[Seppes] Short Story Collection

[Non-Pass] I can't see the end

01.


I can't see the end.

Can I hold out?

He smiled as if nothing had happened, saying he could endure it.

But honestly, my answer to that question is 'No.' It's a bit too much. I can't stand it.

The secrets I've been keeping to myself. It hurts me that no one will listen. This reality makes me cry.

When I opened my eyes in bed, I stood at the sink, not knowing if it was day or night, trying to wash away the haziness. But why was it still the same?

When I look in the mirror, I see a mess: my skin is damaged by the makeup that covered it, my eyes are unfocused as if they have lost their purpose, and the dark circles under them are getting deeper and deeper.




02.


I can't see the end.

I've been running nonstop since the starting line, so why on earth?

Where did my old self go? What am I chasing every day? I keep running, forgetting my purpose.

I pray every day that the words “it’s okay” will not turn into lies.

After wiping away all the tears that were flowing out, I thought of my family again and started running again, dreaming of my goal.

Leave me alone.


Actually, it's so painful.

When I finish my schedule and lie down on the bed, the expectations of my friends and family crowd around me and strangle my neck.

That alone keeps me up at night.

I've forgotten how to confront anything. I've developed a habit of avoiding even the smallest things.

The obvious, obvious words of encouragement.

It's not like it used to be. Why do I feel so desperate?

 
Maybe at the far end there is what I want.

Getting what you want is a thousand times harder than shallow determination.

Even so, I can't be impatient anymore.

If you get lost again, just find me.




03.


I feel like I'm floating in space. I don't know where to go.

The distant stars guide me.

I feel like I can be the light.





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Seventeen - I Can't See The End

_I suddenly wanted to write lyrics because I couldn't see the end, so I wrote this. You could almost think of this as just lyrics.

_It's been almost a month since I've been back. I've not been terribly busy lately, but I just haven't been able to write. But looking at it now, I feel like I've been neglecting it too much, so I thought I'd write a short lyric.