See you in a year.
The sun was shining brightly.
But I couldn't shine.
I was a dark moon, not a bright sun.
It was easy to see that she was in danger.
She and I were more than just in love, we were in love.
But I didn't know she would make that choice.
I got a text message.
'Brother, sister has become a star.'
It was a text from her sister.
Thud, the strength left my legs.
The cell phone had already been lying on the floor for a long time.
I got up in a hurry and headed to the place.
I wanted to quickly admit that it was a lie.
But, it was reality.
She had a pretty face.
My legs gave out again.
Her younger sister came up to me, perhaps because she had noticed me like that.
He grabbed my shoulder and said.
"Brother, you two were in love. But, but why did you end up like this?"
"People who love each other should have comforted each other!
It was said on her behalf.
I wish I had cared a little more, understood a little more.
I blamed myself.
Now the reality has finally hit me.
Tears flowed down my face like fire.
I cried out loud for the first time in a long time.
A week has passed.
And the gift she gave me.
I looked at her pictures all day long.
I should have given more gifts and taken more pictures.
There were only about 20 pictures of her.
I kept going through the photos, which were only 20 in number.
Although her gifts were overflowing.
There was no gift from her.
I kept missing her and thinking about her.
She never came back.
I thought about her all day long.
I didn't feel her preciousness while she was by my side.
But, I felt it a lot because you weren't around.
I miss her so much.
She, she is flickering before my eyes.
The face that smiled brightly at me,
The voice that was acting cute and asking me to go on a date,
Even the warmth of her hugging me, saying she likes me.
Everything is still vivid.
Haa, a deep sigh came out.
Tears flowed down my cheeks again.
I wanted to see her so badly,
I didn't have the confidence to follow her.
I was really selfish.
I felt so pathetic and ashamed of myself.
I lay still in bed and dazed myself.
I lived day after day unable to die.
If this continues, I really feel like I'm going to die.
I got up with the thought that I should at least eat well.
The spoons clanked against each other.
I took a spoonful of rice.
It's been a while since I've had rice...
For a few days, I only ate water and occasionally ate things like ramen.
Ding-dong, the doorbell rang.
I got up weakly and walked out unsteadily.
Squeak, he looked at the person with unfocused eyes.
She had a younger brother.
Come in...
He spoke in a weak voice.
He came in slowly.
I turned off the lights and looked at the dark room, then turned the lights on.
There was a lot of dust, probably because it hadn't been cleaned.
Cough, so that's why you cough like that.
He sighed and opened his mouth.
Is your brother dead?
"The house and the appearance are just like death."
"It's as good as dead."
"I think it would be better to die than to live like this, but I'm not sure."
I have to wait until I die a natural death.
He sighed after hearing what I said.
Then he picked up the broom that was rolling on the floor.
"Let's make a home for people to live in."
Min Kyu-hyung smiled slightly at his words.
Yes, Myeongho.
We cleaned together.
Because I didn't wash the dishes, there were a lot of fruit flies.
There were also many insect corpses.
Thud, I cleaned for 30 minutes and sat down on the bed.
Now it looks like a house where people live.
It's been a while, I've been with you for this long.
He laughs at my words.
"Don't be emotional, you don't suit me."
"Haha, what do you mean it doesn't match?"
We talked about this and that.
It feels like it's been a long time since I last had a conversation with someone.
"···Did you know that would happen to you, sister?"
"No, I didn't know. He would leave in an instant like that."
"Yeah, even I, a family member, didn't know, so how much more so."
"Seo Yu-han doesn't show it."
Sigh, I sighed.
There was a brief silence.
I slowly opened my mouth.
"···Do you know why?"
"No, I didn't know yesterday, but I found out this morning."
"There was a diary, and in fact, that's why I came today."
He took it and handed me a notebook.
I accepted it slowly.
The name 'Seo Yu-han' was written on the cover of the notebook.
A familiar font.
A familiar name.
Familiar, scent.
Even the notebook smelled like her.
I turned one page.
Her handwriting is densely written.
Thump, covered it again.
