"Ugh..."
"why?"
"That's quite a sad question...I want to cry."
"...sorry."
"No, it's my fault for not having a lover, you don't have to be sorry."
"me too."
"yes?"
"I wanted to get married quickly. I'm already thirty."
Me too... I wanted to do it at least when I was twenty-four. But then I'd have to date someone for years. Why would I get married just by looking at someone's face? Five years have already passed. Even if I dated, I'd probably get married in my thirties. I can't believe that would last forever. Is there no one in this world who likes me? Ah, Lee Seok... No. She's eighteen now. How dare you touch her? At an age when she should be blooming.
"Huh... I mean, I wanted to do it when I was twenty-four..."
"Did you have a boyfriend?"
"Ah... I dated someone for a little over four years, from when I was in the second year of high school until I was twenty-two... but he also had a hard time doing two things at the same time, so he said he wanted to break up. So I'm trying to find someone better."
"I'm... single."
"Huh? Really?"
"Poor thing, I'm pretty."
"He said it himself... Youth is amazing..."
"Do you know why I play poker at school?"
"Oh... I'm really curious, is there a reason?"
I just thought he was the kind of person who found it annoying to laugh! He should have been like that a long time ago, really.
"I'm afraid I'll get kicked out of school."
"why?"
"I don't want the kids to fight because of me, so I don't want my students or I to get kicked out or fired. I'm preparing in advance."
"...G, that... I don't think that will happen..."
What, this guy's a narcissist? He doesn't look like much. That's a bit surprising. There are a lot of strange people in the world, actually. Well, it's not that narcissism is strange, but the world of narcissism is mysterious.
***
slap-,
"Ugh! As expected... it's dangerous outside the blankets..."
As soon as I lay down in bed, I feel drained. Ah, is it laziness again? Today feels different, like a chore. No, not as much as I'd expected. I don't want to get up... I have to change clothes... I don't want to.
Swish,
I took off my outer coat, hung it on the vanity chair, kicked off my socks, and crawled under the covers. My body felt like it wasn't doing what it wanted.
"Ahh... I have to wash... I have to wash and then go to bed..."
I didn't even doze off, I just closed my eyes and fell asleep. I just wanted to lie down for a bit. I tried not to close my eyes, but as expected, I couldn't control myself. Now that I think about it, my head hurts a little. Yeah, I just went to sleep when I had a headache. I'll just take a deep breath and wake up.
***
"Ugh...oh my head...who put a rock in it while I was sleeping...why is my head so heavy..ugh.."
My head felt heavy, and even the slightest movement made it feel like it would split open. My legs were weak. I didn't think I could walk at this rate. It was only natural that my voice felt weak, and my shoulders, back, and waist—everywhere—ached. Do you have a fever?
Chin, chin, chin,
I barely managed to get up and get the thermometer. I slowly checked it, but what the heck. 38.6 degrees...? I can't feel it, but... shouldn't I cover myself with a blanket? The fever will get higher. I need a wet towel... Ugh... There's no one to take care of me in times like these. Seriously... This is why they say living alone is hard.
"Uh...yes...yes...I think I need to go to the hospital...thank you.."
I feel like I'm going to collapse if I go to work... I should go to the hospital. I don't want it to get any worse.