My sleep patterns and sense of time are starting to become clearer again. Yeah... this is probably right. They were just... just part of a dream.
Just as I was trying to forget everything, the midterms passed and the hot summer arrived. The warm summer sun shone down on the four of us.
-Dongmin-ah
-uh?
-Aren't you having nightmares these days?
-… I don't want it
-okay?
-huh.
-But why aren't you smiling?
-uh?
-You look very sad
-No, not that.
-You look so depressed that it might be better to cry.
-I said no..
-Then... I won't interfere anymore.
Nayoung's words stung my heart. How could she possibly know my feelings so well? I wondered what was going on. Feeling caught, I forced a smile to deny it.
But after that, I thought about the dream often. I didn't dream it, but I was worried, and it seemed like every day, except for school and academy, I kept thinking about it. By now... I wonder if they're okay... Can I forget about it?
I missed them. I wanted to see them, the ones who always smiled and thought of me. Hot tears clouded my vision. I felt ashamed that I had so irresponsibly tried to forget them and live on.
-It's my fault..I'm sorry..
Again and again... If only I could dream, I would. I wish you would trust me and give me one more chance. Even if it means dying this time, I will protect them.
Then, Myung Jae-hyun came up to me and I woke up from my thoughts.
-Dongmin-ah
-…why
-You know, I had a dream?
-What dream?
-Some village is burning, Yeon-i and Moon Na-young are crying... But strangely, you keep talking to me as if you knew about this situation and felt sorry for me?
I felt like I was falling apart in an instant. I told myself that I couldn't let Myung Jae-hyun have this dream. I couldn't let him get hurt either.
-If you dream this again, run away unconditionally.
-uh?
-If you see them in that dream, run away whether I'm there or not.
-Uh..uh..
Only then could I feel at ease. He wouldn't know that dream was a past life. I didn't want him to have to endure that cold and pain.
That night, I had a dream. No, I saw my past life.
{Next episode's main items}
White flower pot.