I'll see you later, I think I'm going to cry.
I smiled slightly.
"Yeah, do you want to go eat? You've gotten so thin."
"Okay, what do you want to eat?"
We got up from our seats together.
I dressed roughly and went out.
What should I eat?
March 2, 20××
I couldn't get into the school I dreamed of.
Even if I take the exam again, I won't be able to get in.
My head is incredibly stupid.
I'm sure I'll succeed next year.
March 29, 20××
I heard that a friend I didn't get along with was going to the college I wanted to go to.
I'm worse than him.
I felt empty.
But still, I think it's a blessing in disguise that we don't go to the same school.
Yeah, I'm not feeling well, but I have to go see Min-gyu.
April 5, 20××
Tomorrow was Min-gyu's birthday.
But I wasn't feeling very good.
I got a call from my best friend.
It was a call saying that she was getting married to the boy who had given me a hard time during my school days.
They're so young, they're already getting married?
I did think about that though.
My friend knew my story well.
Even the fact that he has been harassing me.
He contacted me shamelessly even though he knew.
They sent me a wedding invitation saying they were getting married tomorrow.
I declined, saying I didn't have time.
April 25, 20××
There was a class reunion.
Still, I dressed up nicely and went to the place.
There were also friends there who didn't get along well.
He looked at me and smiled mockingly, then touched his outer garment.
It was the department of the university I wanted to go to.
I wrote a letter and went to find my friend.
Oh, right, he's married.
He said and sat down in the seat furthest from her.
After a while, someone came in from behind with a clang.
He was the one who was harassing my friend and me.
"Wow, Yoohan, you've become prettier!"
My friend told me.
The man next to me was looking down at me with one corner of his mouth raised.
I clenched my fist.
"Oh right, I went into the crying mask this time~"
The kid I wasn't on good terms with looked at me and said the exact name of the university.
"You have to study hard there, right?"
My friend said.
It felt like everyone hated me.
I couldn't say anything and just stared at the floor.
"Oh, Yuhan, what are you doing these days?"
I don't know if he was genuinely curious about my life or if he was trying to pick on me, but he asked me.
"It's the same as before, study."
"Oh my~ If you only study too much, you won't have any memories~"
The kid who wasn't on good terms with me said.
"You said you wanted to wear a blindfold when you cried too? I didn't study."
Yeah, those kids who live in their own self-righteousness will die quickly.
May 29, 20××
I went out today to do some healing.
I came across a nice store while browsing SNS.
I hummed a song and slowly wrote down the words.
Okay, Min-gyu, see you in a year.
June 29, 20××
I'm making plans these days.
When, what time, and where will I fly in the sky?
I can be free in just a little while.
I stopped by Min-gyu's house for a moment and asked him a question.
"What would it be like if I could fly in the sky?"
"Sky? What, skydiving? No, that's really scary..."
Yeah, it's scary.
July 4, 20××
Finally I can be free.
I feel sorry for Min-gyu, but my freedom was my priority.
But Min-gyu still has me from a year later.
I believe you will endure.
My family, mom, dad, my younger brother Seo Myeong-ho, I love you all.
This will probably be my last diary.
Thank you, I'll go find my freedom now.
A year later, when I was finally getting used to life without her.
Ding-dong, the doorbell rang.
He opened the door, thinking it was Seo Myeong-ho.
"who are you?"
"It's mail. There's a letter for Mr. Kim Min-gyu."
There was a delivery man at the door.
A letter has arrived for me.
Is there anyone who can send me a letter?
After receiving the letter, I sat down on the bed.
I opened the envelope with a rustling sound.
There was a familiar handwriting, saying, “To Min-gyu.”
Phew, I'm finally getting used to life without her.
Reading her letter, I felt like I was breaking down again.
Tears flowed endlessly.
I didn't care about the letters rolling on the floor.
I just wanted to see her.
'I love you, I loved you, honey.'
💎Please give me a call💎
I suddenly wanted to write Sad
Skip even if there are typos>_<
(The photo in the middle was taken by a friend!)