07 | Heart
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"professor!"
"uh?"
It looks like the surgery is finished now. Good job.
“Uh… but I have surgery again soon.”
It seems like there are really a lot of surgery patients in the thoracic surgery department.
"That makes sense, since it is a place that deals with important institutions."
“So you need to focus and be careful with everything you do, okay?”
Of course, I am doing my best to diagnose and treat patients.
Yeah, there's no one as good as you.
You used to treat me so badly back then.
"Oh come on, when did I ever..."
“Oh my god, Professor, don’t even think about denying it!”
"But you were badmouthing me behind my back too."
“… I won’t refute it.”
"Exactly. I thought we were really incompatible."
"You're subtly making fun of me?"
"Oh come on, it's not like that."
I spent a pleasant time joking around and chatting with a professor I had become close with while on my way to see a patient. Then, the professor approached me, saying there was something on my hair, and for the first time, I saw his face right up close. With his big eyes, long eyelashes, dimples, a straight nose, full lips, and perfect symmetry, my heart instantly raced.
"Enough. You're so clumsy going around with stuff like this on you."
“Um, um, it’s almost time to see my patient, so I’ll be leaving now…!”
With my face flushed and my heart pounding, I quickly left the spot. Seokjin smiled faintly behind me as I ran, but overwhelmed by sudden emotions, I couldn't hear anything but the sound of my own heartbeat.
It was a feeling I had never experienced before in my life. My heart tingled, my pulse raced, and my face flushed. It was a strange sensation that was impossible to describe in words. I went to the restroom to check my condition; my face looked haggard and tired due to dark circles that were clearly visible because I hadn't applied makeup, my hair was greasy and tied up high, and I was wearing that boring doctor's gown I always wore.
For the first time, I regretted becoming a doctor. I felt a sense of shame, wondering why I looked so haggard from being so busy, and why I looked like this when the professor was so handsome even when tired.
I was unbelievably ashamed and shocked to think that I had always been facing the professor looking like this. Of course, I know no resident doctor dresses up, but even so, isn't this a bit too serious?
After finally managing to calm myself and my mind, I went out to see a patient. Seokjin was nowhere to be found, and I headed to the examination room feeling relieved.
With this, I came to realize my feelings for the professor. I never imagined that I would actually like the rude professor.
However, since his behavior had changed lately and he wasn't rude to me, at least, I could understand it to some extent. But I still couldn't believe it—that my heart was beating for the professor.