my hopi

The time we spent together was too short.

Lately, I've been feeling tired, have lost my appetite, and have had frequent nosebleeds, so I went for a check-up. The result was that I have cancer. I only have six months left with him. After six months, there will be no one left for him. I wonder how he will feel without me.

He often skips meals and is constantly tormented by stomach pain. I have no one left to remind him to eat on time and not skip meals anymore.

He often stays up late, so who will remind him to get enough sleep and go to bed on time?

He always had so much on his mind and often kept it all hidden. Without me around, there would be no one to talk to him, offer him helpful advice, or simply listen to him.

He might be heartbroken because I'm leaving, and that would leave me uneasy about him too. I only hope he finds a girl better than me, someone who can take my place and care for him.

How many more times will fate give me a second chance at life, how much more luck will it grant me so that I can once again hold you in my arms?

I don't want to doubt my luck, and I certainly can't imagine not seeing him again.

I wish I could always see him, to enjoy all his boundless affection... but how long can I be with him?