Hwayangyeonhwa (Kim Namjoon)
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I was moving mechanically
Who I am
What are you doing
What are you thinking about when you live?
Like a zombie who has forgotten everything
As we reached the alley, the dogs began to bark.
At that moment
All the senses that had been paralyzed opened up at once
Countless scenes flashed before my eyes.
Mother's tired face
Wandering Brother
Father's illness
A life of wandering from place to place
Looking at me with hostility
Dogs' eyes
Stop it, what else do you want me to do?
I stopped myself from screaming.
My father's voice came to mind
A weak and aged voice
The night I came back from the hospital
What my father said to me
I pretended not to hear and passed by,
The very words I tried so hard not to think about
"Namjoon, go. You have to live."
Source: Tuami