memory
W. Wish List
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" ... Gyuya."
"Beomgyu."
" uh? "
"Beomgyu, can you hear my voice?"
"It's me, Kim Haengbok."
"Oh, happiness."
I can hear it clearly. The child's three letters of his name. Kim Haengbok. Oh, if I wake up again, I won't forget it. What should I do?
"You always forget my name."
" sorry. "
You smiled playfully and gestured for me to come over. I smiled back at you. You are the prettiest when you smile. I'm afraid that I'll forget you again, how pretty you are. But I want to enjoy this situation too much to be afraid.
"Can I come closer?"
"Of course. Why not? Come quickly."
"Wait there."
I ran lightly to where you were. The wind tickled the tip of my nose. I was happy. Is this why your name is happiness? You gave me happiness. Your very existence was happiness to me. Cherry blossom petals fluttered, and your hair swayed in the wind. In my vision, you grew larger and closer. Finally, I was right next to you. The distance between us was less than twenty centimeters.
"Beomgyu, I missed you."
" me too. "
We smiled at each other. Today, I'm going to tell you I like you. I liked you from the moment I saw you. You're my greatest joy. I don't think I'd ever be happy without you.
"Happiness, you know."
" huh? "
You heeded my words. I reached out to take your hand, which was gently resting on your leg. At that moment, I woke up from my dream. I lost you again.
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I had a dream. That kid appears every day these days. Who is it? Who could it be that's been tormenting me for a month? What was its name? I can't remember. I took out a notebook and opened it, trying to write down my memories. I picked up an old pencil and began to organize my thoughts about that kid.
· Girl.
· Cherry blossom tree.
· name :
"What was your name..."
"Kim... Kim... Kim what was it... Kim..."
I don't remember. Oh, my head hurts. Why? Why did it have to appear to me? It was miserable. If I found out, I could do something. For now, I closed the notebook because my head felt like it was going to explode if I continued.
"You were so pretty."
"Ah... I don't know."
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"Beomgyu."
A girl standing under a cherry blossom tree spoke to me.
"You... who were you?"
"That's too much. Don't you recognize me? Kim Haengbok. It's happiness."
"Oh...! That's right. Happiness. Sorry."
" it's okay. "
"Oh, sorry... Please just look at it this once. Okay?"
"F-Fine. Come quickly."
I run to you again. And this time I say:
"Happiness, I like you."
"I've liked you ever since I first saw you."
You are my happiness. Will you meet me?
I reached out to grab your hand. And then I woke up from this nightmare.
***
When I woke up, the sun was high in the sky. I stretched and went to my desk to get my phone, where I found a notebook I'd never seen before. I opened it and—
"What is this? A girl? A cherry blossom tree?"
It was full of strange words. I don't remember writing anything like this. What is this? My handwriting is correct. Did my brother write it? Did I write it in my sleep? What the heck.
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And then I have this never-ending nightmare.
"Beomgyu."
" who are you? "