I'll take responsibility, sir.
He slept with me while he had someone else he liked...? I wondered what the hell was going on. Did he not feel sorry towards that person? Or did Manager Kim just have a crush on him? I wondered if it was right to leave the person I liked behind and sleep with someone else. I like Manager Kim too... I still like him... But of course Manager Kim wants to erase this memory. That's probably why he's avoiding me.
"Manager Kim... I have something to say. Do you have time..?"
"..Oh, I'm a bit busy."
"One minute will do... No, even 30 seconds..."
"Sorry, let's talk later."
"I'll go first."
The manager, who pretends nothing happened but wants to quickly get out of the way, is awkward when we meet. Awkward is awkward, and what I don't like is unwelcome... Shouldn't we at least talk about what happened last night? What if I really... really am pregnant with Manager Kim's child? Manager Kim will be fine, but I...
"..It's important."
"Why, is there anything else you don't know?"
"..It's not about work."
"Are you saying we should talk about personal matters at work?"
"Jeong Yeo-ju. Go and do some work."
"Where is the time to gossip at work?"
"Do you want to get cut?"
...Kim Taehyung is really a bad boy_
"..Wow, you really...."
"I'm speechless, speechless..."
"No... yeah, I admit I slept."
"I could sleep with my sister-in-law... We're going to get married anyway, right?"
"We haven't even started dating yet, but I admit to speeding."
"But isn't it a bit much to avoid it..?"
"I need to talk to my sister-in-law."
"The son of a bitch should avoid it."
I was drunk, and under normal circumstances, I wouldn't have let it go, but I was momentarily crazy and did something like that. Why did you say you'd take me there then? Why did you go to the company dinner in the first place? If it weren't for Yeo-ju, I wouldn't have gone to a place like that. I felt so bad for putting Yeo-ju through this, I couldn't even face her. Maybe... maybe because of this, she started to hate people like me?
"I guess I'm really crazy..."
"Why do I live..?"
"Don't talk like an idiot."
"What if my sister-in-law gets pregnant?"
"...pregnancy...?"
"You crazy bastard. You didn't think that far?"
"If your sister-in-law gets pregnant, you will naturally take responsibility."
I hadn't even considered getting pregnant. I could just turn around and act like nothing happened, but Yeoju wasn't like that... Honestly, I'm not sure. I hate myself, so I wonder if I can be good to Yeoju, and if we have a child, I wonder if I can love them... I want to run away. I'm not sure. I don't think I can be a good husband or a good father.
"Wake up, Kim Taehyung."
"It's fortunate if you don't get pregnant, but even if you do, it's your fault, so don't regret it."
"Go quickly and talk to your sister-in-law."
"We like each other, so why are we doing this?"
"If you don't like dating, get married, you idiot."
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