket stung.
I was sick in body and mind, almost unconscious, and lay in bed all day. Even in my confusion, whenever I thought of Kim Taehyung, my eyes lit up.
I cried. But I thought about Kim Taehyung all day.
I literally cried all day.
So I practically waited all the way to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator door, drank some water, and forced a piece of cold bread into my mouth.
I swallowed it. Because I have to do Kim Taehyung's makeup for his concert tomorrow. I thought I needed to put something inside to keep from collapsing. I got a text from Seokjin oppa earlier.
[Lee Yeo-ju... Why on earth are you like this...]
[Jiyoung said she'll be staying at her parents' house for a few days]
That was fortunate.
If my sister saw my current condition, I would have to do makeup for Kim Taehyung's concert tomorrow
It was clear that I wouldn't be able to go there.
(I'm really sorry, oppa...)
(I'll really go to my sister and beg her for forgiveness)
(Please wait a moment...)
[...who are you]
[I don't think it's Yeoju]
(...)
(I'm right... I really will, so don't worry, oppa)
(And I promised to do your makeup tomorrow)
[yep]
[Will you do it?]
[You fought with Taehyung too]
[Oh really, what is this Yeoju]
[It's not even a ssamdak -_-]
(ㅠㅜ)
(I'm sorry about that too)
(I'll apologize to you, oppa)
(So can I go tomorrow?)
[I don't care]
[But I wonder if Taehyung won't accept it from you...]
(Then I will apologize to you now)
(If you say it's okay, I'll go)
[okay]
[But who are you really...?]
After doing this, I crawled back to the kitchen.
And now I put a cold towel on one cheek
Lying on my side, I typed a text message to Kim Taehyung with trembling fingers.
(Oppa..)
(I did everything wrong)
(I was really wrong)
(I won't do whatever I want, I won't speak informally to you, and I won't make you sick of me)
(Oppa)
(...)
[...]
[Why is this happening]
(I'm really sorry, I was wrong)
(I'll do your makeup tomorrow)
(huh?)
(Is that okay?)
[Do whatever you want]
(Yeah, okay, see you tomorrow)
(Thank you!!)
I held onto my lost sense of purpose and finished chatting with my brother, but then I fainted.
And when I woke up again, annoyingly, nothing had changed.
My whole body was equally aching and hot.
So I stayed up all night sweating alone, thinking.
If only I hadn't spoken so rudely to my brother that day
If that were the case, would my brother be by my side now?
I regret it so much.
It's not that I want anything from you, oppa.
I'm not trying to change your mind, I'm just
I just wanted to see my brother.
I miss you so much that I feel like I'll die if I don't see you.
I absolutely could not miss the opportunity to see you. I couldn't see you like this.
I felt sick. I felt like if I saw my brother, this fever would go away.
This night was so long because I wanted to see you quickly.
So it hurt so much.
Did I sleep, or did I dream, or did I stay up all night thinking about you?
I was suffering alone in a state of confusion that I couldn't understand.
The day was bright.
My head hurt like it was going to burst and my whole body was hot, but soon Kim Taehyung
I held on with the single thought that it would be right before my eyes.
I got dizzy while showering and suddenly couldn't see anything, so I collapsed several times.
I don't know how many times I redrew my eyeliner because my hands were shaking.
I wanted to look okay, so I covered up my sick days with makeup. I didn't have the strength to hold my makeup box, so I took a taxi.
I even got motion sickness, which I hadn't experienced before, and I was sweating profusely and it was quite difficult.
I felt nauseous, probably because I hadn't eaten anything.
It was okay though because I thought I would feel better when I saw my brother's face.
When I got there, I headed to the bathroom and my forehead kept prickling annoyingly.
I wiped the cold sweat and reapplied my makeup.
I kept sweating and feeling hot, so I took off my outerwear and put it on my arms.
I was holding it and rolled up the sleeves of the knitwear I was wearing inside to my elbows.
Now I feel like the sweat is cooling off a bit, so I take a deep breath.
The waiting room door opened.
I saw my brothers.
Kim Taehyung was also seen.
I definitely saw it two days ago, but it's strange and exciting as if I'm seeing it for the first time
I did it. My brother looked like a man.
It's already too late though.
"Are you here, Yeoju?"
Brother Kiyoung came over to greet me.
"Ooh, oppa, it's been a while."
I tried to pretend like nothing happened, that I wasn't sick, that I was cheerful.
"Why do you get smaller and smaller every time I see you... You're like that
I'm going to disappear. You can't eat and go around?"
"Ah. What are you talking about... It's not like that."
"Oh, by the way, come here."
"... huh?"
My brother snatched the makeup box from my hand and grabbed my arm.
Grabbed and dragged.
"Hey, why are your arms so hot?"
My brother was dragging me in front of the sofa set up in a corner of the waiting room.
He said, letting go of his arm. Lee... Kim Taehyung was sitting on the sofa.
I'm watching...
"Oh, it's because it's hot. I came in a hurry. It's so hot that I took off my clothes and came.
But why~"
I said, plopping down on the edge of the sofa.
To be honest, it was a bit difficult to even stand.
I sat as far away from Kim Taehyung as possible.
"I heard you and Park Ji-young are separated~?"
"...I'll finish it today. Don't worry."
"Haha. Weren't you worried? Why did you fight?"
"..."
Who didn't tell this guy..?
Why are you still so clueless?
I shot Seokjin oppa a look that contained many meanings, but he pouted and raised his shoulders once.
I think it meant to tell me to do as I please.
"Because of me."
But Taehyung oppa said.
"You? Why you?"
"Because I didn't tell Park Ji-young that I liked Yeo-ju."
"Huh...? Huh, what...?"
Ah... what should I do with this?
I couldn't sit still because I had to watch what was happening.
... Still, I couldn't help but just sit quietly.
"What the hell are you talking about... You're dating Dayoung~
You like Jungkook~!!"
Kiyoung oppa said, pointing to Taehyung oppa and me in turn.
"Love is something that moves, hyung."
Seokjin oppa said.
"Love doesn't come back...?"
After that, Kiyoung Oppa said.
I hope you come back...
"Oppa... Let's go put on makeup... You can do it now..."
I stretched out my arm and pulled on the hem of Kiyoung's clothes and said.
"Uh. What the heck, you two~!! So you two are already done for??
So you're dating Dayoung?"
Kiyoung said as he got up from the sofa.
"uh."
....
It's Korean... It's just a Korean letter...
A single word from Kim Taehyung's mouth became a bullet and pierced my heart.
It went through.