On the day when cherry blossoms fell like rain, I parted ways with you, the most precious person in the world. As we said goodbye, you were still beautiful to me. Your small, trembling mouth, your red, tearful eyes, even your beautiful voice—everything about you, Lee Ji-hoon, was perfect to me. Even the sight of cherry blossoms fluttering behind you...
It was so beautiful and perfect to me.
"Soonyoung...I'm sorry."
"....."
"Ugh...I'm so selfish...ugh...I'm sorry."
"Jihoon, I'm crying, but I'm okay."
Seeing you crying while breaking up with me, I tried to swallow back my tears and stroked your hair. In my own way, it was a consolation telling you not to cry. It's okay, Jihoon, when everyone in the world said nothing lasts forever and there's always an end, it was my fault for trying so hard to deny it. I knew this was the end for us too, but I tried so hard to ignore it, so it's all my fault. So don't cry...
I hated you so much for breaking up with me, but when I saw your tears, I couldn't bring myself to hate you and resent you. That's right... It's better to blame me and resent me. This is the conclusion I've come to. Jihoon, I'll take all the pain you deserve, so don't be in pain anymore and don't cry anymore. It's harder for me to see you in pain and cry than to be in pain myself. Now, forget about people like me and enjoy your life more and live happily. Jihoon...
And so I parted ways with you, who meant everything to me. You, who were like spring to me, left me like flowers falling like rain. You came to me at the beginning of last spring, and you left me as spring ended.
After that, I had many regrets. Should I have caught you then? If I had treated you better, it wouldn't have ended so meaninglessly.......
I came home and regretted it over and over again, but it was already irreversible, and no matter what I did, it was going to happen anyway. We were destined to break up no matter what. It was my fault for meeting you, who wasn't right for me and was so much more than I deserved. I spent the night in tears, lost in sorrow, but the next day came and I had to go to school.
Even as I packed my bag and went to school, I had to hold back the tears that threatened to burst out dozens of times at the thought of you. I went to school and did better than I thought. I chatted and played with my friends as usual, laughing. If you only looked at my appearance, I seemed fine. So I fooled myself and thought I was okay. No, actually... I wanted to believe that. But just like pretending to be okay doesn't make you okay, my heart was already a wreck. Even though I'm a wreck, even though I'm in so much pain, I can't stop thinking about you, which makes it even harder. I hate you for making me so sick and tired, but I miss you so much. And I wanted to hear those sweet words of love coming out of your mouth so badly. Now it seemed like your voice was ringing in my ears. The sound of you calling my name, your laughter, wouldn't leave my ears. I guess hating you is impossible for me after all.
Jihoon...
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Thank you for meeting me. Now, I'll let you go. And although it may be impossible, I'll try to forget you and live happily. Thank you for giving me such happy memories that nothing can compare to. I loved you, Jihoon...
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As I wrote this letter that I can't even give to you, tears fell without me realizing it. After I finish writing this letter, I will have to forget you. I am so scared of that. The memories with you were so happy, so I have to forget all of them and live on. It is so scary to have to walk alone on the thorny path that I once walked with someone. But since you are doing it, I will try too, Jihoon. Thank you, my love. Now I will really let you go.