Today was a day when the unusually heavy rain seemed strangely sad.Ring ring ...After receiving a call, I grabbed a large black umbrella and headed out to my house. I began to walk quietly through the rain, amidst a contradictory atmosphere of sadness and beauty. I'm still a little afraid to get rained on alone.
"Rain... It'll stop soon."
"Yoo Yeo-ju, here."
I headed towards the convenience store as if entranced by the low-pitched voice calling my name. And there stood my ex-boyfriend, Kim Taehyung. I was so surprised that I quickly covered my mouth and was about to head home when Kim Taehyung grabbed my wrist tightly.
" ..... wait. "
"Why? I have no reason to wait, and you won't come back even if I cling to you."
"I came to tell you, to draw you, that I'm sorry, that I loved you so much."
"Ha... Let's talk at home first. I don't want to fight outside in the rain."
So I brought my ex-boyfriend back to my place where I was living alone. I should've just ended it there. I was overcome with regret. To put it simply, the reason I broke up with Kim Taehyung was no different from other common couples. Boredom, that was the reason.
It was Kim Taehyung who first started the affair. After work, I was walking down the street, contacting him. At first, I thought it was a dream. The man in front of me, and the woman next to me. They were my boyfriend and my best friend. Why... why, of all people, were they in front of me? I couldn't believe it.
I called Kim Taehyung. Soon, the man in front of me also picked up the phone, his voice ringing. And the words he spoke casually, as if he were talking to me: "How are you?", "I miss you?", "I love you," were repulsive.
How could someone be so shameless? My teeth were chattering, and I wanted to end it all. Even in my third year of high school, the temperature of the Han River, something I hadn't even considered, came to mind.What is the temperature of the Han River today?I thought it was just a useless thought, but tears began to well up in my eyes.
Thump_Tears fell from my eyes, one drop at a time. It felt like the whole world had stopped. I wished it would just stop. I closed my eyes and ignored Kim Taehyung's voice on the phone, running home without thinking. I kept walking and running as fast as my feet could carry me, and before I knew it, I was home.
..... and then I tried to ignore all the contacts and sent three messages and blocked them.Sorry, we have to break up.It was just three words. I sent that text and lived each day like a wreck. I loved you so much, but the feeling of betrayal made the tear ducts I thought had dried up start to flow again.
That's how we ended up parting ways. I was so upset, and every day was difficult. But seeing Kim Taehyung after so long, his face looked so happy, it was hard to endure any longer. The response to my first words, which I struggled to utter, made me want to just leave this house.
"So... what do you want to say?"
".....Can we date again..?"
okay, I expected it all. It was such a predictable development. It was my fault for expecting it... You want to date again? Why, wasn't it you who cheated? There's a limit to how shameless a person can be...
" .... I hate it. Do you think I'm wasting my time talking about useless things like this? "
"Ha... Okay, let's finish it then."
"We were already done. Don't act like this, it's disgusting."
Kim Taehyung was truly ugly until the very end. He maintained his pride until the very end. If he'd cheated, shouldn't he at least beg for forgiveness? Finally, he took out the beer that had been sitting in the fridge for a long time. He ordered chicken and took out a can of beer and chugged it down.
" .... It's been a while since I've had a drink."
The alcohol tasted sweet. Even though it wasn't sweet when I quit my job, it tasted sweet. A lot. One can, two cans. I was on my third when the phone rang again. I wanted to ignore it, but I didn't want to let go of any remaining relationships, so I answered.
"Hello? Are you here?"
It's Mom. My mom, the mom I miss the most.
"Yes, Mom, Mom's daughter, Yoo Yeo-ju."
"Daughter, what are you doing... how are you doing these days?"
"Uh... Mom, how's your health? Is it better?"
My mother... was very ill. Ever since I was little, she'd work hard or easy, whatever it took to make money. After my parents divorced, she raised me alone. No matter how hard it was to earn money, we always sat together for dinner, laughing and sharing a meal. One day, after those happy days, my mother suddenly collapsed.
The hospital said my mom had anemia, but since she had been living with a number of other illnesses, they said she'd have to be hospitalized for a while. Even though she was sick, she was always thinking about me. She'd nagged me with questions like, "Have you eaten?" and "How are you?" But I was still happy. Talking to her like this made me so happy.
"Mom... You know, I miss you so much?"
"Mom misses our daughter a lot too... I'm so sorry that Mom is sick, Yeoju."
"Ugh... Why are you sorry, Mom? Don't worry about me, I'm... getting some rest."
"Okay, lady, I love you."
It was warm. My mom told melove you A. It was so warm... I wanted to see more. I looked outside and saw that the rain had gradually stopped and the weather was getting better. The cold rain turned into warm tears and flowed down.
Today's rain shower was probably just a passing shower.