"Selfishly, I want you."
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And so, time passed... About a week has passed? It's so frustrating that school has already started... I was in a hurry to get myself together and get ready for class in the morning, and then I saw something truly shocking... Absolutely shocking. Or maybe it was a blessing in disguise... I don't know, but anyway, it was completely shocking.
"... Ah, I'm sleepy."
"What on earth was the professor thinking, teaching so early in the morning..."
Taehyung, who usually had his eyes half-open and his face half-shaven, put on his glasses to hide his swollen face as he left the front door. He'd clearly washed up, but his face looked slightly puffy, perhaps because the swelling hadn't gone down yet. He was still just a cute, cuddly teddy bear, sob sob.
Taehyung grumbles as he leaves the house, his bag slung over his right shoulder. He's about to leave the house, cursing the professor who taught him in the morning... Oh my, who is this?
"... Huh!"
"Huh!" I raised my head wondering what was going on when I heard the sound, and there was the woman next door standing there. And that too.Wearing a school uniform.Taehyung was so surprised that he froze on the spot, and the female protagonist was also surprised when Taehyung was surprised, so she froze while fixing her fingers towards Taehyung.
"A, a high school student...?!"
"Yeah, yeah! I go to Wolsan High School! It's in front of here..."
(This school name has nothing to do with the actual school name ⌯' ▾ '⌯)
Ah, don't stop me. I'm on the verge of being utterly humiliated right now. No, don't you have any discerning eyes, kid? How could you confuse an adult with a child... Ah, Kim Taehyung, you're serious.
Although I was already tearing my hair out and causing a ruckus inside, I tried to force a smile and pretend like nothing happened."Ah... I see - he did look a bit young-"He told a lie that was impossible, and although no one asked him to avoid this situation, he acted as if he was not flustered as much as possible.
"I... go to Wolhandae, it's in front of here."
"iced coffee..."
Oh, what am I really saying? Why am I releasing TMI that no one is even curious about... I'm the type of person who feels uncomfortable revealing things like this to others... But why do I keep getting embarrassed only by Yeoju-ssi...
It seemed like he hadn't yet realized the reason. Even if she was his ideal type, he'd only been attracted to her, never imagining it would be love at first sight. And he certainly didn't expect that person to be Mija.
"... Hahaha, aren't you going to school? You seem late."
"ah..."
"I'm going with my boyfriend. But he's not coming."
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... Oh, you even have a boyfriend...? ... Taehyung, let's just give up. This life is so shameful... I'll just throw myself into the Han River... Oh, wait a minute.
It's already well past 8 o'clock...? Even if I ran now, it would be precarious... Now that I look at this woman, her expression isn't very good. I can see she's trying hard to control her expression because she's in front of me, but somehow I can't hide the expression on her face.
"...How about contacting your boyfriend?"
"I tried, of course. I called and texted."
"...But, I can't get in touch with you. Did he leave first?"
If I couldn't contact her, I would worry, thinking she was sleeping or sick, but I've never seen her think, "Did she leave first?", but I could roughly guess the relationship between that boyfriend and the woman in front of me.
No, how could you treat a woman like that? If it were me, I'd be waiting for her from the early morning. Naturally, I put myself in his shoes and realized that even though he had class to attend, he couldn't just leave her. How could he leave her behind? She's so upset.
"...Are you going to keep waiting?"
"......"
"I don't know..."
"Obviously, last night... I asked you to come with me and you said you would, so why, why aren't you coming... why?"
"This may be a bit of advice, but,"
"...I don't think your boyfriend will come."
".........."
"How would you know... you could come..."
"...Just go. I'll take care of it."
"You're making people worry, and now you're just going to leave. I'm a person who has empathy."
"Go, I'll take you there."
Normally, I'm a busy person who takes care of myself, but that day, I felt the urge to take care of that woman. Oh, maybe it wasn't that day, maybe it was just an eyesore. It was just that I felt bad for you at first, having to wake up all morning crying over a guy.
At that age, being swayed by a man... it was such a waste of time. So, I readily offered you my favor. I lightly ignored your surprised look at my unexpected kindness, and gave you a look that suggested we go.
"...Where are you going?"
"that's right."
"But, if you take me..."
"I'll take care of it myself."
"Let's go, quickly. If we stay longer, we'll miss class. I think we'll be late already."
"... ah,"
At Taehyung's words, she finally came to her senses and let out a short sigh, fiddling with the hem of her poor school uniform skirt. Taehyung let out a short sigh and gently wrapped his arm around Yeoju's wrist, just enough so that it wouldn't hurt, and the two of them left the house.
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"Selfishly, I want you."
"Thank you for bringing me here."
“Thanks to you, I feel a little better.”
"I feel so bad for always being so indebted to you. The only thing I've ever done for you was give you an electrolyte drink..."
“You don’t have to be sorry, I said I would do it.”
"still..."
Perhaps he thought he'd interrupted my schedule early in the morning, but he couldn't hide his sullen expression. Even when I gestured for him to hurry in, he stopped in his tracks, his expression apologetic, and his face remained sullen. A chuckle escaped my lips. There was absolutely no need to feel so guilty.
