Regretful Kim Seok-jin
BGM - Rain (BTS)
Even if this rain stops and those clouds clear
Just standing there like this
Look down at the world without saying a word
There, an ugly me is looking at me
Yeoju's point of view
We've been dating for two years, maintaining a true relationship of superior and inferior.
Of course, of course, I am
“Seokjin, you don’t like this? Should I buy you some other snacks?”
"····No, heroine, I like this."
"Oh, thank goodness! I was worried that you might not like it~"
"Haha, are you worried because of me? Kim Yeo-ju is so touching."
"....····Hey, lady, I need to go to the bathroom."
I heard somewhere that the person you like more is B. At first, I thought that the two would gradually become more similar and love each other, and that there would be no such thing as a superior-subordinate relationship in love.
But I'm still in that relationship. It's like a seesaw game, where if I let go, it's over.
Seokjin's eyes were always full of thoughts. Of course, I didn't seem to be in them.
If I had to pick the good and bad things in my life, I would say that confessing to Seokjin was a good thing, but I also think that dating Seokjin was something I regret.
But sometimes, when Seokjin's eyes looked at me, I thought to myself many times that it was a really good thing.
"Yeah, just a moment..."
"I'm sorry, my parents are here."
"Oh, okay... I guess I can't help it. Bye."
Seokjin left Yeoju's house, saying that his parents had come to see him.
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I heard a vibration from somewhere, and then my phone vibrated. It was a KakaoTalk message from a friend.
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Hey, is Kim Seokjin with a girl?
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Seokjin went to see his mother
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No, I said she's a young woman.
(Photo attached)
My hands were shaking. I thought she wouldn't cheat on me even if she didn't like me... The female protagonist left the house in a hurry.
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My arms were shaking. Seokjin was with another woman, and he was smiling. Even so, the wind was blowing, and tears fell without me realizing it.
"···Huh? Yeoju?"
"Lady, just a moment."
"S, Seokjin, I, you..."
"I'm sorry, but I don't really like you."
"No, I just dated you because you asked me to."
"···You saw me laughing with this woman."
"What? Seok, Jinah, can I talk to you for a moment..."
"What are we talking about? Aren't we done?"
Two years into our relationship, my boyfriend says he didn't like me. No, he still doesn't like me.
We broke up. No, actually, it was almost like we broke up alone, but I still cried all day. I was so dehydrated that I couldn't even go to college or work.
I cried alone at home. It was the first time I'd cried like this... The scent of Seokjin lingering in the house was eating away at me. I felt like I was going to collapse.
I thought, I will never love again, I would rather die than love.
Author's point of view
Seokjin and Yeoju were in the same class. However, Seokjin felt a strange pang in his heart when he saw Yeoju, who had broken up with him, not showing up to class.
"ha...."
Seokjin clutched his head. Why on earth am I still so attached to him even after I kicked him out?
The female protagonist's smiling face flashed through Seokjin's mind. A warm face that seemed to say, "I still love you."
Next, the female lead sheds tears when they break up.
"iced coffee,,,,"
Seokjin rubbed his eyes. "You said we should break up, so why are you still holding on after five days? It's annoying."
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Seokjin finally visited Yeoju's house 10 days later.
I regretted it. I cried because I remembered the woman who would always take me out for drinks with friends after class. I also cried because I remembered the woman who would always wait for me after buying me coffee at the cafe in front of my house.
"Why did I... y, lord..."
Seokjin went to Yeoju's house because he thought he had to apologize right away.
"Who... um... who are you?"
The female protagonist opened the door. Seokjin couldn't help but shed tears at the sight of her face, which seemed even more gaunt than his own.
"Lady, I guess I can't live without you..."
"I, I regretted it so much, really..."
Seokjin finally sank to his knees. If only he could go back in time, he would have done better for Yeoju. What did I say that made you go that far?
"I, I can't live without you, you..."
Seokjin finally sank to his knees. If only he could go back in time, he would have done better for Yeoju. What did I say that made you go that far?
"I don't have feelings for you anymore."
Seokjin finally broke down. He abandoned his precious female lead for his own gain.
"ah,....."
"I hate you, go away!!"
Seokjin got up in a hurry and started running until the female protagonist was out of sight, as she was screaming and cursing.
After that day, a lot changed for Seokjin. First, he woke up early in the morning and wrote letters. Saying things like, "I'm sorry," or "I love you." Naturally, he left them at Yeoju's mailbox. Thinking of Yeoju, who frequently checked her mailbox, he continued to drop letters in it.
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Today, Seokjin wrote a letter and placed it in Yeoju's mailbox. At first, the letters had been piling up, but as they disappeared, Seokjin wrote even more diligently.
"....."
Seokjin saw the heroine before his eyes. Crying, she ran to Seokjin and hugged him tightly.
"Seo, Seokjin..."
Seokjin wondered if this wasn't a dream. He thought he should pinch his cheek, but the voice of the female protagonist that followed made him shed tears.
"Love, tell me you love me... Me, me..."
Seokjin's eyes were filled with tears of relief, not joy or sadness. He was truly grateful, saying he would make sure she had a relationship without regrets this time.
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Eventually, the two reunited. Seokjin had changed dramatically since then.
"Hey, try this. It's delicious...?"
"Ugh... Mysser..."
The female protagonist woke up and ate the food Seokjin made, and Seokjin started cooking again with a bright face.
"Aren't you tired, Seokjin? Yeah..."
"Sit down, you're cute. Let's eat."
Since then, the two have gotten married
I heard there are two children.