"Maybe it's better to be alone"
Now, two days later, as I head to class under the pretense of being sick, my mind is in disarray. Two days ago, I couldn't sleep because of thoughts of them. I finally understand why they acted that way, and I do feel a bit sorry for them. I've hurt others by spewing out my thoughts without a filter. This incident made me realize that it's not always good to just say what I think and feel... But I'm going to just go to class without a care in the world. My rule is to never hold on to someone who's already left.
Drumroll
It seemed like I was the last one to arrive at school today as well. I headed to my seat, put my bag down, and sat down. Jeon Jungkook seemed to be sleeping face down, and Kim Taehyung was holding onto his game console, playing a game. Kim Namjoon asked me if I was okay, so I nodded, and Kim Seokjin was stealing glances at me, which was obvious. Min Yoongi... Yeah... You, you seemed to be sleeping better than anyone else in the world. Jung Hoseok waved lightly as well. Park Jimin looked at me with a stern expression, which caught me off guard, but...
Since I'd barely made it to school, the bell signaling the start of first period rang right away. Jeon Jungkook, eyes wide and drooping, woke up to the sound. He noticed me, looked flustered for a moment, then turned his head forward. Tired from staying up all night, I decided to sleep on my stomach.
Time flies so fast, annoyingly. First period was already over, and I was completely awake. Seven people were gone, and I was thinking of switching seats. I thought it would be inconvenient because of me.
"Do you want to switch seats with me?"
"Huh? "
Normally, I was a very quiet kid. Other people might think I'm a punk... sniff...
The kid agreed, and I was able to sit right next to the back door, which was convenient for walking back and forth. I should probably run to the store right away. I wasn't hungry since I hadn't had breakfast.
After a while, they came into the classroom. And then, I was embarrassed to see another child sitting where the female lead should have been. I sat there indifferently, resting my chin on my hand, and didn't really pay attention. Aren't we comfortable and nice together?
Then Kim Namjoon came up to me and asked.
"Why are you sitting there? It's not your seat."
"This is my seat from now on. Did we switch seats?"
"Why did you change it?"
"Do I really have to tell you?"
I couldn't say in front of those kids, "I switched seats because I was worried they'd make me uncomfortable," so I didn't tell them why.
"No matter how much we hate it, there's no need to change seats."
Absurd
"What are you talking about? I never said no."
"Then why did you change it?"
" that... "
What the hell am I supposed to say about this...?
"I want to sit in a new seat"
" ....... "
I almost burst out laughing at that moment. I said it, but it's so ridiculous. Anyone can see that it's an excuse. F*ck.
"Sit back down in your original seat"
I was going crazy because he looked at me with an expression that said he didn't like anything. I moved because he seemed uncomfortable, but he told me to go back?
silence...
Ding dong dang dong -- (shocking, but the bell rings)
"You've thrown away the paper, go back to your seat."
I think this is what they mean when they say, "I messed up the timing." I don't know when, but everyone except Kim Namjoon is my enemy. That means there will come a day when we will fight each other. Since it has come to this, I just want to get rid of all the feelings. Without feeling guilty, without being shaken.
During class, I felt like the side of my face was being pierced, and I thought I was going to die. Apparently, shooting lasers from their eyes is a superpower...
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"Fuck..."
Time flies so quickly at times like this. My quiet curse made my partner flinch, and I was about to throw open the back door to escape the situation, hungry and dying, and run to the store...
Whoosh
Something flew from behind, and a dark green liquid was smeared on the back door. The door melted away like ice.
" ??!? "
When I looked back, I saw Min Yoongi standing there with a calm look on his face. Did that kid do that on purpose;;?
"What are you doing?"
"Avoid again?"
You're so needlessly perceptive and annoying. It's true that I skipped school yesterday to gather my thoughts and avoid them.
"What the hell are you talking about when you go to the store?"
I turned around and went out the front door. I was hungry and I really wanted to grab him and throw him in the trash.
I was wondering what to eat at the store and ended up picking up a bunch of food, when suddenly a thought occurred to me... I didn't bring my card... haha
"What the hell, how can you think of going to the store and not bringing your card?? Are you an idiot???"
Honestly, at this moment, I want to hit myself...
The moment I let out a deep sigh and put the things I had picked up back where they belonged
"Give it here"
Someone took what was in my hand.
"What are you doing...huh...?"
"Please calculate it for me"
" seokjin kim...? "
"Why are you staring blankly like that?"
"What...why are you"
"Are you okay? I heard you were sick."
"Oh, uh... no, that's not the problem, it's why you're here."
"Why? Is there any reason why I shouldn't come to the store?"
"That's not it..."
"And I'm your store mate, right? Whenever you ask me to go to the store together, why do I always go alone?"
"There's no need for that anymore, not even store mates."
