Today I am planning to commit suicide because life is so hard.
rattle_
"Ugh.."
I lost consciousness like that.
But when I open my eyes, I'm home.
What I saw was not the ceiling of the house I was living in, but the ceiling of the house I lived in with my parents.
So I went back to the moment when I was happy.
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"under..."
Today, I got scolded at work. They asked me what I was doing and why I wrote the report like this. Honestly, the report wasn't mine, it was the intern who wrote it. But since it was my first time, I let it slide.
"What the hell am I supposed to do to make my life this difficult?"
"What the hell is money talking about?"
I couldn't understand it at all. Money, that my life, which should be happy, was ruined because of that thing called money. And because of money, people go beyond what they should not go beyond. If you watch the news, there are countless cases of murder for money. People in the world live like this, obsessed with money. Of course, I include myself. With money, you can buy marriage, expensive things, nice cars, nice houses, anything. Then, what about happiness? Can I buy my happiness with money? No, you can't buy happiness even if you have hundreds of millions of won. If you're poor, you need to have happiness at least. However, in this day and age, even happiness can be bought with money. Nowadays, if you have a lot of money, you're happy, and if you don't, you're unhappy.
"So I'm going to kill myself today."
“No one will listen to me if I say that.”
rattle_
Kwaaaaak_
"Ugh... Ugh.."
Even dying is painful. I didn't live for this, I didn't work hard for this.
I lost consciousness like that.
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Flash_
"what."
"Why am I alive? Here again..."
The walls are filled with idol posters. Seeing all these posters reminds me of when I was really into idols. No. What year is it now?
"..Fuck, 2011?"
I've gotten 10 years younger. I was about to die. Is this a sign telling me not to die? I don't know. Right now, I just want to die. I hate all those posters, all those high school books, all those uniforms. Even after I'm dead, I can still see these things. I wish I could die quickly, wake up from my delusions, and die. I don't want to set foot in a place like this for even a second.
"Hey Jiyoon, wake up quickly and go to school~!"
I just realized it. I was back in the happiest moment of my life, 10 years ago, when I was 19 and a senior in high school.
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This was originally going to be released as a new work before, but I didn't think I'd be able to manage it, so I made a note of it and put it aside until today, and I'm finally releasing it(?). If I like this while writing, I might release it as a new work. Oh, and if I spoil another work here, Ssa-ga-ji was adopted by Ssa-ga-ji's house is almost finished. I plan to release a new work after I finish that work. Please wait! The content is a bit unstable? But I hope you enjoy it!
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