"i like you"
Kim Seokjin and I didn't really have a proper conversation, but he told me he liked me. I didn't harbor any ill feelings toward him. In fact, I should say I had a slight fondness for him.
"So what do you want to do with me?"
"Let's date"
"okay"
I never thought a confession I accepted without thinking would last this long. He confessed when I was a senior in college, and now I'm just an ordinary office worker.
No matter what I did, Kim Seok-jin always overlooked my lies. Still, I didn't have sex with other men or go clubbing. I had my own thoughts, so I just drank or disappeared for a day or so.
Every time that happened, he would come to my house and scold me, but if I just said two words without any emotion, “I love you” and “I’m sorry,” Kim Seok-jin would stop scolding me. It was amazing that Kim Seok-jin was still holding on to the relationship he was barely holding on to, a relationship that seemed like it would break if someone struck him. No wonder his friends told me they felt sorry for Kim Seok-jin.
While I was drinking with friends at a bar, thinking about Kim Seok-jin, my phone rang in my bag. My friends spoke to me without even looking at me.
"I got a call from Kim Seok-jin."
When I took my phone out of my bag, I saw that Kim Seokjin was really calling. In fact, who else would be calling at this hour besides Kim Seokjin?
When I picked up the phone, I heard Kim Seokjin's voice, sounding slightly tired. The bar was so noisy that I had to step outside before I could put the phone to my ear.
"hello"
"Where are you now?"
"I'm at a bar now"
"So, where's the bar?"
"I was drinking with my friends at the same place I always go. Why, come pick me up?"
"Is this the first or second time you've done this? I'll go now, I'll be waiting."
Kim Seok-jin, who only talks about himself and then hangs up on me before coming to the bar I'm at. He always calls me around 12 o'clock and comes to pick me up.
As I re-enter the bar, a loud voice rings in my ears. As I sit down, my friends ask me:
"Isn't Kim Seokjin the most handsome guy you've ever dated?"
"So, is there any reason why you don't like it?"
"Actually, seeing as I don't feel any feelings for him even after dating him for a year and a half, I guess Kim Seokjin and I aren't meant to be."
"You've been together for a long time, even though it wasn't fate."
"Yeah," the words I swallowed still linger on the tip of my tongue. In the middle of chatting with my friends, the bell on the bar door rings. It must be Kim Seokjin, of course.
Kim Seok-jin finds the table I'm at, nods to his friends, and helps me up. He carries my bag for me and leaves the bar.
After saying hello to my friends, I come out and see Seokjin Kim opening the car door with an angry expression.
"Come on, I'll take you."
Silence flowed inside the car until the car started moving without saying a word. No one said anything until Seokjin Kim spoke first.
"Why are you doing this? Who wouldn't be worried if you can't contact me by midnight?"
"I'm sorry, I'll contact you later."
"From that guy onwards"
This time he seemed genuinely angry. It seemed like simple words like "I love you" or "I'm sorry" wouldn't suffice. As I was wondering what to do, the car stopped.
I looked out the window and found myself in front of my house. I tried to open the door, but it wouldn't open, and all I could hear was a dull thud. I turned to Kim Seokjin and he was staring at me expressionlessly. He stared at me for a long moment before opening his mouth and speaking.
"Kiss me"
Kim Seok-jin approached me and kissed me. He grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me, but I resisted, then pulled away. Our faces were right in front of each other when he spoke.
"I love you, tell me you love me"
"love you"
Only then did he open the car door. He got out of the car, waved a few times through the window, pressed the password for the common entrance door on the first floor, and when I went towards the elevator, Kim Seok-jin left the apartment complex.
When I got home and checked the time, it was already 1 AM. When I looked at the time, I felt like I was getting tired quickly, so I quickly washed up and went to bed.
As I collapsed onto the bed, the first face that came to mind was Kim Seokjin. The sight of him yearning for my love was a little pitiful, but what could I do if I didn't love him? I'd thought about it before. I wondered if I already loved him, but my brain just didn't see it that way. But my heart knew what I was doing, and I decided I didn't like Kim Seokjin.
Still, I fell asleep, thinking that I might feel a little empty if I suddenly couldn't contact you.
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