I had a friend.
We shared a friendship
We were a supportive relationship.
And as time goes by
She pushed me.
I managed to catch her
She pushed me off the cliff.
And when I was living peacefully at the bottom of the cliff
Someone pulled me
He brought her in front of him.
I held her hand again
Time passed.
She told me her outrageous thoughts.
She was so tender-hearted that she just nodded in agreement.
And then after some more time passed
She started ignoring me.
You didn't see me
Didn't pay attention.
And she let me go.
But since I didn't go far
I was able to catch her again.
But even after that, she continued to act like she was trying to abandon me.
I let her go.
She disappeared from my sight as soon as I let go.
I finally realized.
It's not like we were holding each other
It wasn't even me holding her.
I was hanging on to her.
To her I
I was just a counselor for the day
Often it was just a role to be called upon when needed.
So when I let her go, we immediately became strangers.
Was there a reason why I worried so much?
Why on earth did I hold onto her?
Is it okay now that I've let it go?
I should have let go of you when you first let me go.
I was hurt a lot because of her
I was abandoned.
I hated her.
How could you do that to me?
Because I am also a person with many wounds,
If you can understand,
I created a wound,
You abandoned me.
It was just hypocrisy.
It was like telling me to cheer up because it was hard.
It's hard, how can I find strength?
She is not my friend anymore.