I was searching through my pockets to see if I could give her anything, and I found a strawberry-flavored candy, so I handed it to her. I didn't really have anything else to offer her, so it was the best favor I could do.
"...Are you giving it to me?"
"Is there any reason to go around bragging to the world that I have candy? Of course I'll give it to you, Yeoju."
I think I blurted out something out of sheer embarrassment. I wanted to somehow ease her mind, even if only a little, and I couldn't think of a way to do it naturally.
There was quite a bit of awkwardness on your face, but you didn't even notice and rolled your eyes, looking back and forth between the strawberry candy and me, and soon a faint smile appeared on your lips.
"... Phew,"
"You're funnier than you look. I thought you were only funny on the outside."
"...Do I look funny?"
“I’ve never heard anything like that before.” Upon hearing my answer, his smiling face changed into one filled with even more laughter, and he covered his mouth with one hand and laughed. I don’t know why he laughed, but… it was funny, so I guess the plan was successful.
Still, it was much better than looking sad. When she smiled, I naturally smiled back in relief. Only then did she realize she'd had a good laugh, as she cleared her throat again, saying, "Hehe."
"Haven't you ever heard someone say you have a funny face?"
"Yes, this is your first time, Yeoju."
"Hmph... You haven't heard of it."
He was still giggling, like a high school student. How could he have mistaken me for a 20-year-old? My shameful comments came flooding back to me, but I was content with the fact that he was still laughing. Why be satisfied? What's there to be satisfied with?
"... What do you mean, do I really look funny? Wow, that's a bit shocking?"
"No no lol"
"You're handsome, Kim Taehyung... Sir? Sir? Well, anyway."
Since he still hadn't gotten his bearings, he seemed quite unsure of what to call an older man. Of course, the most formal way to address him was to start with "oh" and end with "pa"... but... well, that's a bit much. They only met yesterday, and Taehyung uses formal language like "Yeoju-ssi," so it's impossible for him to call him "oppa."
Taehyung couldn't help but laugh at that sight. It was quite interesting that he, who was known as a cold and handsome guy at school, could laugh.
"I think we'll meet often."
"Please speak comfortably, Miss Yeoju."
"...You should speak first so I can feel more comfortable."
This is because it is a country of courtesy in the East.Her answer made me like her even more. Up until now, among the women I'd told to be comfortable speaking, no one had ever told me to let go first. And when I'd told them to, they'd immediately start calling me "Taehyung oppa," and they'd always cross the line.
When I answered first, 'Yes, my lady,' only then did he seem satisfied."Yeah, Taehyung oppa."He smiled faintly. It was just a change in title, but why did I feel so excited?
I guess I just felt strangely good. Oh, it's not like I had any special feelings for her...^-^ She's just cute. I feel like she's like a little sister. (Kim Tae-hyung (21), an only child who suddenly feels the feelings of an older brother with a younger sister)
"Oh, I'll eat the candy too, Oppa."
"Yeah, enjoy. I'm giving you that because I really care about it."
"Hahahahahaha, yes, bye! Thanks for bringing me here."
"I told you, you don't have to be thankful."
"Hey, thanks anyway!"
"If you really appreciate it,"
"Don't be so grumpy, just smile and walk around. It's pretty when you smile."
"... Yes, I will."
I've felt it before, but you were a pretty girl with a shy smile. I was just telling you the truth. You were really pretty. And not just pretty in my eyes. I also quite liked how you smiled at my words.
The more I think about it, the more I realize it's a shame you're a minor. You were such a perfect match for me. But... what can I do? She has a boyfriend. She's not the kind of person who would steal a boyfriend away from you. I just wanted to take care of you as a close older brother...
That's not going well. Trying to keep that line... really, it's difficult.
"Selfishly, I want you."
A year passed like that, and back to the present... no, let's go to the middle of this year. I was 22, and Yeoju was 19. During that time... if you're talking about changes, Yeoju and I became closer? Really close. It wasn't that I was the one who initiated it... rather, we just met in the morning and evening... It was mostly because we were neighbors.
In the morning, I'd go to class, and Yeoju would go to school. In the evening, I'd come home from drinking or hanging out, and Yeoju would come home after a night out. We'd keep running into each other, seemingly by chance, so we couldn't help but become close... And then, Yeoju, perhaps feeling grateful after that, kept pretending to know me. I liked her anyway, but I kept harboring feelings I shouldn't have, and it was only me... only me who was suffering.
"No, brother. Listen!"
“Why, why Jeon Jungkook again.”
As if he was used to it, he was sitting on the sofa in Yeoju's house and listening to her complaints again. Again, he must have fought with Jeon Jungkook. I've never met a guy named Jeon Jungkook, but I feel a sense of closeness. Seriously. If you just listen to Yeoju, he's complete trash... I don't know why they don't break up.
When Yeo-ju tried to grab Agyak's hair as if she was annoyed, Tae-hyung stopped her with a "Whoa, whoa..." and immediately put down his phone. With one hand, he lowered her wrist that he was about to grab, and with the other, he gently straightened her hair. Yeo-ju seemed used to it, and just squirmed quietly.
