You don't remember me, do you?
It's okay though. No, it wasn't okay.
It's been a part of my life for years
The thought of me being erased by you was something I didn't even want to imagine.
It was more hellish than I thought, and it was a painful day.
[Her story]
I've been away from you since you were in the car accident.
The moment I saw you with my own eyes, hit by such a bad car on your way to see me, I thought you would wake up from your coma and I wouldn't be able to look at you anymore. Then you opened your eyes.
The first thing that came out of your mouth the moment you looked at me was, "Who is that?" Do you remember? Hearing those words, it hurt so much, but it was a relief. Because I thought, after hurting you so much that you lost your memories, maybe it would have been better for me to disappear from your life.
So we each spent two years in different places.
So I never imagined I'd see you, especially at university.
I still don't know why, among all the departments in all the universities, I'm facing you.
The day I first met you, I couldn't do anything. I cried even though I didn't do anything.
My heart was beating fast, and even though I told myself not to, my eyes kept following you.
One day, when I was sitting next to you for two hours because I ended up in the same club as you, my hands were shaking so much? To the point where my friend next to me asked what was going on.
But, sadly, it seemed like you already liked someone else, no, my friend. That friend in the student council. When I heard that you applied for the student council, I wanted to apply, but I felt like I couldn't face you yet, so I put down my pen and resented it for a long time. I think you really like that kid. Because all the expressions and smiles you always gave me were directed at that kid.
I went home that day and cried all day. I couldn't help it. I couldn't erase you for two years, and the memories of the days we spent together were still in my head, and I loved you. It's funny. If I was going to regret this much, I should have visited you every day while you were in the hospital, asked for your forgiveness, apologized, and built new memories. Why did I run away when it was so hard? I regretted it so much.
What was I so angry about? After crying for a few days, I felt a little better and thought that I had forgotten you. I thought that this was enough of a punishment. After suffering alone for two years, wasn't it time to be okay? I thought that it was time to stop liking you.
So I started dating a school senior who liked me. It was definitely great at first, you know. It was so exciting because it had been so long since someone liked me. Yeah, I shouldn't have. Wherever we went, I saw you, and whatever we did, I thought of you. You're probably smiling at that girl right now. Of course, right. That's why my dawns were always cold, lonely, and always ended in tears.
Then one day, I heard that you and that kid had broken up. It was so complicated. Before I could even think that it was a relief, I was really worried about whether you would be okay. You tend to get hurt easily because you like someone too much, and I know that, so how could I not be worried?
Around that time, when all these complicated emotions were mixed together, you and I happened to be preparing for a club event together. So I thought to myself, no matter what happens, I'm going to talk to you today, and no matter what happens, I'm going to tell you.
At first, it was so awkward that I couldn't do anything and I couldn't even approach you because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to hide my feelings, but thankfully, you and I gradually became closer, and by the time the event was over, we were able to joke around a lot. I was very satisfied with that.
Then that kid was handing out drinks to people. She was such a pretty girl. Maybe that's why I just looked so ugly. Yeah, the way you looked at that kid back then was so bitter. You looked more hurt than I had worried, and it seemed like you were trying so hard to act okay. Your expression says it all, so I can tell just by looking at your face. You know that too. It was the last after-party after the event. I couldn't take it anymore. I was tired of looking at you alone, of feeling sad by myself, and of you constantly talking about that kid to me.
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