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"Have you had lunch?"
The ending of the words is blurredthatI guess it's because I imagined what it would be like to have a meal with a business colleague.
"I haven't eaten yet. Would you like to eat together?"
" is it so. "
"Oh, I heard that I can go through the discharge process and be discharged today."
"Really?"
" huh. "
" ···thank god. "
Again, the words are blurred,
Because the hospital could be said to be the last link with him.
"Uh... Shall we go get lunch?"
"Can I just eat here? I'm curious about the VIP hospital food. It's even famous that the hospital food here is delicious."
"Okay? Okay, I'll tell you now."
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The VIP hospital food was, needless to say, delicious. It was so good I couldn't even think of ordering anything secretly. After eating, I felt lethargic and lazed around. By the time I finished my discharge, it was already around 5 o'clock.
" ···phew, "
He left the hospital room, leaving behind Kim Min-gyu, who said he was going to the bathroom and seemed to be gathering something inside.
Where the footsteps eventually arrived,
" ah···. "
It was his hospital room that I would never see again.
" ···. "
All I could see was his back as he lay facing the window. For the considerable time I stood there, he never once turned toward the door.
My fists clenched, trembling with the urge to open the door right now. "You're the one I'm looking at," I said. "You're the only one I have." I forced those words in with great effort.
I stared at his back for a long time before turning around. I hadn't realized how difficult and arduous it was to simply look at someone's back. Perhaps it was because he'd never once shown me his back when I was by his side.
I remembered the back I'd shown him in the cherry blossom street, and I collapsed against the wall. He had come back even after seeing my back so cruelly, but I...
I am···,
" ···, "
I felt so miserable and so sorry that all I could do was cry so foolishly. So I cried even more foolishly and pathetically.
···Later, I regretted that day endlessly.
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" ···. "
Seungcheol turns his head to look outside, where the sound of someone holding back tears has suddenly become quiet. The silent hospital room, devoid of any sign of life, still feels cruelly unfamiliar.
If I had looked back then, I felt like I wouldn't be remembered as a good person. It was my greed. I wanted you to remember me as a bad person, to hate and loathe me, and then slowly forget me. Maybe that was for Soo-ah's sake, but since I was leaving anyway, selfishly... did I want to remain a good person?
His breath catches his throat. Seungcheol's face freezes.
Is there really not much time left now?
Seungcheol shuddered at the cold sensation of the oxygen mask, thinking, "This autumn night was especially frightening today."
Will I ever see winter, my favorite season, again? It seems too greedy to see you again in this life, when even seeing the beauty of winter, the one I longed to plunge into with you, is uncertain.
He makes a silent wish. He blurts out a quiet confession in the silence, as if no one is listening.
In the next life. In the next life, I hope it's you. I hope you're me. I'll be born with a healthy body that will allow me to live a long life, so I'll never let you go first. I hope we'll both love each other then. I hope we're born with the kind of destiny that allows us to love and embrace each other to our hearts' content.
Yes, I want to stay by your side then.
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"Where have you been..?"
He asked me cautiously, as I had not come in for a while to calm my reddened eyes.
"I'm sorry... I thought this would be the last time, I missed you..."
"Flower garden?"
" ···. "
I smiled bitterly at him as he brought up the story of that place, which was deeply imbued with memories of the two people.
" ···yes. "
"Shall we go out now?"
Was it a mistake to think of it as a flower garden and not bring it up?
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"Sister!!"
"···Yeah, heroine- Come and eat this! You too, Min-gyu."
"Did your sister make it..? To your mother..?"
"It's been so long and I haven't cooked in a while, so I said I'd do it. How long has it been... Are you feeling better?"
"Yeah. Did you have a good rest?"
"Did you have a good rest, Noona? Oh my, you look so gaunt. You must have had a hard time..."
As soon as Hye-yeon came in, she ran to Min-gyu and hugged his neck, and the hand I was holding onto him suddenly let go. A strange feeling crossed my mind as I watched her embrace him and lead him to the kitchen. Perhaps it was my own strange mood.
...By the way, I feel really strange. Did I leave something behind at the hospital?
The dinner my sister made was truly delicious, better than anything you'd find at a fancy restaurant. All three of us laughed and had a cozy time, almost like a normal family.
A familiar feeling greeted me as I entered the room after a long time. And that night, as I was getting ready for bed.
Smart -
"What's going on-"
"Please put me to sleep."
"Suddenly?"
"I just can't sleep without you anymore..."
I was momentarily taken aback by the sudden confession, but when I got home, I seemed to have regained my sense of identity and nodded obediently.
"Come this way."
" huh, "
Because the bed wasn't very wide, we were lying quite close together.
"···Good night, Su-ah."
" good night. "
He held onto one of my hands tightly, as if it were his salvation, and before he knew it, he had fallen asleep. He lay staring at the ceiling, then, hearing his even breathing, he turned toward him.
" ···sorry. "
The words, quietly spoken, almost as if they were spoken under his breath, actually triggered my thoughts. Kim Min-gyu, who had suddenly awoken me from my sleep, embraced me, so I rolled over and closed my eyes.
Even the moment I closed my eyes, I knew I wouldn't fall asleep. Even with the soft breaths of someone holding me, breathing softly in my ear,
If you weren't excited.
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This episode seems to have put a lot of thought into the characters' emotions, so you can tell...? (I'm sorry if you laughed because you couldn't feel the emotions.)
🖇 R E V I E W 🖇
✏First of all, in the beginning, Suah said,thatYou use the word 'that' several times. Here, 'that' is used twice, 'thatAs you can see, it refers to Seungcheol. When I look at Mingyu's face, I think of Seungcheol eating with his business partner. I don't think of Mingyu. On the other hand, when Suah is with Seungcheol, she doesn't think of Mingyu unless she feels guilty, right? When she looks at Seungcheol, she focuses solely on him, and when she looks at Mingyu, she thinks of Seungcheol. Ssup...
✏Seungcheol wasn't actually sleeping...ㅠㅠ He knew someone was nearby because of the noise, and when he peeked back, he saw Suah. And I think... If I look back now, I don't think I'll be a good person. Because it seems like I'll take some action? It's just so sad.. When you like each other and know each other's feelings, but you have no choice but to draw a line. I think that's the most heartbreaking situation...ㅠㅠㅠㅠ Seungcheol, my best...
✏Hye-yeon appeared after a long time. She said she made food and it was delicious. Oh, so she's a good character... Oh, no, that's not it (Wake up, Lunatic) What kind of character is Hye-yeon? I remember dropping a little something about Hye-yeon as well.
✏Was Soo-ah's apology to Mingyu purely a feeling of guilt over not being able to forget Seung-chul? Perhaps it's a deeper emotion than can be explained so lightly. As you know, Soo-ah and Mingyu's relationship is tied financially, and Soo-ah, as the head of a household, has faced a tremendous amount of hardship...
The serialization date.. I feel like I missed it once.. Please help me. No, it's crazy to upload at 12 in the first place, but these days I only have two academies on Saturdays, and I write on my phone..ㅠ Could you allow me to extend the cutoff line until 2 AM on Sunday 🤦..? In the meantime, the emotional line is so short..🤦 This Imatak keeps coming up because it suits what I do so well.. 🤦 Argh, argh, argh Next time 😇😘😊 I'll try to adjust the upward movement so that only these guys keep coming up,,!ㅠ