How to use Crazy You
Episode 57
I sat there trying to pretend I was okay and not in pain, but in fact
They just poured beer into my not-so-good-at-all-things-like-thing inside me.
Maybe it was because of my burning heart, but I didn't get drunk and just got full.
As I came out of the bathroom, Taehyung passed by.
"Lee Yeo-ju."
I thought he would just ignore me and pass by, but he called my name.
"uh.."
"Stop drinking."
".. why."
"Seokjin hyung, Kiyoung hyung, I have to give you a ride because you're going to your house."
"Ah.. Sister Jiyoung went there.. But why?"
My sister went out during the day saying she had something to tell Giyoung oppa.
"Don't bother me when you're drunk."
"..."
under...
"Stop drinking."
"... uh.."
My brother went into the bathroom.
.....
You said you'd give me a ride home...
It's okay, Yeoju. I'll take you home, oppa...
Just listen to the words "don't bother me" in one ear and let them go out the other.
What do you mean, I'm not going alone, but they're giving me a lift?
Where are you going with your brother? It's okay.
But... I didn't get drunk on beer... but... I had to say...
"Eunyoung and Jaehyuk look good together. Right, oppa?"
I was on my way home. I told my brother.
"huh."
"That's amazing. Jaehyuk is dating my friend..."
"Since when have you been friends with Eunyoung?"
"Since middle school."
"It's been a long time."
"huh."
My brother didn't say anything anymore and just drove.
Just look ahead...
"Now that I think about it, we ended up going to see Jaehyuk's performance at that time.
"This is the first time the two of you have met, right?"
"I see."
"Yeah. At that time, Eunyoung saw Jaehyuk singing while playing the guitar.
I fell in love."
"..."
My brother didn't answer...
You don't want to talk to me...
“You fell in love with Jeon Jungkook when you saw him dance.”
"Oh... was that me...? Haha...."
I remember everything...
I'll just watch you sing and fall in love with you...
"Brother."
"huh."
"..what kind of woman do you like, oppa?"
It seemed like a really weird question, but I was so curious that I asked it.
I was curious. It's late, but I'm finally getting around to it.
"A woman who can handle it."
"..."
Does that mean it's okay as long as it's not me?
Why does it sound like that...
"Tch.. But did you really have to say that to Jaehyuk earlier?"
"what."
"No one can handle me, and if you introduce me to someone, they'll curse at me..
How can you say that in front of everyone...? That's cruel.."
"What is it? That's right."
"...Yeah. What you said is right."
"There's no man you can handle."
"okay..."
"No one but me."
"Well... what...?"
"But I don't. That's why there's no one. A man for you."
"....What does that mean...?"
"..."
"Huh...? I don't know... what you mean..."
"...You don't have to know. You don't need to know."
"..."
Seriously, what does that mean... Anyway, it's true that you won't meet me...
Ah.. but it's strange.. is it because it's in the car or because it's warm,
Is it because your voice is soft?
Or is it because the conversation is difficult like a class... Why am I sleepy?
I have to see your face a lot... Maybe it's because I haven't slept for about 24 hours.
Is it because my brother keeps stopping talking and becoming quiet?
My eyes were getting heavier and heavier. Ah... This can't be helped... With my brother... More...
I need to have a conversation...
"......"
".......?"
Oh my. I think I slept.
I don't remember closing my eyes, but I opened them.
"......."
"Oh...bro..."
I opened my eyes and made eye contact with my brother.
My brother was quietly looking at my face.
Place your elbows on the console box between the driver and passenger seats.
The day my brother, who had his chin up, turned his head toward the driver's seat
I was watching closely...
"..."
"..."
Ah, it's embarrassing... Why are you staring at me like that...?
Did I drool? Or... did I just swallow my own blood...???
"Oh, how long did I sleep..."
I was embarrassed, so I sat up straight and touched my head with my hand.
Said.
"..."
When I turned my head because he wasn't saying anything, he was still looking at me.
"Ah, why aren't you waking me up and just watching... It's embarrassing..."
"What's embarrassing? It's not like I've seen you sleep once or twice."
"... Oh, but still... how much did I sleep...?"
"Are you tired?"
...Why is my brother's voice so sweet when he asks if I'm tired?
"no..."
I couldn't sleep because I was so worried about Kim Taehyung...
"..."
"...Why do you keep looking at me like that..."
I feel like I'm about to get pierced by my brother's constant, burdensome gaze.
Because it was the same, I pushed my brother's shoulder towards the driver's seat.
"pretty."
"... what.."
"You're best when you're sleeping. Not naughty, not noisy."
"..."
"You seem really comfortable with me. You sleep very well."
"No, I had a hard time sleeping last night..."
"Go in and get some sleep."
"...Yeah. Thanks for giving it to me, oppa.."
"huh."
"I'll go. Drive safely."
"Yeah. Bye."
"..."
The human heart is truly treacherous.
Feelings of excitement and disappointment change as easily as turning over the palm of one's hand.
I wonder if I can come and go. My brother treats me coldly.
I was in so much pain, but I was so happy just being together.
How many times do you go back and forth in such a short period of time?
Well, the conclusion is that it's just good.
But I was with my brother.
Even if my brother has a cold expression, I can see it with my own eyes and say cold words
I can hear it with both ears and feel like my brother and I are in the same space.
Because I felt it.
If it were the real Kim Taehyung and not the photo, I could endure that pain
There was. Okay, let's call this tidy, happy pain.
So, even if it hurts more, I just want to see you more.
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