"No, I'm going to be your store mate."
I kept my mouth shut at Kim Seok-jin's firm words.
" shine "
" ...? "
"I regret it"
"What are you talking about?"
"I regret throwing poison"
"What do you want me to do?"
"Don't hate me, Yoongi. I just got angry and did that. You suddenly changed seats and tried to run away from the classroom."
"Why are you so angry?"
" ...Don't you think we're friends?"
"What are you talking about? I never thought of you as a friend until now."
"Then why did you say that yesterday?"
"You said we were friends. You never said we weren't friends."
"You don't trust your friends, do you?"
" uh...? "
"Every time I see you, I can feel that you've been living with us while building a wall around us. At first, I didn't really care. I thought we'd gradually become closer. But you haven't really changed much over time. The wall was still there, and now it seems like it's gotten thicker."
"You might think I'm selfish. But, please understand this: I've only known you for a short time. And you were born and raised here, but I'm not. How can I feel comfortable in this strange place? I'm alone. I don't have any family on this island. I have no one to lean on. "
"Even I find it difficult? You all know that I'm not doing well here. Just look at the kids in my class. They don't welcome me, they hate me. It's really scary when someone hates you. That's why... I'm still having a hard time holding on... haha"
It's so hard for me that you're my enemy, and that my parents were killed by these people... I'm only 17... haha It's so hard, and I'm getting tired.
" ..... "
I was so overcome with emotion that I almost cried.
I think I'm strong in the eyes of others. My abilities are such that they can't help but think that way. And I hate showing weakness.
But I'm weak. So weak, I can't do anything even with enemies all around me. I'm just trembling and barely holding on. Right now, I'm forcing a smile. I have to become stronger.
"Thanks for buying it for me, I'll pay you back later."
" ....Okay, how much is it?"
"And, if it's hard, you can lean on us. We're all on your side."
Well, is that really so? No, could I possibly do that?
"J..that Seokjin!!"
Someone was running towards Kim Seok-jin. They were running like crazy, as if it was urgent.
" what's the matter? "
"Jeon Jungkook again..."
"Ha...fuck, that kid is going to be a jerk to Jungkook again."
Kim Seokjin's harsh wording momentarily threw me off guard. If I'm thinking correctly, that chairman must have taken Jeon Jungkook away again. That kid must have rushed to find Kim Seokjin, who possessed healing powers, because he needed to treat the injured Jeon Jungkook. But who the hell does that kid do, and what is his relationship to Jeon Jungkook? Who is he that all the students are afraid of?
Kim Seok-jin ran out of the store. I didn't follow him. No, I shouldn't have followed him.
"Hey...you're not...going...?"
" ....? "
"Ah... because you're close with him..."
" ... I'm not going "
Can't go
I slowly headed to the classroom. I figured nothing would happen to Jeon Jungkook. Even if he did, how could the other six help him? They were close friends.
Stop
My mind was racing. Then, as I was taking a deep breath, I saw six people ahead of me. In front of that door. In front of the room of that kid who looked like the chairman or something. In that room where Jeon Jungkook would be...
I turned around. I was going to turn around and go to the classroom. But
bang!!!
I heard a loud noise from behind me and turned around quickly.
The door was shattered, and Jeon Jungkook was in shambles. I don't know how, but he must have been thrown toward the door. The six people standing in front of the door were also hit, but they didn't seem to be in any major trouble. Perhaps because they managed to catch Jeon Jungkook, he avoided being seriously injured.
Fuck, but this isn't it.
My expression hardened rapidly. But I couldn't step forward. My grandmother's life depended on it. I could only watch.
The chairman emerged from the room, and the six men refrained from attacking him, as if to tell him to stop. But in the blink of an eye, they were forced to their knees, unable to move. That chairman seemed to be able to manipulate people.
I frowned at Jeon Jungkook, who was spitting out blood. What on earth could he have done in such a short time to cause him to end up like this? Then, my eyes met with the chairman's.
"Who is this? Aren't you student Han Yeo-ju?"
The chairman, who smiled viciously and pretended to know me, made me want to kill him. At his words, all seven of them turned to me, and I could see their pupils shaking.
"Even if he's a person who sits in a high position, don't you think that doing this at school is a bit much? Why does he keep doing this at school?"
"That's not something you need to know, Yeoju. Just go on your way. It's not something you need to worry about, right?"
" ...... "
I bit my lower lip hard. I hated being treated like that by that kid, and I was so frustrated and angry.
" ..... "
Jeon Jungkook looked at me and lowered his head to avoid eye contact, and the six of them spoke with their eyes.
Help me, please
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Give me your hand, save me...save me.....
(TMI Time)
This is a writer who was shocked while grading mock exams. The writer who received a grade of 2 in a subject by missing 1 point was in tears... haha