Since I drifted apart from Minho,
even when I was somehow doing fine, I’d think of Minho
or rather, I’d strangely feel that empty space
My friend, who used to stick together with me like family,
must have been gone from my side, because
no matter how much fun I had with other friends,
than the time I spent with that kid,
it always felt more boring
Even today, it was a fairly boring day for me
After finishing my assignment, I opened the snack cabinet,
but when it was completely empty inside, I headed to the convenience store
And to think I’d run into Minho looking like this
I was a little flustered, but I hid it and said hello first
The answer I got back was pretty rough and dry
Was Minho flustered too?
After we exchanged a brief greeting, I was busy paying,
so I couldn’t see what expression was on that face
After I finished paying and came out,
Minho’s car was parked right there in front
I gave a small laugh and put a cigarette in my mouth in front of it
With a ding, the convenience store door opened and closed,
and at the same time, Minho came out holding a pudding
Minho seemed flustered and hesitated for a moment
“Do you really have to smoke here?”
”Yeah“
I hung my head and let out a sigh
Minho, who I thought might grab me,
instead got into the car firmly
I parked in front of the house and even turned off the engine,
but I couldn’t get out for a long time
Taehee’s unreadable face
kept bothering me
I already knew they were a fickle kid,
but did they really have to be so fickle even in a situation like this?
The face that had been shouting at me to get out,
and the face that had just smiled at me, overlapped in my mind
As soon as I got home, I took a cold shower
I took the pudding I’d left in the fridgeand headed to the table
I shook my wet hair dryand took a bite of the pudding
Every time I chewed, the pudding crushed softly between my teeth
and slowly spread its sweetness
I guess when you’re in a bad mood, you really do have to eat something you like
One bite, two bites
Each time I pushed more pudding into my mouth,
my unpleasant feelings faded a little more
The small pudding was already gone before I’d even had a few bites
Maybe I was hungrier than I thought
I sucked on the teaspoon in my hand, looking disappointed
Does he really not have feelings for me?
Did he start hating me?
Even if I felt good for a moment, the second I thought of Taehee,
my thoughts went into overdrive
Once they started, they showed no sign of stopping
It felt like
a mind map was drawing itself in my head
I kept turning my phone on and off for no reason
I was going crazy
Even though there wasn’t any contact at all,
I couldn’t leave the chat window
where Taehee and I had last talked
I didn’t know the face I’d only just seen for a moment
could look that pretty
If only they weren’t pretty at all
then I wouldn’t even have had to suffer over it
