-Smart, Seongho?
-Oh no!!! I'm surprised..
-It's more surprising when you scream..;;
-Whew… You came early again today?
-Senior, you came in first place today too.
-What about me? I'm like this every day? Haha
-Look at him acting like that because he knows he's handsome.
-Are you kidding me too much? Haha
-Why? I'm serious. What...
-Come bigger, kid
-Huh;; We're 2 years apart? That's ridiculous.
-Grow taller and come back lol
-165 isn't small, right?
-It's small for me lol
-Oh really, don't say a word..
-Okay, Mr. Pianist, please take your seat now, right? Haha
-Yeah~
For a few minutes, the practice room was filled with the sounds of guitar, piano, and Seongho's voice. Just as I was thinking that it would be nice if this moment could last forever, Dongmin arrived.
-Wow, look at Han Dong-min, he's really late;;
-Oh, you came at exactly the right time?
-Okay, yes~ yes~
-Oh, this is real;;
-Ah, sorry, sorry, lol
-Hello, Senior Unchan..!!
-Hello, Unhak~ㅋㅋ
-That's why... Yuunchan, you really...
-What the heck, Han Dong-min, you look half like senior Seong-ho and Un-hak, really..
-Oh my; what's wrong with me?
-It's not that good, it's like a gangster
-Wow, you were really bad.
-I don't know, just grab the electric guitar quickly.
Unhak is holding a violin
…By the way, what about Jaehyun?
-You jumped out earlier
-Ah, this senior is really..;;
-Unchan, I'll contact you.
-Wow, I love you, senior. Seriously.
-Wow, why are you doing that;; I feel bad for Seongho hyung..
-Dongmin, cluck your tongue^^
-Sunbae Unchan, should I go and catch you? I think I know where you are.
-Wow, Unhak, I'll only trust you. Fighting! Catch me!!
-Yes haha
As we were chatting like that, I saw Jaehyun, who had been caught by Unhak. I went to Jaehyun with a serious expression, thinking that I really had to scold him this time.
-senior
-…yes…?
-Are you going to jump forward or not?
-I won't…
-I'm warning you as the band president?
-yes..
-Okay, so now that the drums are here, shall we begin?
-Yes/yes/okay
-lol
As we practiced like that, lunchtime was winding down. We had to decide on our next schedule, post it in the group chat, and leave a message telling us to practice before we could disperse. The festival was just around the corner, so the schedule was even tighter.
-Seniors and the rest
-huh?
-This is our seniors' last performance, so we absolutely don't want to ruin it, right?
-yes!
-Let's do our best (smile)
-Okay haha fighting!
-Oh my god
-Senior Jaehyun, don't yell.
-luck..
-Haha see you tomorrow!
I knew it would be this good. It was definitely a good day, but... I cleaned up the club room and turned on my phone, and suddenly, I got a call from that disgusting kid.
>Hey, do you think you can leave me?
>Unchan, I'm sorry... I was wrong
>Please don't leave me, okay..?
>I can find out where your school is
>Oh, you went to Wonderland?
>I'll go right now, wait? Haha
>I arrived? Haha
>Our Unchan is in the band?
>What? Why is there a man?
>Hey, what the fuck, why are there only men?
>Hey, did you go all the way to transfer schools just to transfer?
>What the f*ck, is it the wind?
>Hey, crazy bitch, did you come all the way here to do this?
>I'm sorry for swearing at Unchan..
>It's not really the wind, is it? It can't be, right?
>We love each other, don't we?
>Please answer the phone..
>Why don't you check my calls when I'm on the phone?
>Hey, why is Han Dong-min here?
>Hey, why did he transfer to the same school as you?
>Oh, please check the contact information… .
That crazy guy... how can he still be causing this mess when we just broke up? The fact that he came to our school for a nap means that it could still happen.
Thump...thump
-Hello, Yuunchan. Why are you calling?
-Hey, that kid came to our school..
-…?what?
-Hey, what should I do if he comes?
-Where are you?
-In front of the library..
-for a moment
After talking to someone next to him, he soon received a call again.
-Sorry..I can't go there, so I'll go home as soon as possible.
-Uh... Okay, you too, be careful.
-I don't care...you care too much lol
-Okay… See you tomorrow!
-Yeah! Be careful..!!
Stop.
A long silence passed. This crazy ex-boyfriend is obsessed with me and contacts me at all hours. Why do I keep meeting this kind of guy... Ha... The way home feels so long.
widely
Someone grabbed my shoulder and called my name. That bastard I didn't want to hear from or see grabbed my shoulder.
-Unchan...
-Why are you doing this?
-Can we meet again?
-Will that work? I don't like it.
-Please, I can't do without you..
-Ha… Hey Choi Beom, do it properly
When was the time to cheat and cheat? Why is it such a mess now?
-I told you I was wrong..
-go away.
-Ha..I'm sorry?!
-Is that the attitude of someone who apologizes?
-Sorry..
-Ha, you're prohibited from approaching. If you find out about this, you'll be arrested.
-Yeah..I know but..
-Get out.
-Ah, really, this is what I'm looking at!!
-Ahh!
He would hit me like crazy, then suddenly start begging me and when I didn't listen, he would hit me again. This repeated several times until he finally got tired and left.
-Ha.. you bastard..
My body was bruised and my hair was a mess. In this situation, all I could think about was death. If I died, wouldn't I be able to escape this damn thing?
