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You have always been a child who laughs a lot.
"I knew I was wrong."
You were the kid who smiled when you were happy, when you lost interest, when you were embarrassed, and when you were sad, knowing it was okay. Maybe that's why I hated you because you were stupid. No, I don't mean I hated you, but I hated that aspect of you.
Thinking everything lightly.
I hated the way you took things lightly.
"You're not wearing a tie today?"
"...Huh?! What should I do? I heard the lead is tough today. Why am I forgetting this again…?"
"fool."
“…Hey, you don’t have to give it to me. What are you going to do?”
"Well, I guess I'll just get scolded a little."
“…Thank you, Jungkook. You’re really so kind!”
You always put the people around you first, and you were always behind them. You took care of them without hesitation, gave them everything you had, and smiled. That's why I hated it.So what you're left with is the friends who flocked to you.
I wanted to ask if you really got anything out of it, but
It was not easy to say it out loud.
"Yeoju- You have homework, right? Can you help me?"
"...No? ....It's okay."
"Isn't it due tomorrow? If we do it together, it'll be better if we can finish it faster."
“…Okay. I can do it myself, why bother?”
So, there was only one person who refused your kindness: me. And there was only one person who didn't laugh along every time you smiled: me.
And yet, despite all that, you were unusually close to me. You smiled at me more, cared for me more, and whatever it was, you gave me twice or three times more than you gave to others.
So. Just, just to sum it up in conclusion.
You liked me, and I didn't like you.
…
We were what you'd call childhood friends for ten years. I don't remember exactly when we were six or seven, in kindergarten, but we just knew each other from then on. Nothing more, nothing less, just friends. That's what I thought.
We were so used to being together every day that we went to school together, ate together, and went home together. Before I knew it, your house had become my house, and my house had become your house.
You always came to our house for breakfast, and our family parties were always grand at your house.
I just thought that the reason we did that was because we were true 'friends'.
But, if it weren't for that, he would have.
'This is really a secret.'
'It's a secret, so why are you telling me?'
'You keep your mouth shut.'
'...That's true, but what is it? A secret.'
'....I have someone I like.'
One day, you told me you had a crush on someone. In all my years together, I'd never heard a word of love, but this was the first time you'd revealed it: unrequited love.
Who? Who is it?It's only natural for anyone to wonder who their friend's crush is. I was one of those people, so the first thing I asked was, "Who is your crush?"
But you must have been very embarrassed,Or maybe he just doesn't want to tell me that, so he doesn't answer my question.
'You'll tell me sometime, right?'
'.......Coach, coach, you're not asking.'
'I don't have the heart to go that far either~'
'.....he'
But. Maybe that's why you avoided answering.
It's not that I'm too embarrassed, nor that I don't want to reveal much.
"What do you think of me?"
If the person who tickled your heart was me,
…
"huh?"
"What do you think of me?"
"....fool."
"what?"
"You idiot. You idiot who laughs at everyone. Jeon Jungkook is a real idiot."
"lol"
"You really...."
Not that kind of thing.Jeon Jungkook shook his head, laughing, as if that wasn't the answer he was looking for. "Isn't this it? I was being serious. I meant, 'You smile at everyone, so people think you're a fool.'" That wasn't what it meant.
"Well, what kind of answer do you want?"
"doesn't exist."
"......"
"As long as we're not comfortable friends, that's fine."
"...Huh."
That day, I said a word to you with a dumbfounded look and without a care.
"We're just comfortable friends, so what?"
Because of those words, Jeon Jungkook's bright expression disappears for a moment.
His expression instantly hardened, and I raised my eyebrows in confusion, signaling him to ask why he was acting that way. But perhaps telepathy didn't work, or maybe it did and you ignored it. You sat on the floor, looking up at me, and then tilted your head to the side. Then, placing your hands on your hips, you stood up.
"Okay."
So now I look up to you.
"What do I expect from you?"
"What? What do you want from me?"
"No, peanut."
You briefly stroked the back of my head with your large palm and then left the room.What the heck, why is he like that?I felt a strange sensation, and just fiddled with my poor crown. What do you expect? If you're going to talk about something, you should talk about it in a way that people will understand. What are you trying to say?
What the hell is the point?
At that time, I was really clueless.
…
After that, we got along just fine. Like before, like usual. As if nothing had happened. Actually, nothing really happened, but I felt compelled to explain it this way. But if I had to pick one thing that was different, it would probably be Jeon Jungkook, you.
You haven't smiled at people much since that day.
Even for me, I wondered if I was going through puberty. Well, guys usually hit puberty around eighteen, and since we were exactly eighteen, I didn't think much of it.
But even I, who hated seeing you smile, wished you'd return to your old self when I saw your stiff expression. Well, I guess you'll smile again someday. I wasn't too worried. Puberty will pass anyway, and your silly smile will return.
"Hey, Jeon Jungkook."
But unfortunately,
Your adolescence never seemed to go away.
"You're here? You're late again. Even though I told you a few days ago to be on time."
That day was the day I called Jeon Jungkook to the cafe in front of my house.
"hey."
"You're always like this. I'm the only one waiting for you."
"hey!!!"
"what."
"...You, you....."
"Why did you take down all your posts? Why did you take down all the pictures you took with me?"
".....That's all you called me here for? You could have just texted me."
"You said you'd never get off. You said you'd keep the memories until we broke up."
"Yeah, that's right."
"But why can't I see your posts on my phone right now? What does this mean?"
"Well, what does that mean?"
"Are you serious about fighting right now?"
"My lady."
"........."
"Don't be angry, I find it hard to see you angry."
"No, who wouldn't be surprised if their friend said they were going to break up with them?"
"We're not breaking up."
"Then why did you get off?"
"Because I like you."
"Oh, because you like me, .....what?"
And the words Jeon Jungkook said that day were extremely unrealistic.
"I like you."
"Are you crazy?"
"It's true."
"........"
"Too much. I like you too much."
"......"
"That's why I took it down. We're just friends, but I hate seeing all these selfies of us face to face."
“………”
“Every time I get close to you, I feel like I’m going to die, but you don’t care.”
"........"
"The pictures I took like that are all over here, and I really hated that."
".....hey."
"We're friends."
"......."
"You can't like friends."
"......."
"But, I like you."
"....."
"Sorry."
“…..I don’t think I can be friends with you.”
That day, I saw you crying for the first time.
And, that day,
For the first time, I felt a strange feeling.
"Don't be surprised and listen."
A new feeling.
"It feels so weird to say this,"
Maybe, Jeon Jungkook won't cry anymore,
".....I think I like you too."
That's the feeling.
The End.
