#1 Anxious girlfriend × Myeong Jaehyun
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It had been not long since it had been over a year since I started dating Jaehyun.
Jaehyun was someone who had consistently kept in touch for me, who was anxious by nature.
Last KakaoTalk message: 10:48
Now: 11:05
It was only seventeen minutes
And yet, in those seventeen minutes, I had already turned on my phone about ten times
Then one story popped up
It was an account belonging to one of Jaehyun’s friends
At the center of a barbecue restaurant table, Myeong Jaehyun was laughing the hardest, his eyes crescent-shaped
Oh, so that’s fun
So he can laugh that well even without me
Which was obvious
It was a good thing that Jaehyun was having fun with his friends
I don’t know why my throat kept stinging
What if it shows that I’m waiting for his messages too much
What if he thinks I’m a pain
Jaehyun hadn’t done anything, but I kept spinning my thoughts in weird directions all by myself
I opened the KakaoTalk window
Miss you
I typed it, then deleted it
It felt too overdramatic to be this upset about it
Have fun~
Like nothing’s wrong
The moment I sent it, I pulled the blanket over my head
I’m such an idiot, seriously
Jaehyun hadn’t done a single thing wrong
The 1 disappeared
And in less than a minute, the phone in my hand rang
Jaehyun❤️
Hana : “…Hello?”
Jaehyun : "Baby, I stepped out for a sec"
I heard the store door close behind him
Hana : "Weren’t you eating meat?"
Jaehyun : "I was, but baby, what’s this"
Hana : "What is"
Jaehyun : "Have fun~ ?"
At the teasing way he dragged out the ending, my face got hot for no reason
Hana : "I just meant go have fun"
Jaehyun : "Really?"
Hana : "Yeah, I’m really fine"
There was a brief silence
Jaehyun : "When you’re really fine, you don’t add a tilde"
I was at a loss for words
Hana : “…It’s nothing, I’m just being weird"
Jaehyun : "What’s weird about it"
Hana : "You didn’t do anything, but I just went off by myself for no reason"
Jaehyun : "You’re not weird"
Jaehyun cut me off at once
Jaehyun : "It’s just one of those days. When that happens, you can just tell me
Then I’ll tell you a hundred times if I have to that I’m thinking about you right now"
Hana : "While eating meat?"
Jaehyun : "Even while eating meat
I wanted to tell you first when I scored earlier"
It was so quiet inside the blanket that I could only hear my own breathing loudly
Jaehyun : "I hate making you worry too, so I really do act like I’m fine
But that’s lonely all by yourself, you know? I know that, so I hate it when you do that"
Hana : “…The meat’s going to get cold”
Jaehyun : "Then let it get cold"
Hana : "Your friends are waiting"
Jaehyun : "Then let them wait"
At his absurdly confident voice, I finally burst out laughing
Jaehyun : "Ah, you laughed. You laughed just now"
Hana : "I didn’t laugh"
Jaehyun : "You did laugh, I heard it all"
After bickering for a while, I could feel Jaehyun take one breath to steady himself
His voice had lost all its teasing
Jaehyun : "If you’re anxious in the future, just call me
It’s fine even if it’s 3:30 a.m. I like getting calls at that hour
I’ll be the one to act like I’m fine, so you just tell me everything"
Instead of answering, I lowered the blanket a little
The window outside looked less dark than before
The next morning, I found a folded note in the front pocket of my bag
It was neat and pretty handwriting, and I had no idea when he’d put it there
Next time, don’t say have fun—say you miss me. I’ll come right away, baby.
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