💿 TXT - Sweet dreams
Before I knew it, the last page of the calendar, December, was before my eyes.
Whenever I look out the window at the snow-covered street, I always think of that winter, when my heart was always warm.
A few years ago, on Christmas Eve that year.
As long as I held your hand, I had nothing to fear.
“It’s snowing quite a bit, isn’t it?”
“ .. Really.”
“Why? Are you feeling unwell?”
“.. haha no? It’s good.”
“Then that’s good, I really love you!”
“Suddenly? Haha I love you too.”
He was truly affectionate. He was so incredibly kind that I even asked him why he was so damn kind. But he always responded with a bright smile.
Around December last year, he started to suffer from an illness.
When he first told me the news, my heart ached like my world was falling apart. Such a kind and beautiful child, how could such a thing have happened?
Looking at his drastically thinner body, I resolved to stay by his side until the very end.
“Beomgyu, how are you feeling?”
" .. it hurts. "
“Oh.. Huh? It’s snowing outside!”
"..this will be my last snow."
"..don't say that."
At that time, I really wanted to cry, but I couldn't.
I knew he was suffering from even greater guilt and depression than I was, so I couldn't cry even if I wanted to.
He slowly lowered his head, and soon clear tears flowed down his cheeks.
“..I’m sorry, Hyewon.”
"What are you sorry about, huh?"
” … “
"Ugh... You have it harder than me, don't say things like that."
“.. Okay, I won’t do that.”
Perhaps driven by a deep sense of guilt, he broke up with me shortly afterward and left me. I wanted to hold on to him, but I couldn't, so I cried every day for a while, looking at photos I took of him.
While I was immersed in sadness, the new year came without fail.
Despite the advice of those around me, I didn't find a new lover, and I still held him in a corner of my heart.
“..Hong Hye-won, I know it’s hard for you, but cheer up now.”
“..How can I do that, leaving him alone.”
“Ha.. yeah. Of course he had his own circumstances too...”
But reality wouldn't let me. Well, I had to eat and live. And as I was being dragged through this harsh life, I suffered a serious accident.
On the day I was hit by a large truck while working late at my part-time job, I lost consciousness and was taken to the hospital.
After a few hours, I opened my eyes and found myself in a bed in my room.
“What the... why am I here? Didn’t I almost die?”
I barely managed to straighten up and turn on my phone to check the time. The date that caught my eye was shocking.
“.. December 24, 2020?”
This is so ridiculous. I'm back to a year ago?
By the way, if I think about it, 2020 was right before Beomgyu got sick.I called him right away.
" hello? "
“Hey, heroine! What’s going on this morning?”
When I heard his voice through the phone, I was speechless and tears started to flow.
“Beomgyu, how are you feeling?”
“.. Wait a minute, are you crying?”
“.. no lol”
“Um... Okay. By the way, what do you want to do for Christmas?”
He spoke slowly and excitedly about his plans. It had been so long since I'd seen him, and I missed him so much. And now, it was time to do something for him.
The Christmas I spent with him, everything was perfect.
"Hyewon."
" huh? "
"Let's continue to meet like this and be together until the end."
" .. of course. "
It was such a happy thing to hear, but knowing the circumstances, my heart ached too much to just laugh.
Time passed quickly, as it should have, and the new year came.
That moment, which came without fail, marked the beginning of his battle with illness.
Knowing the future, I wanted to tell him something right now. As he calmly relayed the story he'd heard at the hospital, I spoke first, my voice trembling.
“..Beomgyu.”
" huh. "
“Are you really upset? It’s so sudden.”
".. Yeah, it's complicated after all."
"I really have something to say. Can you listen?"
"Yeah, what is it?"
"If by any chance you choose to break up for me, don't be too heartbroken."
" .. No, I'm you.. "
To reassure him, who was answering with a trembling voice, I smiled first. I didn't want to burden him.
“Even if we grow apart, I will never forget you, so always be happy. Got it?”
“Of course, I can never forget you. You are half of my life.”
".. I'm sorry, and I love you."
As soon as I finished speaking, I heard sobbing on the other end of the line. I figured it would be rude to show him any more breakdown, and he'd be even more distressed, so I hung up.
And then, on the day he returned and told me he wanted to break up with me, I returned to the present.
“..Hyewon! Are you awake?”
" .. uh. "
“Thank goodness.. you’ve been lying here for a week.”
The moment I saw the hospital ceiling and my friend's face at the same time, tears flowed again. Was I back again? Was this really the end?
“.. are you crying?”
“No.. it’s nothing.”
A few days later, I returned to work at the store for the first time in a long while. I'd experienced so much in a week, yet this place hadn't changed.
“Hyewon! Are you okay now?”
"Oh, boss...! Yes, that's fortunate."
“Oh my… You’ve worked hard, but I have something to tell you!”
" yes? "
“You always said you were bored working alone, so here comes another person.”
“.. Really?”
“Hey, hey… it’s in the kitchen over there! Go there.”
“.. Hello, over there!”
“Hello...”
“ … ”
“..Hyewon?”
I met him again after a year, the one I had been looking for so long.
Is this what they call fate, when you see something like this, without any special place or method?When I saw his face, tears welled up in my eyes.
“It’s been a really long time.. sob.. “
" .. don't cry. "
When he ran to me and hugged me, I thought I lost my breath.
I couldn't even remember how long his arms were.
“Hyewon… I’m sorry… I did everything…”
The person who once gave me the hardest time apologized.
His apology, spoken with tears in his eyes, was sincere.
".. Okay, we met again."
"..yes, thank you."
"You keep that promise, let's stay together for the rest of our lives."
“Of course.. I love you.”
Merry Christmas _ End 🧸🎄
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Hello! I am the author ෆ⸒⸒⸜( ˶’ᵕ‘˶)⸝
First of all, it's finally Christmas.. Merry Christmas to everyone!!
This year has already passed by... I feel like time has gone by especially quickly this year lol
First of all, let's talk about the writing. Since there is a time travel, it was quite difficult to write it in a consistent manner. So, even if there are some parts that don't match, I hope you enjoy it!
Looking at it like this, it seems too short... I feel sorry for raising your expectations too high...
Still!! I hope you read the article I prepared especially and it warms your heart ❤️🔥
There's not much time left in the year, so have a good end of the year!
I hope you are always happy 😉
Thank you always, readers! Merry Christmas 🎄