7 years,
After a long relationship of 7 years
It seemed like it would never come,
Sometimes, it was embarrassing, and sometimes, it was exciting love,
A happy love that made many friends jealous,
Our happy times were described as a word we want to avoid, boredom.
Time is broken.
[ Yeoju City Point ]
Jungkook, do you know that?
I always wish to hear from you as usual,
I'm waiting with excitement, hoping that you'll come today.
Start your day.
" ... "
But.. even after an hour, after two hours, I still don't read it
There were times when I got tired because of you
"Oh.. I read it..!"
I just keep my phone on me so that the chat screen with you doesn't turn off.
I'm holding it, by the time you read my KakaoTalk
Lying in bed, blankly staring at your chat screen
Stop looking and raise your waist to get into a good posture.
Fix it?
But now when I see you not even reading and answering
Sometimes it scared me because I, who was always important to you, now seem like I am nothing to you, just someone who contacts you unnecessarily.
"Why is there no answer? What happened?"
Was I stupid or was I an idiot?
Even though I already know you've lost interest in me, you're still obsessed with me
My concern for you is growing stronger
"...it won't work"
In a heart where anxiety cannot be shaken off
I wore a cardigan over my thin pajamas,
When I opened the front door of my house and looked up
I sincerely hope that I was wrong
Did you hear it like a chimney?
Do you know why?
I don't know if you thought I was watching you, but you were flaunting it in front of my house wall with another woman.
I let go of my phone as you kissed me so earnestly
It just made a thump
" ...? "
You suddenly stopped kissing me at the sound and looked towards the sound. I made a bewildered expression and just wanted you to explain to me.
That's all I really wanted, Jungkook.
Are you trying to treat me like I don't exist or something?
Because of the great sorrow and hatred I feel for you, my sight is blocked.
Are you trying to pretend not to know my tears?
He ignored me when I was hurt and kissed me.
He put his hand on the woman's waist and leaned against the wall.
All I could feel was wanting to catch you as you slipped away
Jungkook,
I am..
I mean,
Your heart has already left me,
I already knew
I just want to ignore it,
I pretend not to know because I want to deny it
I did it
But when I saw you trample even that heart, I felt
ah,
Now you...
I guess I have to let it go
It was only when I saw you wanting to get away from me
I understand how you feel.
Not me, but you must have felt obsessed with the things I did and did to you.
I felt like everything was my fault.
First of all, you were the one who lost interest in me,
You were the one who was wrong first
I was like a fool, countless thoughts flashing through my head, and at the same time I was sad that I would never be able to see you again.
I cried sadly on the spot.
Tears continue to obscure my vision, to the point where my eyes turn red.
I wiped it roughly and hard and turned on the screen where I was chatting with you on KakaoTalk
I sent a message
"Ha, Jeong, Guk-ah.. I miss you Guk-ah."
But I want to be selfish just once
so,