#18
Theft ×
Jungkook took Suzy to his room. Jimin, who had been holding a first aid kit for some time, approached Suzy.
"You unlucky bastard."
“Isn’t that too much to say to someone who came to treat you?”
"Where can you find a friend as good as me?"
"..disgusting."
I hated the sight of him. The constant feeling of his strength made me loathe him. I don't know why. Seeing him as if he was hiding something, I absolutely didn't want to get close to him.
"Don't touch me. Before I kill you."
"You're hurt."
He was badly hurt. Jeon Jungkook's bed was already soaked in blood, and Hoseok couldn't stand to watch any longer and went over to Yeoju to treat her. Perhaps because he was the closest person to her, he didn't feel much resistance.
"It'll be hot."
Whether it stings or not... I don't feel any pain. It should definitely hurt, but strangely enough, I don't.
Should I die? Shouldn't I just die? Isn't this the chance? A chance to die without pain?
A knife resting on a table with fruit. I used a knife like that to kill myself. It was incredibly painful then. But now, the thought that it wouldn't be like that filled my mind.
"...Hey, I'll clean this up."
Yoon-ki was watching Soo-ji. Feeling that Soo-ji's gaze was unusual, he immediately brushed it away.
"....."
it's annoying.
Around the time Ho-seok finished his treatment, those people were waiting to pick me up. I think Dad heard about it.
"Miss, are you okay?"
"Does it look okay?"
"yes?"
I want to kill him. This life, where I can't even decide how to die, is like hell to me. Am I being punished? For throwing my life away?
It's the same. Those expressions. That expression of annoyance is driving me crazy.
"Get out. Get out of my sight."
"I will take you. Let's go to the hospital."
"Please... please shut your mouth and get out of here!!"
My anger surged up like crazy. This unpleasant feeling. Their gazes at me. Even their trembling mouths were disgusting. I couldn't breathe. It was suffocating. I felt like I was going to die...
"Go out. I never asked you to come in."
"I have to take the young lady with me."
"That's your business. I told you to get out, right now."
I couldn't open my mouth any longer. It was Jeon Jungkook, and I knew he wasn't someone I could argue with, so I had to back off.
"...If anything happens, please call me."
They glanced at Suzy before heading outside. Jeongguk noticed her trembling hands and gently grabbed them. Then he asked soothingly, "What's wrong?"
"Why won't you just leave me alone?"
"Why do you keep driving me crazy?"
"What are you talking about..."
"You guys are the same. I told you I didn't like it. I told you to get out. But why do you keep...!!"
"....."
Suji bit her poor lower lip. What difference would it make if I said this? What could I possibly do among these people who always do as they please?
"...It's hard."
The mouths of those in Jeongguk's room fell silent. They could only tease her, her appearance so shattered that they could barely contain themselves. The Suzy they knew was nowhere to be found. She was dead, like a rose that had withered, her always beautiful bloom.
What on earth made her like this?
Suji, curled up and head down, looks infinitely small. Where have you gone, the always-shining you?
"Sleep here. Your room is a mess, you won't be able to get in."
"No need. Why should I sleep here?"
"That room is no good. The smell of incense wouldn't have gone away either."
That scent. The unpleasant, head-slapping scent that hit me when I entered Suji's room. That room didn't seem like the right place for Suji.
"incense..."
"What the hell are you doing with that incense? It just gives me a headache..."
"I hate it too."
"...? Didn't you turn it on?"
"If I had turned it on, this day wouldn't have happened lol"
Ho-seok sensed a sense of utter despair from Su-ji's expression. He felt something bad was happening to her. And it seemed like it was happening because of someone close to her.
"You guys be careful too."
"If you don't want to feel how scary it is to be a person who doesn't care about the means and methods when faced with success."
"What are you talking about?"
"I should be careful too, shouldn't I?"
I'm in a position where I have to take advantage of you.
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The college entrance exam is just around the corner... I won't be able to come here often.