The sky looked clear today. I had hope that if I could become part of that sky, I would be happy and free from pain.
I missed my mom and dad, but I wanted to die more than that.
That evening, after dinner, I went straight to bed. I lay down because I felt like my resolve would fade if I looked at my mom and dad's faces any longer.
I heard voices of concern outside, and tears welled up in my eyes, and my body grew hot. It felt like the world had turned its back on me, and I couldn't stop crying.
Even at that moment, he suddenly came to mind. Park Sung-ho. I should have confessed to him… I decided to send him a text message at dawn and jump.
I thought about it all night and even wrote a will.
With that in mind, I left home at 6 a.m. I still felt bad about not being able to celebrate the festival one last time, but since I'd already been caught at school, I thought it would be strange if I hadn't been beaten to death by then.
Wonder Band
I'm sorry everyone<
I don't think I can go to practice today..
No, not just today
I don't think I can go every day anymore.. haha
I'm sure you'll all miss it.
It was fun loving and being together
Thank you all and I love you
I'll try to be brave before I die haha
Seongho>Yoo Woonchan What is this?
Jaehyun>Unchan, what are you talking about?
Jaehyun>What the hell is this, Yoo Woonchan?
Taesan>Hey Yuunchan, what is this?
Taesan>Are you trying to die?
Seongho> This isn't it, Unchan
Taesan>Hey, don't do that
Unhak>Senior..?
Unhak>What is this? Explain quickly.
Unhak> This isn't it, no, no, no matter how much I think about it, it's not it
Jaehyun>Unchan, stop what you're doing right now.
Taesan> Anyone, go quickly!!
Don't come, I've decided.
Taesan>Are you doing this because of Choi Beom?
Jaehyun>Who is that?
Taesan>Ex-boyfriend who committed dating violence
Unhak>ha..
I've steeled my resolve like that, but I'm starting to feel like giving up. If I had known I'd be this weak... No, it hurts because I'm this weak...
Senior, I really liked that senior a lot.
I thought I would never be able to love again because of him...
Thanks to my senior, I'm finishing with love.
I love you, senior. Bye.
Seongho>Unchan, don't go, this isn't right
No, this is correct haha..<
Ah, the number 1 didn't disappear after all. The sun was rising, and I was almost on the rooftop. I walked towards the railing, stepped onto it, and looked down. It was scarier than I thought.
But it seemed less painful than that bastard coming back and hitting me again. I closed my eyes like that, and suddenly my body went backwards and I fell. But… it didn't hurt. There was no pain.When I looked back, Seongho was holding me.
-ㅅ..Senior?
-What are you doing?
-Why are you holding me back, senior?
I made up my mind, so why are you ruining it?
-…because I said that
-What did you say?
-I'm trying to save you because I like you too.
-to?
-I say this because I don't want to see or hear about the people I love dying.
-…
-If you want to cry, cry.
No one can say anything
No one should interfere with that
And you're still younger than me
You lived less than me, so why did you die?
And if you need comfort or a place to lean on,
You can rely on me and say you need me
I will be by your side like that.
I only worry about people I like
I cried so hard. I cried in my senior's arms until I was exhausted, and then the band members came running up to the rooftop.
-Hey! If Yuunchan is going to die, he should die. Why should you die?
And I think I will live with that courage
Why worry people
-Dongmin, calm down..
-Sigh...I should have gone with you yesterday...I'm sorry...
-Yoo Yun-chan really drives people crazy..
-Senior, I really thought you were going to die (sob)
-I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, everyone.
The four of us cried from dawn. Perhaps because we cried, even the dark clouds cried. We shed tears in the rain and hugged each other.
-senior
-Why, Unchan?
-Do you really like me?
-Uh..
-Then I'll buy it.
-uh?
-I like you too, so why can't we date?
-Okay haha
So our rainy season ended and the pleasant sunshine came.
--(author)--
As I was writing this, old memories came to mind and I cried while writing it haha
Remember what Seongho said to Unchan earlier?
I wrote this so you can read it when you're having a hard time.. I hope you read it when you want to be comforted..!! I'm not good at comforting people, so I couldn't write it like this.. haha
If I were to write in the author's words...um...
You know, I was really depressed too, right?
But I kept it that way and without realizing it
Mold was growing in my heart
But I wiped it off forcefully
It's more difficult to get rid of it
The wounds are only getting deeperI wanted to cry
So I looked at the clear sky
If I go there, will it become clearer?
I thought this, but it wasn't true.
Fear. Cowards come together
Rather, it makes it worse and dirtier.
Everyone has a different way of getting rid of this.
There may be some people who can get rid of it on their own.
There are people who have to talk to others to get rid of their mold.
But I leaned on someone
To someone who said they could rely on me without saying anything
When I leaned against it, the mold came out as tears.
So I'm like Unchan in this story
I leaned on someone and cried until I felt better.
So if you want to lean on someone like me,
Come to me. Even though I can't comfort you in reality,
Here, even if you are awkward, you can be comforted with words
Because it's a small skill haha
If someone sees this, I think it's arrogance
They don't understand the feelings of people who are truly sick and just talk nonsense.
You could say it like this
But please know that I absolutely do not feel that way.
I just hope it can be a small shelter.
Then don't dream about anything tonight
May you sleep soundly and dream bright dreams for tomorrow.
I wrote too long haha..
I love you readers💗
