Live with your ex-boyfriend!
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Maybe I wanted to keep denying it. Even though my relationship with Kim Taehyung could go back to how it was, I kept worrying about things that hadn't happened. I wonder how frustrated Kim Taehyung must have been, sighing heavily in front of me.Friend… that’s right, the awkward friend I first met at the beginning of the semester.
“I’m just asking because I’m genuinely curious. Does thinking that make you feel better?”
Kim Taehyung seemed to be starting to get angry. He knew what it felt like to have barbs in his words. His voice and tone were both sharp.
“Do you think my heart would be at ease?”
“You’re uncomfortable too. But why do you keep saying things that don’t make sense?”
It sounded like nonsense... Yeah, that seems right. The fact that I was even saying this was the problem. I finished washing the dishes, which I had been doing in silence for a while. Kim Taehyung didn't say anything else, perhaps giving me time to think. Only after I finished washing the dishes did I turn around and face Kim Taehyung.
"You're right. It's uncomfortable. It's driving me crazy. Who in the world can be friends with their ex-boyfriend?"
“So that’s why,”
“What are the chances that ex-lovers will meet again?”
"what?"
“How much do you think that will be?”
Kim Taehyung's mouth snapped shut. Just as spilled water can't be gathered back, everyone knows that relationships once ended are difficult to restart. The odds of ex-lovers reuniting varied from person to person, but for most, it was zero.
“You already know it’s almost zero.”
"No. We know why we broke up, and we know what to do, but how can we be 100 percent sure?"
“……”
"It might not work out as you say. But possibilities exist for a reason. The possibility of trying, and the possibility of us meeting again."
Kim Taehyung's resolve was unwavering. I know there's not a single thing wrong with what he said. So why does he continue to deny it? It's driving me crazy. Since we started filming, everything has become chaotic.Possibility? That's a really good word. It also gives false hope.
"I really don't know. I don't understand anything... I just resent everything about this. Why did I film this? And more importantly, why did I meet you?"
“Kim Yeo-ju.”
“We should have just stayed friends… Fate, my ass, why did I come here thinking like that?”
“My lady.”
"I even resent you now. Even if I didn't know it was you, you knew."
If I had known, I should have refused. We'd been living well without each other for a year, so why did you suddenly become so greedy?His eyes reddened, his fists clenched, and he trembled. Then he lowered his gaze to the floor. Kim Taehyung was silent for quite some time before finally opening his mouth.
“…Why do you say things like that? No matter how much you hate me, you can’t deny the past.”
“……”
"Who are you to deny even the happy days? Kim Yeo-ju, who are you to trample on our memories?"
Tears began to well up in my eyes. Kim Taehyung barely managed to speak, suppressing his pent-up emotions. Listening to him, I desperately held back my tears.
"You only blame me. You leave the past as it was, both happy and painful, and you only hate me. I think you'll have a lot more to blame me for in the future, so I'll apologize later."
Kim Taehyung didn't apologize to me. I didn't apologize to Kim Taehyung either. We left each other with indelible scars. The fact that I'll likely resent Kim Taehyung for many things in the future... means Kim Taehyung won't stop. It seems like he's going to try to believe in the possibility of something.
Even after Kim Taehyung passed me and walked out of the house, I remained motionless for a long time, tears streaming down my face. Then, halfway through, I collapsed to the ground, swaying and sobbing.
This morning, I woke up and cried so hard that my eyes, which I'd tried my best to keep open, were ridiculously swollen. Even though it hadn't been long since I saw Kim Taehyung again, I shed so many tears. Of all the tears, today, at this very moment, I shed the most. It must have been so bad that the person filming me asked if I was okay.
“Miss Yeoju, are you okay?”
“… No. I’m really not okay…”
“I’ll stop here for today. It’s Friday, so go home and get some rest.”
thank you…When I nodded, he stopped filming and put the camera away. I went into my room and packed up the things I needed for the weekend. Before leaving, I asked the person who was putting the camera away, perhaps worried that Kim Taehyung would be flustered by my absence.
“Um… what about Kim Taehyung…?”
“Don’t worry, I’ve contacted the friend who followed me.”
“Oh… Then see you on Monday!”
“Yes, Ms. Yeoju, get some rest and I’ll see you then.”
He was incredibly kind. He saw my condition, considered our situation, and not only thought of us more than filming, but he even greeted me with a smile. Thanks to that, I left the house feeling a little better. As I trudged out of the house, I chuckled at the beautiful weather. Feeling like I needed a drink to get through the day, I immediately picked up my phone and called Kang Joo-ah, the person who started this whole thing.
- hello…?
“Are you a bit nervous, PD Kang Joo-ah?”
- Lady, I'm really begging you so badly! If you tell me to kneel, I will, and even if you hit a dog, I won't say anything.
“Okay, when will it end today?”
- There's no such thing as quitting time for a broadcasting station PD. You can skip work whenever you want. Where are you going when you have free time starting around 5 PM?
“Come to our favorite pojangmacha. I really need a drink today.”
- What happened?
“I’ll talk to you when we meet. I might beat you up after we drink, so brace yourself and come.”
- F*ck… Scary bitch. Hang up.
As I was walking and talking on the phone with Kang Joo-ah, I found myself already in front of my house.Finally home-.Although I hadn't been home for long, perhaps because of all the things going on, I felt even more excited to be home. As soon as I got home, I tossed my bags aside and dove straight into bed. I set the alarm for the time I was supposed to meet Kang Joo-ah, then pulled the covers over my head and closed my eyes, leaving my mind in a state of confusion.
I hope that after a long, restful sleep, all of these things will be resolved, even if only a little.
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[EPILOGUE]
Q. When you were dating, how did you resolve fights?
"Kim Taehyung always gave in first. Even when I was wrong, he always gave in. I think that's why I developed such bad habits."
“He"You're so proud you don't know how to apologize first? Well, you don't have to know that for me. I'll always be the one losing anyway."
I read every single comment carefully! It's a bit embarrassing that I even had these concerns, even though readers considered them as their own. I'll pretend that I never had those concerns yesterday. After all, once you start a project, you should finish it responsibly. 😆Please leave a comment, and thank you for watching today too💗