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Because of the alarm that was blaring so loudly that it hurt my ears, I couldn't see you off properly today. Strangely enough, you only came to see me when I was sleeping.
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Day - dreaming
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Huum...I wonder if I fell asleep. As always, I'm in the same space, but I don't know exactly where I am. This space, which may be a dream or reality, feels like the boundary between the ideal and the real. I should pinch my cheek.Ouch -! Sigh..Seeing the pain so intense that tears welled up in my eyes, I realized that yes, it was reality. My studio apartment was filled with shabby clothes and trash. And the person in the middle of it all... Wait, a person? I slowly raised my gaze and saw the face, and I couldn't help but be surprised.
...J..J, Jimin..You, who left me, are here... Is this just a dream like usual? Am I reminiscing about you through this vivid dream? No, this is reality. Jimin is smiling. It was your smile, a smile I hadn't seen in my previous dreams.
"Hello, heroine. Long time no see..?I missed you, my heroine."
Jimin... I missed you. I missed you so much? It's so hard. If I follow you and leave, will I be able to see you? You mean everything to me. Why didn't you smile in my dreams before, why didn't you show me your face? I remember every single thing: the way you smiled, the way you cried, the way you were happy, but you weren't in front of me.
"I'm sorry... It must have been hard..."
"From now on, I'll come often, Yeoju."
" trillion.. "
Was it the moment she was about to answer? The faint, loud beeping and clanking of the washing machine opened her eyes. Her eyes, wet with tears, looked utterly sorrowful.
" .. Jimin? Jimin.. Jimin!.. Where, where did you go.. I'm sorry, I'm sorry.. I want to see you again. Huh? Where did you go.. You said you come often!.. You were right in front of me,. Here, in front of my eyes.. You were there, ah..."
She seemed extremely anxious, acting as if the man she saw in her dream was real. Her hands and feet, like thin, twig-like branches, were trembling, and her fingernails, which looked like they hadn't been cut for a long time, were being bitten. Judging by the shorter nail on her index finger compared to the others, she probably bitten them frequently. Her eyes were fixed on space, and she even stretched out her hand toward the spot where he had been in her dream, lying there.
For a moment, she seemed to have made up her mind. She began to get dressed, unsure of what was on her mind. Her hair was greasy and split, and she smelled, but she didn't seem to mind at all. She wore a hat and a long padded coat and quickly ran out.
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When she returned, she was holding a bag of medicine. The label read, "Sleeping Pills." It seemed like quite a lot, but she downed it all, along with a bottle of water she'd found near the trash heap. She then returned to bed and muttered.I have to meet Ji.. Min.. I have to.. apologize..
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Hmm... This is, yeah! This is where Jimin is.Since I don't feel sick, I guess this is a dream, just like I thought. Oh, no. This is my reality, with Jimin. Well, it doesn't matter. I'm happy as long as my love, Jimin, is by my side. But, something about this place feels familiar. The deep blue sky and small plants in pots. The table and chairs between them. Huh, huh? This is the cafe I visited on my first date with Jimin. A happy place I'll never forget.
Jimin!
... I saw Jimin. Where is he looking? Please smile at me just once. Why are you just staring off into space? He looks handsome even in that position. My boyfriend. I want to hug him. Tears are welling up in my eyes, but you said you were upset when I cried, so I'll hold it in. But it's okay if you stand behind me and give me a hug once in a while.
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A sudden headache left me unable to speak to Jimin. When I woke up, this place was no longer a cafe. This place, with the crosswalk between the cooking school building and the park... felt familiar. My chest ached, and my heart felt tight. My head felt like it was going to burst, and I was short of breath. Breathing became difficult, so I slowly closed and opened my eyes.
Her eyelids moved slowly, and she awoke. It didn't seem like a long dream, but the heroine had been asleep for quite some time.jiminIt seemed like she was obsessed with a man named Jimin, but that wasn't the case. That man, Jimin, was her boyfriend, who had been hit by a large truck and died right in front of her while coming to pick her up. The female protagonist blamed herself for Jimin's death.
Perhaps she is dreaming of the day, trying to meet someone she will never see again, trying to fulfill her impossible wish, even if only for a moment.