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12 The Past of Delay

Jiyeon's past

Jihoon left, leaving only Minhyuk and me. Speaking of the past, Jeonghan, Minhyuk, and I were incredibly close. We'd take young Mingyu here and there, or during school breaks, the three of us would gather and play at the playground until the sun went down. Then one day, a rumor spread that he liked me. At the time, I had feelings for Jeonghan, and he, knowing this, began to distance himself from Jeonghan and me. He could have intentionally driven a wedge between us, but he voluntarily distanced himself from us. The decisive reason the three of us ended up losing contact was...

“I’m moving.”
“Huh? Where are you going?”
“...It’s a bit far. But don’t worry, I won’t forget.”
"huh…"
“Jiyeon, you should stop fighting with Jeonghan and get along well.”
“Yeah… Then when will we meet?”
“Um… I’ll show up again when Jiyeon forgets about you.”


I won't forget you, oppa! I cried and shouted at Minhyuk oppa. I think I liked Minhyuk oppa, not Jeonghan. I liked him, but I didn't know how to express it, so I think I was deliberately trying to make him jealous. I vaguely remember crying and saying that I would never forget him before going home. That's how oppa left, and we naturally lost contact. When Jeonghan and I met, Minhyuk would sometimes come up, but since there was no way to contact him or meet him directly, he naturally forgot about me. Of course, I didn't think I would feel much when I saw him after love passed. Since it was a long time ago, I just forgot about him like a fate to pass by. Because Minhyuk was like that, I think the joy I felt when we met and the regret I had forgotten about all this time were not overshadowed.

"Long time no see. How have you been? I… forgot about you?"
“Yeah.. Actually, I think it’s because there was no way to contact him, so I think he was naturally forgotten.”
“I just met Jeonghan too.”
“Yeah, you two are close, right? As a group?”
"Yeah, that's right. Actually, I saw Jeonghan often, but maybe because I didn't see you, I missed you even more."
"... I see."


As we talked, I felt like I went back to my childhood. It wasn't a feeling of regret, but love. It felt like I still liked him. Then what if I couldn't remember? My heart ached and I felt like crying for no reason. As we talked, as if we were lost in memories, asking how each other was doing and talking about this and that, it became clear. I still like him. But even though he pretended to know me, I had no choice but to pretend not to. Since he was an idol, I couldn't ruin his career.

"You really liked Oppa, didn't you? You deliberately made Jeonghan jealous by being close to him. It was cute."
“Was it like that?”


He joked that he was upset and cried at home because he pretended not to remember or knew, but his words pierced my heart like a knife.

“Just kidding, would I cry over something like that? But do you really not remember?”
“Oh, I don’t remember.. haha”


It seems like only yesterday that I was crying and saying I wouldn't forget, but now I'm acting upset and saying I've changed. It hurts so much to hear someone I've missed say something like that. As we were talking, time flew by.


After we finished talking and exchanged numbers, we were parting ways when suddenly, tears welled up in my eyes. I thought I had forgotten about him, but when I saw his face, I felt like I had seen him a lot. A part of my heart that had been empty for a while welled up, and my tear ducts were stimulated. I turned around to swallow my tears so that he wouldn't show them.

"Jiyeon, I've missed you so much. Thinking about you has been so hard for me, but let's see each other more often from now on."

Wiping away tears, I cleared my throat and answered, "Okay." I couldn't bear to look back, so I just looked straight ahead and greeted him. On my way home, I ran into Jeonghan.

“You, are you crying?”
“...I thought you forgot about Minhyuk oppa?”
“...”
“But… why does my heart hurt so much..?”


I sat down and sobbed, tears streaming down my face as I held them back. I didn't have time to pay attention to my surroundings, just crying. Then Jeonghan picked me up and told me we should go home, and he took me with him.

Song - When Love Passes By (IU) Please listen and watch!!

Kill me. I'm a sinner. I apologize to those who have waited. From now on, I'll be back within a week at the latest. If I can't keep it, you can feel bad. I'll do my best. I love you.