"Let's break up"
"okay"
It's been five months since I said goodbye to that child.
I'm so stupid I can't forget that kid.
Why did we break up?
As in the conversation above, it was stiff
As you can see from the words of farewell
It didn't end well. The problem was the wind.
"You really didn't do anything wrong to me?"
"What if I did something wrong?"
"...you're really cool, I'm with you
Even this moment is disgusting"
"Then let's break up, let's break up."
"okay"
To be honest, I regret it a lot because it was impulsive.
I still have it. I'm still shedding tears as I miss you.
"...miss you"
I shouted a hundred times that I miss you. Like this
Even if you shout, the person who left won't show up,
I cried out loud, saying I missed you. Even so,
If I don't do it, I feel like I'm going to collapse
I feel like I'm going to lose my reason for living like this
Tititititi-
Tiring-
"...uh?"
My quiet studio apartment is filled with the sound of my crying.
At that moment, someone opened the door and came in.
"..."
That familiar yet unfamiliar silhouette was my ex-boyfriend, Huening Kai.
"...What, why are you here?"
"Did Seoyoon die because you didn't contact her?
"I came here to check if you were alive."
"...that's not the problem"
"I know, I don't deserve to be here.
But I'm the only one who knows the door lock password."
"..."
Without saying anything for a pretty plausible reason
I was sitting there blankly. There was a shopping bag on the table next to me.
Huening Kai, who was about to leave,
He came next to me and sat down.
"The smell of alcohol... Did you drink all of this by yourself?"
"What do you know?"
"...It's hard"
"If you were me, would you be able to laugh right now?"
"You still haven't given up on me, have you?"
"..."
"That's right, I still haven't forgotten."
Huening Kai burst into laughter
He grabbed my chin and met my eyes.
If I meet you here again
What would your answer be?
The eyes, filled with wounds, shook.
I need to give a definitive answer here, but now
I need to push him out for sure, so why are you asking me to come out?
Are tears flowing instead of an answer?
Even though I knew I would end up getting hurt by him again,
I chose him even though I knew I would be abandoned again
This is a return to the days of sweet love
No, it was a path that led to pleasure.
"Yeah, I knew you'd come back."
He hugged me
Not warm, but not cold either.
Not warm, but not hard either.
I went back into that embrace
In the end, I fell for the bad guy again.