[Short Story] Homesickness
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* Short stories may be serialized later.
I hope you don't steal it.
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It was only occasionally that I missed you. I believed I could find someone new, or maybe that's what I wanted to believe. It's been quite some time since we let go of the ties between us, maybe two years? You were the one who held on to the bond until the very end before we broke up, and I was the one who unilaterally tried to sever that bond.
"...I miss you,"
I thought breakups, which everyone else experiences, were so easy. The longer the languor wore on, the more tedious this relationship became. From minor annoyances to ignoring and even going to the club, it was all so easy. Back then, you were the only one who was hurt, and I didn't even feel guilty about it. Our fights continued, and eventually blew up, but you always told me you loved me. Now that we've broken up, I shamelessly miss those unspoken words.
"Aren't you coming today?"
All I could do now was wander the streets and the cafes you frequented. At first, you were barely visible, but now you were walking around the streets, smiling brightly. I thought you were the one who was going through the hardships, but that was my mistake. I was like a wanderer who had lost my hometown, my home. Before we parted ways, you told me you'd miss me, that I could come back anytime, and that you'd wait for me, crying. I remember clearly, to those words, I replied, "That won't happen."
"I miss you so much I could die..."
I miss you, I said and did such cruel things to you. Foolishly, I miss you so much and it hurts, your view of breakups was so different from what I thought. I miss you so much, I miss you so much it's driving me crazy. Among the subtle emotions, only the feelings of regret, longing, and guilt are certain. In the beginning of the breakup, I felt completely free. But soon after, I felt like this was the first time your empty spot seemed this big, and this was the first time I realized how difficult and hard the aftermath of a breakup can be. Did you feel these emotions too?
"I miss you... a lot..."
I still linger in the times we spent together. I'd reminisce like an idiot, then chuckle, and you were my home, my hometown. I miss you so much, and who could have imagined that we, who met hoping for something more than a lover, would end up like this?
I'll ask again,
Have you ever felt this kind of emotion in the aftermath of this?
I am overcome with longing for home, a place that feels like home.
Have you been feeling homesick?
If you didn't feel it, that's a good thing.
I will feel all those painful emotions on your behalf,
instead,
During the time I was with you
Can stayLet me be,
Stay there
Let's continue this painful aftershock and homesickness
So that I can suffer,
I'll make it sweeter, because I'm giving more.
Because that's what I want.
A little longer at that time
Let me stay,
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