The story of 'that' day_
Jungkook, who was walking with me, stopped me. The spring rain was just beginning to fall, and the wind was blowing, as if it were just beginning to feel like early spring. I swept my arms down. Jungkook then spoke.
"Are you cold?" Jungkook
"on the sly."
The conversation, which had been going on stiffly, stopped at my single word.
"Wow.."
"...."
"But why stop?"
"No, let's just... hurry up and go."
"okay."
I was barely able to get to the bus stop thanks to Jeongguk's help.
"You know."
Jungkook turned his eyes from elsewhere to Joo-ah after Joo-ah blurted out a word.
"What is it?"
"I'll go now, so..."
"Okay, if you can't do it well..."
As I was about to continue speaking, my older sister interrupted me. This had never happened before, but this older sister was someone who listened to me until the end.
"I can go, don't treat me like that."
"Why are you suddenly like that? Do you not like me helping you?"
"No, I just... I think I can do it by myself now."
"hey, "
Even though you're my older sister, I'll call you Heya. Just... to feel closer.
"What do you mean, sister?"
"Okay, my aunt asked me to do it."
"Yeah, you wouldn't do it unless your mom asked you to. So now I'm going to do it so you don't have to worry."
"When did I ever say I was annoying? Why are you suddenly doing this?"
"Hey Jeon Jungkook, I mean, when you weren't around, I fell down thousands and hundreds of times, and even though I wasn't used to the wheelchair yet, I got back up. I did well even when you weren't around. You pretend not to like it and help me out, out of pity for me."
"No matter how disabled I am and how physically challenged I am, I will do it alone now. Don't ignore me."
"Sister, I'm not like that.."
"It's written all in your eyes. That's it."
"Haa.. Sister, and how can you say you're disabled? It's just that your legs are broken."
"Didn't you hear? They said my leg might not be fixed."
"what...?"
Yes, Joo-ah's older sister hurt her leg. Seriously... seriously, so she barely moves around in a wheelchair that doesn't fit her. Joo-ah isn't my real sister. She's the one I've been closest to since I was little.
"Why are you telling me that now..!"
"Do you know how many pitying and pitiful looks I received after I hurt my leg? But when you look at me like that and treat me harshly instead of treating me like before, my self-esteem hits rock bottom and I'm going crazy..!!"
"At least you shouldn't be like that.. That's it..!!"
"Actually, I came to this beach alone last time?"
"Sister, last time...were you at this beach the day you came home late?!"
"Yeah, it really annoyed me that my body didn't feel like my own. When you told me you'd gone to the beach with your friends the other day, you know how jealous I was inside? So I just went there on my own. It was hard on the way there, with people staring at me with lukewarm eyes, and on the way back... on the way back..."
"You don't know how hard it was."
"I went all the way to the beach to see the ocean up close, and it was so hard to get out... I didn't want to get help from people, so I pretended to take a walk, and I even got lost and wandered around alone in the hot sun. My body was tired, but I didn't feel suffocated just doing this, I felt refreshed. Like a wave."
"But when you came in, your family and you said something to me... After that, you've been watching me like this. It's suffocating, Jungkook. Just let me go..."
"...."
Last summer, on that hot day when my sister hurt her leg and was depressed, my family and my sister's family reunited for the first time in a long while to go on a trip to an unfamiliar place, and she disappeared without a word. She left her phone at the hotel, and everyone waited for her, believing she'd be back soon.
But when she didn't come home after a few hours, everyone went crazy and searched for her. I was worried that maybe my sister had gotten into trouble and was in pain somewhere, so I went to see my sister.
I think they were trying to spy on me.
Because my sister was so precious to me... I hated seeing her sick even if it meant dying... But I didn't know that this thought would become a chain to my sister.
"fool.."
"what..?"
"I'm so stupid... I didn't even realize my sister was having a hard time..."
I can't count how many times a bus passed by us, how many times waves crashed. We both looked at each other, our eyes looking different than usual.
"I'm sorry, sis.. I.. It's just.. because you're so precious.. but.. I'm really sorry... You must have been in more pain than me... You must have had a harder time... I'm sorry for not understanding.."
"...Jungkook.."
"Sister, from now on, I won't let you get sick on 'that' day... I'm sorry, Sister..."
I think I was trapped and held onto my older sister under the illusion that it was okay to do this because she was precious and close to me.
To me, my older sister is really, really, really... precious and I love her
That's the kind of being.
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(I have no intention of disparaging artists or people with disabilities. I would like to point out that this is merely a fictional story based on the author's imagination and is not a realistic story.)
This episode was written from Jeongguk's perspective! I wrote it while thinking about why Joo-ah went to the beach alone, and what kind of feelings she might have :-)
I was reading a book at school today and this material came to mind, so I came to write a short story right away. I said in the latest episode notice that I wouldn't be able to come often, but I think I'll be posting short stories occasionally..!
The story of 'that' day_ 🌊