My favorite saved me
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🎵 - Stay Alive
(Listen to this song and see...it's really cool...)
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I took out a photo. The person smiling in the photo was so cool and beautiful. His bright smile brought laughter to many people, and I fell in love with him.
For me, just looking at this one picture was a luxury.
Because I'm ugly.
The reason I watch it anyway is to deal with my emotions.
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"Hey guys, do you want to go eat pizza today? LOL"
"Okay~!" Chin2
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"But, after we eat, should we go to the bulletproof shop? I heard there's one opening near the school!"
"Crazy...let's go for it" Chin1
"I.."
"Hey, do you want to go to the bathroom?" Chin2
"Okay" friend 1
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I actually had a bright personality. I was someone who brought laughter, happiness, light, and strength to others. But at some point, no... from that moment. From that day on, I began to feel complex emotions toward someone, toward some people, toward everyone.
What are these feelings? Hatred? Anger? Anxiety? Everything was mixed together that day. All my relationships were tangled. So many of them. I was ignored and ostracized by my friends. Even my close friends were the same. My best friend lost contact, and the adults who cared for me... turned their backs on me.
Just when I thought I had been abandoned by everyone, I heard a song. As the music reached me, I thought, I have one last friend. I am not completely abandoned yet.
The song happened to make me like the man in the photo. That man was the one who sang the song.
It's my favorite.
At first, I was obsessed with the thought, "How can I like someone who doesn't know me?" and thought it was a bad thing. What if I like this person and my best friend becomes unhappy because of me? Of course, he's a stranger, but still...there were nights when thoughts like "What if my influence goes to him?" filled my head.
But there was no way to escape from him. I was already barely able to rely on his songs, and the meaning of my life came from those songs. To me, who was ignored by the world, music was hope and light.
But this happiness did not last forever.
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"Hey, Yeoju, come out;" Bully 1
"uh..?"
Up until this point, I'd been unilaterally ignored by my friends, never once bullied. But... what the...
"Ugh..."
"You? The guy who likes Jung Ho-seok?" Bully 1
"Aren't you going to answer?" Iljin 2
"uh.."
"Haha ...
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"You know, why did I call you?"
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"ㅋㅋㅋ Aren't you curious?"
"Actually~"
"There's no reason. I just don't like you;"
The bully kicked the female protagonist's leg and said.
"you are,"
puck
"My favorite,"
puck
"Jung Ho-seok,"
puck
"evil..!"
"It starts with what you like,"
Boom!!!
"Haha I don't like it;;"
"Ugh..."
"You know, how could a quiet kid like you get picked on by these bullies?"
"...."
I couldn't say anything. I could only hold my breath... But... why did I have to endure this, this pain?
"Haa...how would I know;"
How much I hated you, how much I tried to be invisible, and now I'm being labeled as someone who has at least one favorite? It's so unfair and annoying.
"Huh?? Hey, can't you see anything?! Are you crazy!!!" Day 2
"Hey, shut up. When are they coming?"
"Who?" Day 2
"Oh, there it is!! Boys!!"
"Oh...they? They'll be here soon, I called them. Haha" Day 2
"Yeah, good job lol. The two of us aren't enough.."
"Yeoju, even if you try not to stand out, you're already too visible to me. And I've already got you in my head. I just waited for you to get ruined like this. Hahaha."
"Do you understand?"
"...Don't be ridiculous. I don't know why I have to go through this? You're just harassing me like this because you don't like me. Do you know how petty it is? Just because we have the same favorite character ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ"
"This bitch is really crazy.."
"Hey, flexible." Day 3
"Oh my gosh, you guys are here??" Day 1 (Yuyeon)
The group of boys who came filled me with fear. As I was glaring at them with such disgust, a familiar face caught my eye.
'Moon.. Moon Jun-woo?!.. Why is he..'
The moment I saw that boy, I realized. I really was a loser. I was so bad that I got beaten up by the guy I once liked. I was... a bad person.
So I was hit with a barrage of insults for hours.
"This insignificant bitch keeps rebelling;;" Day 3
"Shit, I'm really stressed out because of this bitch;;;"
"Junwoo-yang~!! You have to beat him up properly too?!"
"If he likes you, shouldn't you hit him gently? Haha"
"...!!!!"
Just thinking about how he knew I liked Moon Jun-woo sent a huge shock through my body. From then on, it just kept hitting me.
I remember Moon Jun-woo's expression as he hit me. I even remember his eyes. He kicked me, as if he felt guilty, and turned his head to the side. His eyes were wide and wide. I could see him shaking slightly.
But even as I was examining him closely, the bully slapped me on the cheek.
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After about 20 minutes, they gathered their belongings and left the warehouse, perhaps because they were exhausted. I groaned, becoming one with the floor. I was beaten so hard I didn't even realize it hurt.
"Ahhh..shit.."
I thought everyone had left, so I was startled by the sudden sound.
Swish.
"..." Moon Jun-woo
"...!"
I was so shocked that I slowly walked backwards, dragging my aching body. It was because I was afraid. I was afraid that the man from before would hit me again.
Moon Jun-woo's expression contorted as he watched Yeo-ju run away. Then, his mind became a mess. He couldn't tell her he was sorry. That he didn't mean to do it. Was she okay? Was she going to the hospital with him? He couldn't say anything. I was the perpetrator, and she was afraid of me.
"Whew..."
He took a deep breath, threw the money at the woman, and then left the warehouse with his coat.
"I'm sorry, Yeoju. You'll hate me for the rest of your life."
