Since that day, I've continued to receive care at this hospital. It seems like time passes by about 30 minutes slower when I'm here.
As the days passed, my body became increasingly thinner. I lost weight and lost strength.
I was starting to feel like I was getting closer to death. I couldn't look in the mirror. I hated what I saw in the mirror.
“..I lost weight again”
"In the past, his nickname was Jjang-gu, but this is the first time I've seen a face without chubby cheeks."
"..God stopped by briefly during the day"
"Oh, did you come and go while I was sleeping?"
“You are the first human being whom God has so dearly loved.”
“ ..is that so”
" yes? "
"We already love each other so much that that's why"
” … “
"The speed was surprisingly fast, of course"
” … “
"I hope it cools down just as fast, I"
It wasn't sincere, no, it was too sincere. It was the sincerity my mind wanted. I hoped I'd soon forget about myself and live again, smiling and happy, loving someone again.
But sadly, my heart was not like that.
Please remember me a little longer, and don't feel love for anyone else but me.
I only wanted you to love me for the rest of your life.
Even though I knew it was a selfish feeling, my heart still longed for his love and wanted to monopolize it.
at that time,
Knock knock,
"Hey, heroine! I'm here."
“You said you were here before, but you’re here again?”
"You're the kind of person I miss even when I'm looking at you. Do you know how much I miss you when I'm not looking at you?"
" Haha.. Really "
“I’m going to go now. If you need anything, call me.”
"Yes, thank you."
"Oh, have you eaten?"
“I just woke up and I’m going to eat later.”
“.. It seems to be getting drier as time goes by.”
“It’s my fault, it’s my fault.”
“You seem to be feeling down lately. Is something wrong?”
“.. I’m really okay. Hehe”
Actually, it wasn't all that bad. Every night, the food I ate would come back up and keep me awake. Strangely, nothing would digest, and I felt like I was stuck in the middle of my stomach.
Maybe this is why I'm getting thinner and thinner. And I have the same dream every night.
It was a dream that death was the fate that befell me, a dream that I was leaving that person without even being able to say my final goodbyes.
It was a nightmare-like and sad dream that I had every day.
“This is a gift, you liked flowers.”
“Dandelion?”
"I'm so busy, but I went to the human world and bought it myself~ Good job, right?"
"It's pretty... really"
"I hope this makes you feel a little better."
"I'm already feeling better. Thank you so much."
There were a bunch of yellow dandelions. I hadn't noticed how pretty they were when I saw them on the street, but seeing them here, they looked completely different.
"But what is the flower language of dandelions?"
"Oh, I heard that earlier..."
” ..? “
"I give you my love"
” … “
“It touched my heart the moment I heard it.”
“ … ”
“Because that’s what I always do.”
“ … ”
“I told you I would give it to you only in this life.”
" .. that "
“You know I can hear your true feelings, right?”
“ … ”
“Just because I don’t have an heir doesn’t mean I’ll marry someone else again.”
“ … ”
“So in this life, you have my heart.”
“..Mr. Choi Yeonjun”
The most popular meaning of the dandelion was "single-mindedness." It was a word that suited Choi Yeon-jun perfectly.
I was actually very worried. Without a successor, I might be the type of person who could be kicked out at any moment, and it was clear that it would be a huge problem for Choi Yeonjun as well.
Naturally, I assumed that I would end up marrying someone else, and I also thought that I should naturally accept that.
But thanks to Choi Yeonjun, who spoke like that, I felt a brief moment of relief. Even this feeling might be selfish, but it was genuinely good.
I feel like this person could truly love me for the rest of my life.
Like a dandelion
“You are the kind of person who can do that.”
“Why...”
“Because you are the person I cherish and love the most in this world.”
“ … ”
“I never knew I would love humans this much.”
“ … ”
at that time,
Knock knock,
“Yeah, I didn’t know you would love humans that much either.”
" who..? "
“You don’t remember? Did you erase your memories of that day?”
“I am the type of person who exists in various forms.”
" ..? ah "
When I saw him back then, he was definitely a woman, but today he's a man. Is this what he looks like...? But he's kind of handsome, isn't he?
"Haha, I'm kind of handsome, huh?"
".. I'm really upset if I do this"
“Oh..no, that’s not it..!”
“My name is ‘Huening Kai’. Please call me Huening.”
“Ah.. yes”
“By the way, you’re getting weaker and weaker, both physically and mentally.”
“ … ”
“If you had cut it with the scissors I gave you back then, this wouldn’t have happened.”
"This is real..!"
"I'm fine. That's not wrong."
" but.. "
“I have no regrets about my choice.”
Those words were sincere. I truly have no regrets about my choice to love until the end. Though I was only worried about the future.
“What is that flower? A dandelion?”
"I gave it to you, what?"
“You really… have less sense than I thought.”
" what? "
"What the hell does he like about this guy? I'm really curious."
" haha.. "
“So why on earth did you come here?”
"Am I being a little merciful again? I came here because I thought of a way to save your young lady."
“Huh.. Really?”
"Is that real?! "
It was a glimmer of hope. Like the dandelion Choi Yeonjun gave me today.