"...The more I think about it, the more annoyed I get."
"I told him I was upset, what the heck? He didn't even care how I was doing these days!"
"Yeah, yeah, that's what happened-"
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"...Why are you doing that again?"
"We're in our third year of high school. You have to bear the burden of my not being able to pay attention to you."
"... What...? What you said really hurts me."
"You'd better make an excuse. Don't treat me with such shamelessness."
"We've only been together for a year or two? Do you need that excuse?"
"Yeah, you said it well."
"We've been seeing each other for a year or two? We've been seeing each other for three years."If you include the years we were friends, it's been five years. You and I."
"... So, what do you want to do? You"
Wow, I really can't communicate with this guy.She sighed, roughly running her hands through her hair, as if her anger hadn't subsided. They were both in a sensitive period, and she showed no sign of giving in. Surely they'd find a compromise, a way to calmly and calmly discuss things. The two simply stared at each other, seemingly unable to understand each other.
Let's look at each other as if the three years have passed without any meaning, and the one who gives in again is none other thanYeojuIt was. In the past, it was clear that Jeongguk always cared a lot, but when did it start to become like this? In the past, we really got along well. As I compared the past and the present, my disappointment continued to swell.
You weren't like that in the past. You were kinder to me in the past. In the past, when I said I was upset, you would hug me and say sorry. Now, the more I vent my sorrow to you, the more you whine and make me more miserable.
...you've changed, Jeon Jungkook.
"...Okay, talk to you later."
"... or something like that."
"I have to go to school now that it's almost time. You go to school too."
Seeing you turn around and head back to the academy without hesitation, I felt a pang of resentment again. Surely, if I'd done this much, you'd know I was deeply resentful. There's no way you wouldn't know.
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"Wow... That was so disappointing."
"Right!!! Ha! I'm really speechless."
"... always feeling sad and angry like that."
"...Why don't you break up? I told you to just break up."
Why maintain a relationship that's full of hurt? You're the only one suffering. By listening to your worries, you might've felt a little lighter and a little better, but I definitely didn't. In fact, it only hurt me more.
I want to make you smile, but this is the best I can do. I wanted to tear you away from that Jeon Jungkook man right away, but I couldn't.Because your heart still goes out to him.
Outwardly wishing you happiness, while inwardly fulfilling my own selfish desires. It was pathetic. Since when did I become so selfish? It must have been since I met you.
Because after I started liking you, I became selfish.
"... It's because I'm a senior in high school, because I'm a senior in high school."
"It's a time when studying is more important than dating..."
"Lady,"
"...Yeah"
"A man doesn't treat a woman he likes like that."
"still...!"
"At least I am, I am."
"Even though you know that the person you like is sad, who pretends not to know? That."
"......Brother,"
"It would be good to clear your mind."
"To you, or to anyone."
Who's talking to whom? I really... really, hate to say this, but people are so cunning, and I know I shouldn't, but I've further widened the gap between you and Jeon Jungkook. You still like him, but the reason you're hurt is also because of Jeon Jungkook.
If the two of you had dated nicely, I wouldn't have done this."Jeon Jungkook, he keeps hurting you. I'm confident I won't do that. Because I cherish you more than anyone else. I want you to be happy, so it's right to mercilessly cut off that relationship that's not going anywhere."
...I helped the beggar, Yeoju.
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Hello!!!! It's been a while. You might have thought that I write once a month...🤔 I just write whenever I feel like writing, but somehow, hehe
Isn't it a bit more than usual? Hmm, well, I don't come often, so I tried to make it more substantial, but it seems like the story has progressed a lot...🙄 It's okay(?) That's possible, haha
This is also a bit misleading(?) but today is today!
It's my 400th day...🙈💖
It seems like it comes every anniversary, but it really is absolutely not like that... I was just going to post it - but then I suddenly got a notification saying it was the 400th day... (scratch)
Normally, I would know about it a few days in advance and think about what to do, but this time, I got the notification on the day and thought, 'Huh... Huh...' and quickly thought about what would be good!!!
Even though I'm so tired, all I have is a small amount of money...😉 I'm going to give you all a gift certificate!!
I would like to give you everything, but I don't have money. I'll just give you a little(?)Vera Single RegularI've prepared...! I'll decide fairly by luck, and I'll only give it to those who leave comments on this episode! 😳 Comments... well, I'll try to accept them until tomorrow! I hope you all participate :) 🙈💖
I've gotten a bit carried away, so I'll come back with the winning results in 2-3 days 😻😻
For those who are a little offended by my long speech, let me give you a little spoiler for the next episode. The next episode will probably beThree-way meetingI think this might be it 🤭
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(I forgot to say thank you earlier, but I feel really new and excited to be reaching my 400th day. I'm proud that I've accumulated quite a bit of experience even though there are many veterans around me. Thank you so much for looking at my humble work, and as I always say, I will continue to love you in the future 💖💖💖 Thank you for looking at me today as well:) 😻)