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Ten minutes after the bullies left, I took an outer garment to cover my dirty uniform from the classroom and left school very late at night. I avoided the security guard's eyes and intentionally left after all the teachers had left work.
"Ahh...sob..."
Tears welled up in my eyes, but I held them back. I thought, "Well, I'm a loser. I did something wrong, so I'm being punished like this." I let it go.
I limped towards the mountain instead of home.
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On a night with a full moon, I climbed the steep slope with my aching legs, my earphones firmly inserted into my ears.
That day, with thick branches on both sides and a dark sky visible, I frantically headed toward the top of the mountain. I slipped and fell, but I continued deep into the valley, beyond the city. And on...
"Haa...haa...haa..."
But when I reached the mountain, I wished I could no longer see the city... I wished that suffocating place would disappear from before my eyes... But I hated that city, which was still bright and beautiful.
"Ugh...uhh ...
My situation was absurd and difficult, and it felt like it was all my fault that things had turned out this way in an instant.
There was a cliff right in front of me. Beneath it, a city shone brightly. I decided to disappear from this world, to simply vanish. I slowly approached the cliff.
It was off-limits, but I ignored it. Just like they ignored me.
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two,
three,
Arrived.
The city seemed closer. And I held my breath. And then, I shed tears. These tears contained so much.
chagrin
pain
Hardship
aversion
hatred
anger
sorrow
loneliness
anxiety
Now this world is ending.
"Ugh..."
I took one step. I took the last step.
My body fell forward. I felt like I was floating in the air.
Wheeze-
At this time,
My wrist was grabbed. Then my hand was locked.
I opened my eyes as I felt a hand grab me. And then I saw the person who saved me.
It was Jeong Ho-seok
"...!!!!"
It was a scene straight out of a novel. It was a miracle, no, just a miracle. But I wasn't particularly happy. I... didn't want this to happen... I mustered up the courage to jump, and an unexpected miracle happened.
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"Haa...haa...if I had been just a little bit later...I would have died...phew..." Hoseok
"......"
No, don't save me... please...
The female protagonist spoke to Ho-seok with pleading eyes.
"Why did you hold me back? Why didn't you just let me fall?"
"Haha.. who's just watching someone fall? Isn't it natural to catch them? I don't know why you made this choice to fall, but I want you to live." Hoseok
Tears poured down like a waterfall. I couldn't see ahead.
I was just sad. That I had to live... Everything was just so hard and sad.
Ho-seok gently patted the tearful Yeo-ju. Seeing her wounds, he couldn't readily hug her and pat her. He was afraid she'd be in pain.
"..." Hoseok
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Before he knew it, the dawn had arrived. Hoseok slowly woke up the female protagonist as her tears gradually stopped.
"I... but, it seems like it's around dawn... aren't you cold? I think it's even colder because you're crying..."
Perhaps worried about the female lead wearing a school uniform skirt, Hoseok took off his outerwear and gently placed it over her shoulders.
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I came to my senses. I was now alive because of my love. And my love was right in front of me. He grabbed my wrist.
"Should we... go down the mountain first? It's too late, it's dangerous... and the temperature is dropping, huh? If you don't want to go home... at least go to the hospital..." Hoseok
trembling
I shook my head sharply. I didn't want to go anywhere. I didn't want to go to the hospital. I didn't want to go home.
"I'll just stay here...you go first..."
"...No...How can I leave you alone again...What if you try to kill yourself again...No...Then I'll be worried." Hoseok
"Why are you taking care of me, a stranger? I'm nothing, so why..."
"Why are you saying that? It's nothing. You're precious. You're not a bad person. You'll always be precious. So stop putting yourself down... Come with me for now. It's dangerous here, right?"
"...."
The female protagonist, whose legs were barely supported by Hoseok, shook her head and said.
"I can't walk. So just leave me alone."
"I can't do that, but let's go."
After saying this, he hugged the female protagonist.
"Ugh...!"
"It'll hurt a little because you're shaking while walking. Just bear with it for a few minutes."
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The mountain path was dark, so I wandered around. Hoseok, carrying Yeoju in his arms, felt steady as he descended, but after a few dozen minutes, he began to feel increasingly tired.
"I'll just walk...please let me down..."
"Ugh, ugh, no, haa..no..no.." Hoseok
"How are you going to walk with that body...haa..haa.."
"It must be hard for you. So..."
"We're almost there!! Do you see the light over there??ㅎ" Hoseok
Ho-seok spoke with a smile. Sweat was beading on his head. His breathing was ragged. But his voice was filled with hope.
I wiped his sweat away, carefully... I felt so sorry.
"Ah, thank you..!" Hoseok
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As he went down, his manager came running towards him looking worried.
"Hoseok!!!" Manager
"Hyung, I can't explain that right now, right?" Hoseok
Ho-seok put Yeo-ju in his car and spoke to the manager.
"Go to my room."
"what..?"
"Brother, there's no time, hurry up..!!"
Ho-seok said this and got into the car, and the manager quickly ran to the driver's seat, got into the car, and started the engine.
And the car started.
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In the car.
The manager spoke to him.
"Are you okay? You look really tired..." Manager
"This kid is having a harder time than me, he's really hurt right now..."
"Shouldn't you be going to the hospital? To the hospital..." Manager
"No. Just go to your accommodations."
"How are you going to get into the dorm? What if people see you?" Manager
"Brother, let's go to that place. I'll either go there or to the dorm. I won't go anywhere else. Absolutely not."
"Haa.. I see."
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I was walking after school and this material just popped into my head lol So I made it into a short story right away lol It's a bit dark, but I worked hard on it, so I hope you enjoy it..ㅎㅎ 🖤🖤